new years eve: a time of brokenheartedness

ya.one good thing i hav achieved is not giving her my heart to her on christmas.u noe the song"las christmas i gave u my heart, but the vei nex day, u gave it away"oh i tot that wuz dumb man.haha.at 155 plus this morning.mingwei asked her if i told her i liked her, would she accept me? she saed no.but she will be there as a frend.now my subconcious has locked my feeling.i cant feel the agony.or maybe i hav been feeling this for so many times thta its usual.hmmmmz.the gal i met at june act.has indirectly rejected.i wuz like moaning abt being jealous over those guys to mingwei.then hes like let go la.and blah blah blah.then he ask her thisand that.ya la.haha.i m always looking at her blog.trying to get close to her.i neva stopped liking her la.i wuz always getting jealous of all those guys.all those sas boys.gary,glenn,andrew,mengkit,john,vincent and more....i keep asking God izit worth it juz keep running on.to juz ontinue with all that guys in her life. im number something.sheez.izit wrong to b jealous?i cant help it.dispose it and it continues coming.nonstop.then onli this morning thaqt i decided to give her up.i tot it wuz gonna b painful.but this morning i woke up feeling nothing.hav u eva felt nothing when u woke up in the morning.whether its sian or pain or happiness and more. its all feelings.then i rmbed, then,still nohing happened.izit cos my body is like a robot.and a virus has infected all the files.now it attewmpted a quarantine.locked it up.i cant face the pain like that la.u noe it wuz those jealousies that spurred me on to learn the stuff las minute.learn as in real fst.trigo.chem.bio.maths.cos iwuz jealous.oh man.i can write this cos i noe she doesnt care much to look at this entry.all those sappy love poems were like abt her la.the cryptic.juz dat my blu skies are neva gonna happen or rather my blu skies hav become calm.too calm.how i yearn to juz sit on the green plains and look to the sky.alone.and a new age song would come to my ears.ya i mdeviating.jealousy.a veri painful sin that causes hate unnecessarily.i m unable to escape such a sin.one of the 7 deadly sins.the new is coming up.anothr new target:to move outa her life slowly.man. i need time to think.i mean i can see from the signs:daoing sms.near one word replies on msn.inability to meet me for me to pass her christmas present,talking so much bout other guys on her blog.its like signs to tell me that its a wrong path in life.oh God, y did u tell me abt the dark clouds.the sun wouldnt even shine for me.it doesnt matter if there any dark clouds or not.i mean man, i liked this gal real hard la.now all thats left is the beautiful memories.memories of june act, the meeting on bus 196, the meeting at bedok, the feeling of getting her all those gifts( they were rather insignificant.but saying goes that if the gal is interested in u, even a rock can satisfy her), the kc camp, the barbequeue( ok i admit...i din bump into her.its all planned out ok?juz dat karkin wouldnt come with me..shheez)such memories.its all there.and supposedly the pain.the pain that hangs that will b locked in my subconcious.two ppl destined nort to be togetherbut the guys tries to force.hes easily jealous she doesnt care.no its not gonna b some qi shi yuan lu( if u watch qian nu you hun)getting to cheena on this.shes the reason why i picked up the drums and the guitaar.or rather continue the guitar. now the onli thing i can think of now is qing fei de yi.the line "zhi pa wo zi ji hui ai shang ni, bu gan rang zi ji qing bu zi jin, pa wo mei shen me neng gou gei ni.AI NI YEXU YAO HEN DA DE YONG QI"lovng u would require much courage.and slwoly i m gonna go outa her life.probly by nex june act, she wouldnt even rmb me. its like a cycle.the pain comes andthen it goes.the answer to this whole ridle: marian.

"dark skies in the morning"
this morning i woke up with the rain
beating outside my window
then i remembered
wad happened las nite
wad ur reply wuz
its funny that God would cry for me
when i m such a smallie in this world
and He would cry so hard too
He took away my pain
leaving me with an empty shell
i loved u once
and i mthinking those feelings are still locked inside my mind
one thing i will neva forget are those times spend with u
and now the new year approaches
i move into that with a new shell
a weak form thats soon to grow strong
onli reminiscence of her would be those memories
of a gal called marian
memories that would tell me thatshe even existed
in my life
and now as i write this poem or song
i made this painful decision
that its better that i move out of ur life slowly
and u would neva noe i existed
half year later
perhaps its beta for the both of us
the dark skies are still there
perhaps my blue sky is one without u
if it is then...
i guessed u re juz not the one
lucky would b the man hu got ur heart
onli itwouldnt b me
i loved you

sean lees gonna b diff nex yr..alot.and nobody is to come and talk to me bout this.cos i m venting this out.so dun bother counselling e bout this.it wun work.cos its locked.my problems with this i can solve myself.amen

