Monday, September 27
sheez
mmmmzzz... i m back...the ol wise inspirationist wid too much of craziness within me iz back...woohooo.i learned many tings in wkend...jay chou songs hav a wave format or subliminal msg dat tell u to fall in luv wid the person u tinking of....jealousy is a tool of the devil...dun fall for it...n i completed chem within two daes...man ... i m proud of myself...still got bio...shiat...n anon...piss off...n de bloody moronas spamming my tag board...piss of...hu de hell iz anon by de way?beta link urself la...n dom n kwarkey go do ur break dance n dun cock arnd my blog...mmmmzzzzz ...n my jian dan ai....its scerewed up man...i tot can work one lor...nuts....bleahx....fell inluv wid it over wkend...chao ji nice lor...
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Thursday, September 23
suffering from luv sickness
oh yea...lets do a lil recap of wad i did over de past few daes...got cheena prelims den got quite bad la...cos neva study lor...pls man..its express cheena la...den after dat...rui xiang go n challenge me to go play taekwonod dual la...not veri nice la...lost to him like siao la...ok..i noe its wrong..but i needed an outlet to u noe exert all myh frustarations lor...den my foot got busted...tarlking in tkd terms...he wuz abt to launch some back thrust ast me den i did a turning kick hias heel smash the top of my foot...so yea...swollen...thanx pkl for bandaging it for me...dedn dmn pain la...n sis...it aint the same gal...
yea...being in luv simply sux la....u cant concentrate...n yesterdae...i could not understand the bloody trigonometry...i m gonna fail the adv maths la...not to mention core maths...haha...yea...i wuz seized by the super impulse to tell how much i feel la...so bad thast my hand had to stop the other hand fromn reaching for the hp n repeat history like las yr...had to talk to frends...kaili, qian li n marian...they all like giv me important lessons man...kind of stopped the impulse la...in case u duno like las yr...arnd dis time...or 31 sep..i bared my feelings to a gal la...well, lets juz sae it din work out la...rejected lor...den dis yr...learning my lesson...i stopped my self...haiz...oh yea..marian sori for all that boggie msgs....how long more to wait till i can actualli feel ready to bare myt feelings?oh man...dose impulses to tell how much i feel r from the devil or from God...cantg tell lor...rejected on earth accepted in heaven...so izit God's will dat i hav to tell her n get rejected the third time in my life....or de devil iz trying to bring me down...shucks....n all dose bastards spamming my tag board...go away ...dis morning...shi han still calls me wise man....cos i managed to get him from having suicide tots las yr n continue studying...not getting into ib is ok..datgs wad i told him so he din...i duno how i could do dat la..now cant lor...boo
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Monday, September 20
Happy bdae Marian
ok...i noe dis sounds likeba cliche so todae i actualli got a comm so muz like make gd use of dis...man...i m addicted to blogging....like yesterdae...whilestudying juz tinking wad to write todae lor...yea...den at 0000todae smsed marian happy bdae...shucks...exam stress getting to my head...so forgiv me if nowadaes the entries r like rather eccentric...shucks man...neva gonna study finish bio lor...so wadeva...u noe...i finally found y gals like to hug eacvh other...its a way of destressing...me n yiyang were like wanting a hug so badly on fridae cos we were like so stressed up...pity yiyang man...hes like one of the most pro guys i eva seen lor....he would get some rili high post in council nex yr lor...look at him man...hes like got more stress than moi...shucks man...dne sundae we freeloading mooncakes..hehe..sori...taka...haiz...u noe one of the most powerful drugs is the feeling of luv...ho yea...i cant help it dudes...sori dachi...but its like my whole teenage life wuz grown up in dat la..how can not hav it...yes....hoo..i m on dat drug again...its called luv...helps to tkae ur mind over the number of topics u hav to study wen ur studying...yea..bad if u tink too much of her...i m kind of getting to rthe bad part...N I DUN NEEED COUNSELLING FOR DIS...u noe...i wuz like imagining the life wen we are together...sheez..i noe itrs like onli me imagining things la...sheez..gota snap outa it...yea...den i manage to noe how to sing jie kou by jay chou....shucks..wen u actualli tink of a future with de gal u gotrta snap outa it...cos its gona do osme maajor damage to ya wen uget rejected...i wuz like telling myself..no way of tinkling like dat man..it iant gona work...scared of rejection la...i dun tink it will b reciprocated...haiz...wad to do?rejection iz de onli way to go ya noe?lets not alk abt such stuf la..den u noe ppl like le chern...de dude duno hes charming la...dat saturdae he saed some chij gal asked him out...i tink dats cos she interested in him...hes so modest..always denying it lor...shucks...better go away from dat topic...u noe i envy dat dude from heavnely sword n dragon sabre..wuji..his name...he has like four gals hu hav a luv forhim lor...heehee...yea...sometimes i tink God iz like trying to make me learn my lesson by haing me like a gal again...or maybe its my own emotions..it cant b de devil's work can it?luv is a beautiful ting wad....haiz...
n finally...orion...i aint gona sae wad happen to him..al i can sae iz...i oso din check my blazer despite all dat notices...it wuz like there for a rili long time lor...in the blazer cover..poor guy...its his honesty dat he returned lor...ok beter stop goping too deep...yea...
n i aint applying for council...so i m senior prefect nx yr...marain...juz for your info...i dun wanna get corrupted by the power..its too much [power to handle lor...n i dun tink i can lead the board in council..so yea....