the banner things

ok...so much for the post.dachi asked me to delete.walaneh.post on blog oso cannot.muz delete.i wun delete.its EDITED onli....and i woke up late tis morning.then went to skool to design the banner for npcc.like wow...join npcc...wowz..then we had to make another one aside from the join npcc one.then we had to think of a motto or slogan for it la...so i tot how long....chao ji long la...then manage to combine our slogan from 2004 and kc's 2005 ...got the passion word and the ignite word..and come up with"ignited by passion, serving with pride"cool huh?then we got down to business...then i ate lunch at boarding skool cos sac wuz closed..or no stall wanted to open for us...oh well...then i decided toget wild and painted the bottom of the np room bench silver...my special bench sia.then we did finsih the banners and then bronson went on to clean up the room..while i juz sat at the side and watch...den i went to rearrange the white board..crap rite?then we delay until 5 then start to and the banner...and the funny thing is that we always hung the thig nex tothe scouts one...haha..then went home late la..wuz veri pissed off la.then finish doing the fake iso results...muz commence with the discusion and conclusion...i managed to get the 1000 words for intro and method....cool huh?add on results and discussion and i will probly get another 1000 liao...wuz trying my best to avoid sandra sim today sia...hide face and all haha
nex yr npcc all female teacher leh...wa piang...guy skool unit got all za bo teacher...apa ini?haiz..
planning to organise a t-shirt design competition..for my squad...sian of this lousy ol t-shirt liao...to cartoonish...yucks.new year coming up...time to gear up...if i can.heehee.dun wanna make dad angry leh.i guess i m sticking to this 3100.no 7260...bah

end of year camp

this is not the original posting...it wuz far much more bad stuff..and i hav been asked to delete this.but i refuse.cos dis iz my blog.and if i hav to make it look pleasing for ppl,i tellu i will go to the extreme of changing my blog.this is the las time i mmaking a post a friendly version...any more nx times, i tellu, i aint gonna move an inch.not even one.there are still some bad stuff here.if there aint, it means i m swallowing my anger.u gotta b nuts if i hav to do dat to myself when i can juz vent it out on my blog...happy reading....skimmed version
tamade...shuo lai ye hui sheng qi....thinking of it, you will get super angry sia.i went to acsi thinking we could sit out the bloody camp.bloody?naw.abit of fun la.a lil review of programme....
we reported, then we got into our rooms.student forum( aka ammunition...i'll talk more on that later) got the best room.debate.it has a great sex corner la.so many big cushions.then, we all wanted the heart shaped cushions, but karkin and cheng liang took the onli two there wuz.then i got two big pillows.YEA.and cheng took like 7?haha.then after settle down, we went for agm.it wuz looooooooooooong...but great.den we student forum had a meeting that started discussing abt watching star wars ep 3 and kung fu hustle.bad bad bad.we onli managed to discuss abt wad we were formed for for like 1 minute max?haha.den we started giving other com feedback.like june act, dinner,blah blah blah.etc.then we had cheering....NOW NOW...i dunno wads wrong with me but i dun see myself and johns great vision of us doing the participating things in the camp very cooperating la...first we kana bitch by dachi, wowz huh?y dun we juz get left outa this?hello!its onli tradition that us senior prefects get our rest.man, i m dead tired sia.and it aint my fault man.haiz.no hert sia.then some jokers decided that they do the re cheering things.wowz.i confess that i lied when i said i wanted to carry on cheering.humph.then cut into the lunch hour.great.lucky our com bring wallet with us.when they sae go.we rili went.caught the 74.we wer the earliest at holland v.ate burger king.lend ppl my coupons( sounds cheap skate la..but bo lui wad u expect rite?) then after eating, we took the wrong round, and then we got lost la.then we were late.haha.on the way, me and qian juz talked abt wu yue tian.then i wanted to learn bass la.be as gd as mayday sia.haha.high expectations.then skiiiiiiip all the way to dinner.had dinner.ok la.then we had the talent time.great items.nothing to sae except for the sec 3 and ours.the sec 3s played the reason.i dunno man.it aounds super cha la.not the guitarists fault la.not the drummer oso.johanes is darned gd at the dsrums sia.but i think cos its too fancy drum stuff liao.its onli a simple song.then me and karkin started singing damn loud.then kah cheee wuz like shhhh.wad the hell man.we high wad.cannot sing ah?then it wuz ours.sheez.ITS SO MUNDANE.I CANT BELIEVE WE DID THAT....not to mock the idea thinkers, but it wuz rili wow la.we juz sang a song with no instruments.then russell gave me a calender.oh man, thats like the number 3 greatest present i got this year for christmas.heheh.then had night games.and we had to play.its like we cannot zheng our juniors.tktsktsk.i got worn out man.i tell u when i got worn out, and u still push me...i will snap...i rili will when those STUPID sec 2 attempt to quesion me when i told em not to come and piss me off.but still they did!!!the council din exactly talk the much abt respect for senior prefects to the new ones.piss me off veri clever. oh and could it make it better if one of them looks like xing long?i tell u, his behaviour is like a bloody xing long.then there wuz this xuan kai.tried to get frendly with me.too frendly.wth man.then hans made us recite the pledge.sheez.ask me recite the npcc pledge oso i can say so many times for u.prefects one?alamak.wad we SENIOR PREFECTS do is juz know it for the investiture wad.where got go and rili know it.sheez.that rili pissed me off that we had to do it over and over and over again.dammit.i noe i m wrong to think that way of the pledge.but i m onli human and i m imperfect.i aint as power as those councilors wad.tamade.then shawn made us rehearse the pledge.poor sarinder had to do pledge of not his mother tongue lor.then i had to do parade command.ARGH.like wth."baris sedia.baris dahat setia-setia.baris senangdiri"nonsense sia.then we had to do it again.arthur from above made the click sound la.then shawn thought it wuz one of us.then no1 admit, then he got angry, then he yelled.then he frightened me with that sudden outburst la.haiz.i tell u i wuz super traumatized man.worn down.like i juz wanted to break down and sae i m sick.then arthur kept jumping out from the darkness that camouflaged him.always frightening me sia.then blah blahblah blah.slept chao late.wanted to finish my fake iso results but coudnt cos too tired that day. tot i could sit out the camp and do. but i guess i wuz wrong.now i rili muz rush la.then the worst wuz when all the talks the nx dae began la.i wuz like blinking off.nodding off.i couldnt catch wad the councillors were saying la.i wuz like "aiyah, juz cut straight to the badge giving la!"then got promoted lor.then roshen mum sent me home.so good sia.one time muz give her something to show my appreciation.haha
now....i dun care how many times u apologise man.not that i am not easily pleased.but i feel that we re being treated like our juniors.like there shld b a thick line btw us and the juniors.me cocky?sure. idun deny it.but y do we hav to play the nite games.IT WUZ BORING!!!lame theme.u noe when i went kc camp, i learned alot.bout camps.number one, they din cheer.no BLOODY cheering.ITS UNNECESSARY.loss of voice for poor karkin.and then ppl from ur own level shout at u..i wanted to do finish my iso, but then its delayed.i hav no more time left u noe?its like my time table got wrecked or something.andwads the meaning of FILLERS?!?!?thats wad they called us!!!FILLERS!reserve players in a game.ammunition to be disposed of rathe easily.i think too much.u gave me the idea!stupid.kcpb didnt hav it so strict on their prefects.their prefects havent gone so wrong...and our standard is drooooooopppping.i dun noe la.its juz wrong as cheng would sae.kar kin would sae its the bad things.i dun see how bloody fair that we hav to take part wid the juniors.fahrul wuz like going"senior prefect means neva apply for council."haha.i mean we dun hav to suffer to bond u noe? nat camp and kc camp is an example of such a concept.i see evryone of the exco of tkgpb or kcpb.THERE IS NO AIR OF COCKINESS.its juz a mild aura of leadership.that ppl listen.aiya.i dunno where i can get with this la. and another thing....david ang is second camp commandant for nco trng camp.then hes gonna gimme all the crap to do.and xing long is ci liao...tamade.hes gonna gimme hell when skool starts

schools coming

ARGH!!!one week later, i will be in school.cant blog!!!onli in weekend.so it wun b frequent postings yer noe.ARGH.sianx.nex yr:new responsibilities, new duties, new students, new pants, new teachers, new stress again, new scoldings.target for year 2005: lose some weight, form study group, learn bass guit, improve on my guitar handicap,probly go for bible study at cornerstone, try to get 7260( oh man...like i aint gonna get it for my birthdae), save money for christmas shopping(thinking in advance leh.),PAY BACK MY DEBTS,buy sly album in secret(mum dun like him...her personal taste becomes evryones taste...wow.buy it and she will crack it.destructive sia), improve on my amateur drumming, improve my sparring stamina, develop my precious future leaders in npcc- the sec 3s.try to love evryone as joseph saed at the party( thas hard to do for GEPs ah...), learn to break dance!!!go for cheering(and end up being mute the next dae)watch more tv, study more, revise more.study like got o's tho i dun hav bbut muz get into the mood then can leh.haha.go for tkd probl less.and of course more invests!!!one or two more la.oh sheez, so many thing to do in the next year...and of course watch more movies( batman..starwars and more to come...)
yesterdae, i watched six weeks.it wuz de las episode.oh man.it wuz rili thte tear jerking finale.lemme tell u for those hu din watch it.oh man, it wuz rili sad la.he throw his wife away.then he went to get a tattoo, and went bungee jumping orreverse bungee.then, he went to get his wife back.but she dun wan liao.den she wan go canada dat time the dude went to display this thing on the sign board on the road. there wuz the mushy messages like"be mine forever, for better or worse, from the world's dumbest fool david"oh man...so romantic man.hhaha.then he got her back.they had a re-wedding.then they spent his las weeks wid alota fun la.then the doctor go and tell him that he can be curewd of his cancer.oh my, it sounds so good man.and he went to cancel his funeral arrangements.then when he went home, his wife wuz in labour.then they go and send her into the hospital.then when setting of that time, thte gangster dude hu always park in front of him to block him wuz like oso going off but then the david mobile stalled in front of him.and then he lik knock knock knock on his window, then the david aSK HIM TO PISS OFF.BAD MOVE LA.gangster chase him down.make him pull over at the side of the road.then he saed ids"i dun wan trouble" then "but i wan" then he and his gangster khaki go and beat david up.as in beat up real bad la.blood flow la.then the wife wuz like screaming.in the end he died la.not cos of cancer.but cos he got beaten up by the common thug.then one year later, the baby turn 1 liao.he go and record all kinds of "legacy videos".like he left so many messages for his kids.the youngest got the birthdae video, the daughter gotthe dating video and oso got video for the date, then the eldest son hav NS video some more.then got for wife.then the las for all of them.famous words"lifes too short, and unfair, so live evryday the best way u knoe how"sobz.i almost cried la.oh man.its so touching.tounching beyond words.so sad.haiz