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Thursday, September 16
liking gals
whooo....veri bored left wid onoli 5 mins left in recess...yea..feeling better...i juz tot of dis while doingmorning duty...u noe wen u like sum gal...u wuld obviously assume that the gal has some feelings for ya...den wen u tell her u like her she rejects u cos all dis timeu hav been imagining things...so yea....but y do teenagers stil fall in luv...cos they wan to experience this luv thsi pain...its kinda like a drug...n u experience euphoria...whoo hoo...yea...feel high...its onli wen the pain starts dat it gets ugly...oh my..end of recess...i tink i better go...sucks...anywayz...thanx russell n dachi...n marian i guessed that wuz u dat dae...yea..i chillin...future senior prefect lee...sigining of...byez
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Tuesday, September 14
pre exam depression
oph yea...dis aint some post to talk abt my day...juz dat i tot i saw marian on sundae...while i wuz in the car...she wuz donning some nice hjair style..nopt sure if i t wuz her la..hehe...den jonk wuz like asking me abt loh chin ee cos some guy she noes likes loh chin ee...i wuldnt blame him la...even i hadba crush on her las yr...shit dats all...now lets tlak abt me state of mind...yesterdae...i juz felt evrything collapswe on me man..shit..i actualli cried in public....asked for depression tests from school counsllor...den juz flowed tears la...siao man...i juz couldnt hold anymore...sounds gay ya...but its juz so hard to swallow man...exams in how many weeks n i hav so much to study...so much..how to mug so much...its bloody o level sylabus man...thebnwhole chunk minus some minor chapters...frig....dasmnb alot la...if not for my maths n bio..i tell u i wuld hav completed revision...yea...bloody lot la...juz feel so stressed up man...i canrtbtake it anymore...the reason y i m here todae iz cos i din take the temptation to jump from the building yesterdae...i rili wanted to jump man...frig....its juz so heavy...den my parents r like making nonstop comments...mum making thingsbworse for moi by talking shit abt her mao ze dong life....frig man...i can onli sae fuck to that life...so much to study n so lil time....shucks man...i duno la...if this iz de las p[ost u seeing..it either means irili m mugging or i wuld hav jumped from a building...i tot nothing of those issues pressing in my mind las time...but those r the cracks iun my confidence..now like most of it iz like gone la...broken....now i think i like suffering from mild depression...
nmex i wanna talk abt esther...shucks man..i duno wads wrng wid that gal...i like juz wanna noe her as a frend...dfen she go n do this kinda thingfs..add her for frendster..she dun accept...msn oso..i tink she even changed her blog juzto escape my eyes...shucks man..wad makes u tink i m stsill in luv wid u?do de signals i giv out seem so misunderstanding?man, its juz sean wants to noe u...not sean likes u...gosh....i onli wen to the invest toask for forgivness....u saed ya nvm...ya rite man...like real....how can u sae words u dun even mewan?dats like so unchristian like man....n u were one of ther first ones hu had been the means by which that GOd tried to talk to me u noe?gosh....man, i neva sen any1 go so far juz to avoid moi lor....tsk...even changed ur blog...no swecond chance...at thius pint of time,i already dun go round liking gals lor...i noe many pppl wil sae yea rite...but its rite la...after las yr november...i juz din wan to go hav crushes...hav to deal wid the pain...wid God in my life, y do u need gals to like?tsk...esther if u r reading dis...i juz wanna apologise for the giving out vibes that actualli make u tink i still like u man.. on crush last for so long one ok?tru i mayhav liked u since like p6n i tink...but that s past...since las yr cny oso dun hav liao la...candice tells me to lay off...dun disturb ya..i guess i wuld listen to her...giv ya room...shucks...but rmb....its juz frends man...no other intentions ok?
n its kinda time to end recess now..so i gtg..in case i not here on 20 sewpt....HAPPY BIRTHDAE MARIAN!!!or rather advanced la...yea?