boxing day and christmas

ok.todae is boxing day.i am like one dae too late to sae merry christmas.all cos my sis and brother go and hog the com.oh haiz.everybody's out.or not online you noe.partying hard.while sean lee is confined at home to blog.play guitar.watch tv.forget about iso.forget al my trouble away.ah nonsense...haha.
christmas eve- ate lunch, den watch abit of tv,den go prepare the presents( never wrap early leh)...but i din wrap em yet.alota trouble to do this and that.den time to change to clothes for the christmas eve dinner.wore the same thing for the wedding lunch that day.oh yea.like its juz shirt and long pants hello?cos i dun hav formal stuff.its my prefects shirt and a pair of long pants that i never wear out.not even to orchard.too casual to wear so formal stuff la.den at the dinner.met uncle(he invited us wad)..den settled at our table.den wait.....and wait....and wait some more.....den uncle brought a bottle of cherry wine.started drinking a lil bit.bad move.empty stomach.fell asleep waiting( cos of alchohol).den FINALLY...the food got served.hate to sound like a pig but wad i saw b4 the dinner wuz plain torture.i had to watch so many ppl waltz on the dance floor...nonstop to OLD music...not as u like dose rock and roll or beatles...its cheena ancient old music....like oooh.i feel older by a century.haha.after that, th sharksfin wuz a sign to show that i wuz like abit drunk.i wuz like getting some into my bowl.i clearly missed the bowl and it spilled on the round spinning thingy.oh sheesh.like its so direct...how to miss?haha.den halfway, got some RA dance.small kids had to go.and that includes ME.so went out wait till the dumb dance wuz over.meanwhile watched LILO AND STITCH...SO CUTE!!!!haha.better than last year....casper and christmas...cheesy...and also cos i watched it b4.den went back in.eat abit...finish all courses liao.den drank the rest of my wine.(hey wine wuz great ok?sweet wine no bitterness)den the rest ha a ril vague memory.i went to the balconey.sent a few messages.come back in when they were dancing to alex toh's tuo diao( dats by far the most modern song that they had)ok the most embarrassing thing is..i started dancing....I ACTUALLI DANCED..nonstop sia...i aint got any nice moves.oh sheez.den lucky draw no luck.den the mc wuz like begging us to stay.HA.to listen more to old music.DJ dun hav black eyed peass no fun leh.haha.den went home.horced my sleepy body to wrap presents before crashing down to sleep. frankly telling you.i din noe wad i wuz doing wen i wuz wrapping the presents.like mind blank.ho sheez.den the best thing is my brother went to think santa would come and give presents.tho i would love presents, but i dun believe in such childish stuff about presents underneath the tree liao.haha.the las thing i remebered b4 i crashed wuz mayday's sun wu kong.my radio wuz playing it.yupz
christmas day- woke up at 8am(dunno why oso.kana drunk oso can wake up so early).den sneak downstairs to confirm that there would be no presents underneath the tree.yupz.there wuznt one in sight.then went to bathe.go down.eat breakfast.give presents.den met daphne at tampines interchange.yupz.got party mah.party wuz chao fun la.got introduced to alota new frends.there wuz vincent, ying hui, yili, stephanie, trinette, janice loh, jodin and more i think...then we took a bus to sabrina's house.then there got more, there wuz lavonne, janice chiang, derrick,jonathan,joseph,jun wei, jun keng(sounded like drill cane),then there wuz cute dwayne,shermaine, gaius,zhi hao and his gal and more...i tell u, janice chiang look so much like eunice that i thought that it wuz her..hwa scary.half expected her to go "HI DONNIE!!!!"haha.den play games.the whole party is cornerstone church.daphne's church la.they so warm and welcoming. i tot i gonna b some fish outa the water.then play games.eat.then worship.whoa.its like my first christmas worship la.ppl came forward to testify.its like they come from all walks of life.got chao ah lian one lor.hwa.amazing change sia.then watched passion of the christ.it wuz so sad ok?tho i saw onli part of it, its wuz like how sad la.and it wuz in spanish?then we worshipped somemore.joseph wuz talking.i learned alot about christ la.den we exchanged gifts.i onli made a gift for daphne cos i nli knew her there.then she gave me some rili touching thing la.she sewed four letter on a hp pouch for me la.quite nice sia.then they had this angel and mortal gift exchange way.den the best wuz derricks gift from daphne...it wuz this ultra big present like almost the size of a textbk.then there MANY MANY MANY MANY layers.until the end...it wuz like the size of a palm.hooo boy.then ying hui gave me a box of chocs cos he had noone to giv to and he brought like extra presents.so he gave it to me.then after that, i talkedwith joseph about christ.then he invited me to join cornerstone.haiz.but my parents...bible study can la but not church.then he wuz like telling me about silent christians.u noe...those that do not declare it loud and clear about christ being part of his life.ya lor.then talk like quite long then time to go home.then talk some more to daphne.oh sheez, shes taking tkd from that same ol fat man.mr low at siglap south.such a coincidence.haha.mr low teaches three, bedok north, siglap south and joo chiat and more...collectively known as woodlands zone 3.haha.talking to her like talking to my sister like that...tsktsktsk.haha.then went home. ate at kfc for dinner.the greatest gift that any1 could give to me would be daphne la.shebgave me the chance to worship Christ on christmas.i mean, i always wanted to do that la.hahaz.nice handphone pouch too.
today, woke up at 1000.nothing to talk about.online now.no1 online.or almost no1.watch six weeks.
end of year camp coming up and i havent pack for it yet...argh.muz dothe SWAT thing.i m gonna be totally honest wid it.means a long list of stuff...heehee...i still havent got my 7260 for christmas...daddy bo lui to buy la.no rich friend.well daphne gave me soemthing close...hp pouch..ah haiz.birthdae?haha.sweet sixteen.ok not so sweet.fourth day of chinese new year.bleahx
las nite had a dream abt sandra sim and iso..oh no...muz do...the time of forgery has come.and the bio thing i m gonna do alota nonsense and make sih teck hock angry.haha.make bio teacher angry on the first day.oh yayz, i m free to fetch yu lyn from airport i tot 30 wuz las dae of the year.oh yayz.

Happy Birthday Eugene

yuppies...my brother in eunos tkd turns 19 todae.yesterdae wuz sec 1 registration.i wore long pants for thye first time la...den i can remember the time when i wuz like p6.haiz.those were the days.and now i am so OLD.sheez.sec 4 leh.den i wuz like one of the three dudes hu wore long pants.other than john.then we volunteered to do the registration of the p6 dudes la.haha.see so many ppl.not like st andrews.they 90% is sajs lor.my brother onli tao nan nite there.sheez.here is 70% ps plus js.then got a handful of tao nan dudes.yupz.all the questions asked by the worried parents...they love their children so MUCH!!!like u know"dear, do u want to take higher chinese?its ur choice u know dear?"ARGH...haha.my time it wuz like, my mother juz signed me up to take higher chinese...no dear...and of course my father's degrading eyes at the disappointment of me getting into acsi...oh sheez.the most poular question of the day..."do you think my son should take higher chinese?" ans"well yea...cos it may sound hard but its manageable.see?i took it all the way to sec 4."then they would tick yes.but there would b the spoilt dudes hu would make such a big fuss over not taking higher mothertongue.so rude to their parents.tamade.how can?den the worst thing i had to tell the parents is that their child wuznt selected to take third language.and DEN got the jokers hu got selected and THEN dun wan to take.lil bastards.stupid mentality sia.my partner wuz doing all the running.louis.haha.den we ate lunch la.in the middle, ng teck seng told us that some moron wuz smoking in the toilet.wth.so strong smell somemore.i go catch him oso he pao diao le.y smoke?bad to ur lungs u noe?y ppl dun listen?den the worst wuz during tkd trng.we were doin super vigorous exercise and there wuz a man outside smoking.then his smoke come in.den i wuz breathin hard.real hard.den breathed in alota of his stoopid smoke.so chou.yucks man.wanted to go there and tell him "@#$% u ah.stop ur bloody smoking la.*&%# smelly leh."but din la.after sec 1 registration finish like dat lor.not even took afternoon.one thing STOOPID mentality of parents go and think we are open 24/7.hello.we are open UP TILL 12.u bloody inconsiderate.its onli out of gd heart my nice juniors stayed ok?i wuz evil and went off wid de rest of the sec 4s.u c?its onli a few ppl havent register but prefects hav to sacrifice their afternoon.poor ben hew had to sacrifice his sleep to continue.this is stupid man.if u r going RI or Communist high or SGayI or Victoria.call the skool.dammit.SO BLOODY INCONSIDERATE!!!ur child future leh...how can juz throw away like that?stupid.then me and qian took 74 from skool allthe way to hougang interchange...for fun.haha.took so long.den we went junction 8 to buy more christmas PREZZIES!!!den we went round walk walk walk...den qian li wuz like i m hungry.hes unbelieveable man.we ate chicken rice for lunch..so he had his second lunch.we went life bookshop,mph to search for books on God.as gifts.sounds cheapskate?well.we read em in the store ah.haha.den i got wrapping paper from popular.its quite cool man.to buy two pieces of wrapping paper i had to queue up for 20 plus minutes.to pay 2 bucks.den in front of me so amny ppl defet to the other queue.mine like got jinx like dat.dose defectors move so fast sia.den chao lady in front of me bought over 600 bucks worth of things..can tell she got a new kid in sec skool...den i had to wait juz to pay $2.cool sia.den we zhao home liao lor.i wait for sis to come home den tompang mum's car so that they dun grumble of double trip.den go home eat the BAD denner watch tv.den i watch ling lou on chnnel u.there is a love story of a nurse hu stuters and a man hu wuz a deaf man.den she scared dat if he go thru the surgery, he hear her stutter den might dump her.den he got the op.then he wrote these words on a piece of paper which translates as wanting to hear her voice as the first voice he hears after the op.but the nurse disappeared.she din wan him to noe she stuttered.den asked her best frend to record the best friend voice to spk the nurse words.so he wun hear that she stutter.then the poor man wuz left so heartbroken after the op.it wuz so sad.like my tears nearly come out la.( yea like real)the song toremeber this love is ning xia by fish leong...nice song leh.dis morning....my radio wuz playing jian dan ai by jay chou.hey i can play that song on the guitar.i aint some super handicapman.ya but i cant play the guitar for a performance.onli for my own entertainment.and that to show i aint a TOTAL klutz at the guitar.sheez.if onli i can play like dose guitarist in mayday.and the dude in FIR.thats would be nice.hha.but that is onli a dream.
the star on my christmas tree juz dropped and broke.and then it got repaired again.wow.great way to start ur christmas eve rite?santa can you hear me?i hav been so good dis yr.and all i wan is one thing...tell me my true love is here.shes all i want.juz for me underneath my christmas tree.i'll b waiting here.santa thats my onli wish this year.blah blah blah...dis song juz rings in my head.its like one of my fav christmas songs.nx best is frosty the snowman.HAHA.ok i m crapping again.merry christmas if i aint here to wish u all.no presents for me this year.sobz.no kisses or hugs.sobz.its gonna be lonely.7260 gimme gimme gimme!