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Thursday, September 9
prefect selection camp
yeaz...but lets start from army open hse la...it wuz boring man...totally...like u gonna come here in like 3 yrs n u still wanna come...tsk..mad...so yea..me n npcc gangf wqent to fool arnd la...managed to shoort a bloody tank using laser...got a collar pin...den after that, bronson, reuben n me went arnd walking...walk walk walk...all over orchard..ps n far east lor...den went home...den sundae, nothing much happened...mondae wuz prefect selection camp...went there at 645am...den get briefed by yiyang...goty some nominees go there so early lor...den they gather, kana bitched like siao..not rili compared to wad i went thru...den i wuz some overall evaluator of a grp la..no big deal la...den went LT for talk...quite boring...nearly slept...den cheering briefing...wa piang...knock it down wuz first used in cheering there...then they so indecisive lor..rite rite left left...face wher oso dunno...den yi yang go yell rite rite left left 5566 ah?...haha evry1 had to keep from laughing la...den the dae went by....until team building games la...den i wuz in charge of a station...some crapped up station...mus make em do forfeit...den they so reluctant..wen i ask em to sing chinese song...they all dunno lor.n they all chinese usmmore...some joker called me sacriligeous(i dunno how to spell la) wen i prevented him from singing halelujah...too short a song la...so yea..songs like she will b luved n this luv n accidentally in luv were sung...den all the way till nite games..i hav to sae la...the nominees suck at cheering...den it wuz some war games la..nominees were damn dumb lor..sec 3s were s'posed to spray water at em to knock off their lives la...den they tot i evaluator which is sec 2 la...den i revealed my sniper gun la..npc property la..long range shot..can whack ooff any1 lor...den got this buncha guys act damn wad la..damn big bunch...den wen they saw me incomiung den they start to run...by the time...half the life gone liao...haha.den over..bathe n crash..nx dae..got bio remedial la...all de way until 3 pm..miassed alot la..many ppl broke down n cried from wad i heard...haah.cos it wuz russel cheering sesion...tsk...den i joined back..nothing much la...din bitch...nite games me n orion were like evil men la..giv blank clues...make em do forfeit den giv em blank clues la...all together ten grps got suckered...den it wuz quite scary at nite la..we scared ourselves somemore...haiz..den it ended..got pizza...scared some shit outa the winner grp in the grand finale..haha...the berst wuz stil arthur n yiyang blackness staircase...n mr soo keptscaring ppl la...hans kana like 3 times...den las dae...i bitched a lil bit...den de ol ones came back...yep...de guys dat giave me nite mares in sec 1 came back...blah blah blah...den break camp...got alll dat evaluation...blah bvlah...den zhao home lor..den i go chat on msn...kana naged by dad...wa piang...i mus sae sumting...THERE SO MANY SICK BASTARDS...some even spend the whole time in the board room lor...spastic...go home la..now i here in skool library blogging...SGT sean lee signing off...
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Friday, September 3
a whole wk
ok...haven blog for damn long time...sundae...i upgraded my plaan...changed dads hp...now i hav freee incoming calls...ppl pls call hor...dun sms...den got a new duffel bag...yea...mondae..nothing happen lol...tuesdae...i had teachers dae celebration...shulkd hav taken a green form n skipped the concer den go bck tao nan early...damn boring sia..lame performances...shit crap...den daryl ong go n delay de thing sommore...den took a cab back lor...den we saw all the teachers...bloody ramond n daryl damn pahjiao...go n sabo me in frontof esther... they noe me n her not veri good terms...or wad it seems to me la...den went up c teachers....wait with h clas.sori 6j...yea...den we went out la...basically...haiz...yea.den went home la...after hanging arnd with nigel n jonk plus company for damn long time...made new frends..yea.den wednesdae chao ji boring...nothing to do...thursdae...stoopid geps..go n attitude me...ha.ben chia..u trying to fight or something...no badge den dao me...i book ur arse off.no badge n defiance ah..piss off man..u cant beat the prefect...sori that i abusing my authority..but iznt it rite that i bk him?he got no badge leh...den nothing much happen la..p[od essay did until "cry" cos sooo bloody boring...how to make 1000 plus words lor...pathetic...about studying philosophy...managed to make it la...den fridae damn boring la...den all dat nonsense...den got d/c...bloody bastards so bloody disrespectful....morons...couldnt bitch em la...cos they so stubborn...jeremy ng bloody attitude la...sdoo damn irritating...he so big dun get booked la...no prefect like him den go n book him lor...so he got so many...tsk...haiz dis iz de wk for ya...juz a bit of bloody reflections....on teachers dae...saw esther la...haiz...den yea...i still tink she haven forgiv moi yet la...or i tink so...dat dae i told myself...if u wan ppl to forgiv u..forgiv urswelf for the sins dat u committed...as long as u r repentant...god will always b with u...n he will bless u...
Oh Heavenly Father...i thank you for this wonderful wk..i hope u will bless esther in her duties as an exco..tho she iz rather low rank in her npc cca..its cos she iz bz with exco...its juz dat i din wan to lie to her as lying is a sin to U...yea...its sounds darned mushy mon...haiz...but me n her r like acquaintances now la...altho she talk to me first...but i hope u will allow me to b frends withher again la...cos i dun wanna hav such guilt in my conscience...yea...amen...God bless...thank yd
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