nothing to blog

yupz..i dun hav a colourful life man.its like its dull same colours.everybody's away when u wanna go out.and today, like almost half the prefects are having a duty so i cany find any prefects to o out wid me...ya lor..so its sean lee to stay at home again.and think wild thought like yesterdae.tomorro is my turn lor.i replacing cheng liang while he enjoys himself in beijing..lucky boy.so i gloom in the darkness of my own mind.my stoopid moniter conked out.so i m using some super old and xiao one.makes evreything look so zhai inside one screen.pathetic man.things are konking out all over the hse.heehee.my christmas is gonna b a lonely one.oh haiz.meyb meyb not.mhmm.i using this old one means the OTHER computer no havmoniter liao.den i cant print cards.argh.stupid.mmmmz, nothing to say liao.onli i realised something.i lost something after national camp or during national camp.if i compare myself from june act and den now.i realised dat i m so much more different from then.las time i wun post lmsc mood.fun mood sia.been having this fun mood for quite long time till ROD...then national camp.theres something abt the npcc campsite that took it away.or izit after the tkgpb invest?became withdrawn and evrything.this syndrome lasted long and got added a dark edge cos of npcc.(go read august posts)now i m like some super brooder.juz sit at the corner and think.think of alota things.running thru my mind.its a pain to hold on to those thoughts.oh yikes.muz get some sunshine in this dark corner of my mind.yupz.santa can u hear me?i hav been so good dis yr?and all i wan is one thing...tell me my true love is here.shes all i wan juz for me underneath my christmas tree.i'll b waiting here.santa dats my onli wish this yr.yea rite.nice song.but sang by a bimbo.haha.roshen's sister is on tv yer noe?in that living wid lydia nx wk episode...i saw the ad.confirm its her.she got some funny name i forgot liao.oh wellz...after talking to harumi i hav inspiration for another poem.or meyb not.better not la.mmmmmz...

oh wowz, rmb i saed something abt someone whom i will chase to the ends of the earth and no matter wad she o oso cant escape..dats nuts man...i juz read her archives...basket..she changed it even b4 i told her.tamade.cos i wuz STUPID enuf to link myself to her tagboard.it wuz de dae b4 teachrs dae...stoopid.dammit."changed my site.for what?ask me to find."nabei...grandmother ah.tamade.i not a bloody terrorist la...scared until like dat.not as if i will eat u up.walaneh.wo bu shi da e lang hor.tamade.na shi de wo shi yi ge sha gua.xian zai de wo ke shi bu yi yang le.wo dou mei shuo hai shi xi huan.ye mei shuo hai yao zhui qiu ni.ni gan ma hai ba wo?chinese? yupz.go figur it out.basket.den she KNEW dat dae, somemore wan go ask rhetorical question on that dae."er...how u noe i m a prefect ah?"tamade ask for wad sia...u wan confirm juz ask me if i noe ur blog la...walaneh...pretend so much.bitter?naw.juz sounding my tots from quite a long time.heeeeez.hide until so much from one person...izit worth it or not?haha.rest assured i leaving yer alone mon.not that u would b here to see this entry.ha.HA.HA!matter put to rest

a cryptic poem

waiting...

new problems surface.
some old ones are resolved.
others still present emselves to me.
some of these even get worse.
wait? for how long more?
how long before i would know the waiting is worth it?
few daes? feew months? or 5 yrs?or meyb evn more than that?
wad if i waited so long and then i realised it never gonna happen?
wad would i do after that?
i hav been waiting since september.
each passing day would be filled the taste of bittersweetness.
november brought fun and joy into my life once.
the other time ended so abruptly
thoughts towards the pessimist would lead to more unpleasant thoughts.
the optimist would b pulled down by the realism.
jealousy.hurt.bitterness.the dark clouds are thick in my sky.
no replies would mean that i m invisible.
many layers of shields built up around
others can enter the 2nd outer gate
i can onli stand outside it and watch
them go deeper while i cant
cos the force is pushing me away
i hav to hold for now
stop advancing.
wait...till the time that the force no longer pushes me but welcomes me
the time where i hav found the key and can go thru all the gates
and straight to the core of it all
then meyb truely,
my sky will be blue once again.

sounds cryptic...the few readers who would b gd in literature go analyse this poem...

yea...dis morning i woke up wid an incredible feeling of sadness...totaly.i din even feel like eating breakfast.first thing,i offended someone yesterdae.and its not my brother.so yea...and i read the book of revelation.hav u ever read a bk dat makes u worry abt the end of days.the Final judgement.its so cryptic.its like a big question mark in the furture wid all dese stuff...all that abt the seven hills and more...its scary..the unknown.wad does the future hold?from wad i see, its not onli hard to get into the kingdom of God...it sounds impossible.i mean if u r evaluated by ur thoughts...and Man tends to think towards the sinful side...NOONE CAN KEEP PURE THOUGHTS....ARGH...now i m like super convinced dat i m gonna go to hell wen i go.oh man.its depressing.burn in hell for eternity.but the ending of it all, no more nite.de devil is gone.ppl rejoice in the garden of eden.the curse on man is lifted.and the dudes hu were sinful stay outside.oh man.this kind of thing worries me.its rili worries me...ok enuf of thinking of so much things.skools starting in two weeks.my iso....havent finished.others i dun dare to mention it.i dun wan to think of it.u noe, its like this WHOLE hols my mind wuz clouded...fogged.and dat wouildnt b gd...its still fogged.i telling u.its fogged.cant think clearly.i need a break man.like wad kind of gene iz in me dat has a fogged mind.I CANT THINK.of studies anyway.oh haiz..keep thinking of other issues...OTHERS...so many thing running in my head...jealousy spawns in my heart and i hav to keep dispelling it.and i tell u man.its normal thing to b jealous rite? but it would mean taking action to take away that feeling.means to eliminate all types of competition.but dat would b an evil act.so u gotta go up by ur own ability.oh man.i dunno wad kind of a person i m turning into.jealous.bitter.pain.all these running in myhead...the onli temporary remedy is chocolate.ah u jokers go figure out where the pain and bitterness coing from la...vera' rite abt something this morning....there may b beautiful things in lifebut there moments in life where u see nothing is beautiful....wad u can go back to is memories.gd memories?or meyb even that is fading...its fading all away....i m losing it...not dat any1 would care...look at the state of my tag board...its almost DEAD....no life.dis blog has achieved its status of being left out in this big world.no1 cares for sean lee?HA meyb...i look out into the blue sky and wonder what my purpose in life is....look back into my life and realise i haven done anything great.havent found anything dat i m pro....like a jack of all trades...ok not all.i see the world w/o a sean lee...not much of a big diff.ok meyb a fw frends would feel weird.a world where sean lee doent exist...lets see...nah i dun think i would hav made much of a diffi n anybody's life...joy?did i bring joy...NAW.i havent done any kinda thing like help a person back on hius or her feet...no biggie...6j wouldnt hav any funny guy called seannie donnie( sounds gay)...theres something inside me that conflicting...creating turmoil.emotion wid rationale.each time i meditate, i can onl bring peace to myself by numbing the collisions.dun tink of reality when thinking of emotions.dun think of emotions when thinking of reality.BUT THIS TWO ARE FITTING TOGETHER.can separate meh?dun think so much...i sae so much and i still havent gone down to the point of the problem...many?or one?

Sin

sinning...dats wad man does everyday.i got the inspiration to write this from a guy called Glen.he wrote in his blog to tell the Lord to reduce the amount of sins he would commit on the day.the sinners prayer.its really hard not to sin.if to sin is to even think of sinning, then its hard to b pure.Man is driven by emotions...whether its anger, jealousy, sadness, love and so on.so usually its the thought tht would come into mind...okay its like this la...i tell u wad i experienced yesterdae...i went sentosa...wuz unhappy to wake up so early already...and had to bring the thing called brother there.i dunno what happened in my sleep but i felt that day seemed different...or i seemed different.my mind kept on feeding violent images into me...so its like i wuz pissed...then anybody hu came and offend me, i had to refrain from profanities and offensive language...(well for my brother, i ahd to refrain from rili giving him the beating)i made a promise to Russell not tosae anymore vulgarities( and datmeans at home too) but it also meant i promised God that i wouldnt say many vulgarities...i read in the Bible something bout not swearing by even ur body part...ur own body part...or anything on earth, below it, in heaven....means duntry to sae" oh shit" or" for Pete's sake",or ppl even replace de f word widanother f word like my sis"fiah or fiak"i dun rili noe which one la...she still swears on the phone...then are those that say" oh m God""Jesus Christ"to show their exclamation....also those hu mentioned " the devil" and "Satan", or "hell"...even mentioning "for Heaven's sake"...all this carry the same meaning...to swear.noi matter how unvulgarity it is..u r still swearing...the meaning to swear is there..so no point hiding all de bad words wid other words...they still carry the same meaning.ok, i hav to admit.i still swear too.using the hiding technique...show a bit of displeasure.dats y ppl would sometimes c my online language as weird la.sometimes u think it and then dun sae.u already hav sinned...its in ur mind and u r impure....so even if u dun do it, its still considered sinning.
Sin.sometimes or all the times caused by temptation of the devil.anger.hate.and moreevil emotions...unpleasant ones.i juz talked to yuen gi online, and i hav used a lota swearing.ok back to the topic...he tells u bad things...feeds u violent images.cos u to giv in to sin.then the brain sends the signal to the respective limbs and then u rili hav sinned.like this,evrytime i think of geps, i think of violence.destryoing em.doing funky unorthodox moves from taekwondo on em.killing blows.bad.bad.bad.and all those moves or combination of moves are invented by me.oh man.reminds me of batman.i borrowed alota his comics from the library...he always so violent.but he doesnt kill the villain...cos he believes that it is wrong to kill em...ya and i m deviating again....but sometimes its irritability also.u noe, wen someone tries to help u understand God...the devil starts to tell u all kinds of bad things about him....like wad happened to me and dachi...he always wanted to help me(meyb a lil overzealous but he means it or the best)and the devil told me all kinds of lies about him...how he would interfere into my life so much.or how he would be so irritating.but when i talk to him, i realised that the devil had been lying so much to me.yea...
even in beautiful emotions like love u can also be destroyed by the devil.in love u experience jealousy, pain.and more...like say, u like some person.den that person starts to talk abt some other person. you would get jealous of him.and den hate would develop towards him.and he did ot even do anything dat offended you.but u juz hate.dats gonna sound bad iznt it?and the thing about love is sometimes it gets to your head too much...u dun think clearly.SHE takes priority over God...and dats gonna sound bad...really bad.cos de devil is making u seethe so much id passion for her...blocking out ur faith...den u slowly get outnof reach of God...den u would sae u dun hear Him.den u ask Him,has He abandoned u?no, its juz dat u r in too deep that sea of love to even hear Him or see the life vest Hes throwing to u...its there, all u gotta do is juz reach out.but no...soe ppl dun listen...when the "sharks" come in then u start swimming towards tha vest...but it mayb too late.man, this point ounds like heresy.its like drugs la ok?refusal to listen to anybody hu helps..and God is evrywhere tryin to tell u dis and dat..in the wind dat carressing my face rite now( i m serious)but some ppl would b too caught up to listen...haiz...i talk so much and den i still havent covered all my points...nx time meyb...
but juz rmb dis....God is everywhere, He hears, sees talks tto you...nonstop...all u gotta do is listen...put down all other things and juz stop to listen...AKA MEDITATE...
six weeks wuz so touching yesterdae...he wanted to divorce his wife, den she din wan it...then he started to recap on how they paktor back then...it wuz soooooooooooooo cute...but its ends rili sadly la...the las episode is nx sundae...."do u believe in a miracle?"...all u gotta do is juz believe...dun lose your faith...its wad de devil wans u to do.lose faith...doubt His word.or promises.so you would fall...ok i beta stop b4 ppl r like sleeping as some would do in chapel...haha.quite sad rite?de devil works on this ppl's sleep.make em not listen...and the teachers walk arnd and make these sleepers stand....haha

SAV and national treasure

oh man, nowadaes running out of ideas for title liao...tsktsktsk...yesterdae, went out in the afternoon, had to borrow forty bucks for christmas shopping....alamak...wo qian yi da bi zhai....die sia.so much to pay back.den met kangdi at cine.hwa, dat dae veri qiao, i saw tim chee at somerset, roshen and andrew wang at cine.andrew kept apologising to me for not coming for kc camp...chao funny lor..den we ate at the kfc and den we watched nat treasure wid roshen and gang.after dat, went sembawang den bot luo chi xiang's latest album, da ren show...got a chao nice song called lian ai da ren...its a duet la...den we went lido isetan for me christmas shopping....alamak...onli forty how u go christmas shopping sia?ask any lady..shopping muz at least bring out 80 i think...ho...like wad kind of presents u gonnna buy wid a pthetic forty?and i wanted to get a bdae present for eugene oso...but....de bloody hp sofa had i miss or i think of u all the time on it...its gay...and dose birthstone bears r like well..too girly for me to giv him la...ma de...haiz..den walk round for some time den go home lor...den todae went to SAV.....ok lemme hold my breath first....
SAV IS ONE BIG PLACE.....man....evrywhere is big.....like our ib complex is gonna look all tiny compared to dis?but....if acs built one ac CITY( hey, theres two sec skools, two primary skools, one jc, one oba, one private and one iternational...cant b a villag...)i bet its gonna look darned big mon...like boom big....ya..and de church in SAV is chao big man...marian, ure gonna love it..lots....its veri veri veri big...beyond imagination...u muz go and see la....hwa..and its so near potong pasir somemore...not like dat cedar girls....muz go round so many bends...tamade...din help wid mikhail comin wid me for the invest...haha..yikes...acs hq,yoyoyo....beat SAV man...haha

finance in dire straits

haiz...yesterdae, dad wuz livid.cos he asked my sis get a receipt as proof dat he payed for her lodging in aus...butshe said dis kind of thing no need receipt.that pissed him off bad sia.den he started dat endless talk bout us wasting his money again.den my brother saed he din wan to take his poom in jan cos no confidence.(actualli i told him dat, well its true yer noe.i mean, look at joo chiat man.cess pit standard sia)den he blew real bad.den mum blew oso.den i juz sat at the com and chat.haiz.sad rite?den at arnd 12am, hetalked to me bout my brother.den from there, we talked bout money.den his family in malaysia...u noe wad? my eldest uncle is an asshole.enuf emphasis close family matters.we talked till 130 am la...haha.alota stuff we talked abt.den went to slp lor.den i realised dat our family finance is rather sad.my sis is draining my dad like hell la...a few hundred k lor.and my dad doesnt earn dat much.do u tink a doc can earn so much?not if he has all kinds of loans to pay back ok?so all u bloody morons dat tink a doc earns much?drop dat idea ok?its bloody stoopid.in arnd 5 yrs i tell we may hav to move back to hdb.not dat i hav a prob wid dat.not dat i blame my sis oso la.she wan study its her choice mah.but can she STOP pissing my dad off like dat?its damn irritating.i juz wan him to talk bout his work and stop there.tell jokes.but dun make noise.i am rili afraid of such noise.cos it showsa tension high in the air.stoopid lady.go find bf somemore.wa piang u beta b careful not to let dad find out i tell u.oh man...i hope he doesnt like go so fast man.i wouldnt noe wad to do if hes gone....sis has to stop studies.i hav to the man of the household...dats a scary responsibility..after watching angela's ashes.money....something that ppl wan so much but has no value in it self.stoopid.its dumber than trading man.cos its darned evil.coses greed.wad do i wan?a world where money is not a currency.ppl live in peace.and animals dun reincarnate as ur brother.ok wuz kidding bout the las part.haha.my brother made damn alota noise as usual.he makes noise basically bout anything.so i m not surprised wen he started whining again.cruel?pls man.dis big baby oughta learn to grow up.stupid kid.and hes in ncc somemore.shame man.even my dad saes dat he is a GEP-er.HA! not to sae dat i dun acknoledge my sources...ideas of da money come from stargate infinity...its a cartoon....nice one tho.hey i like science fiction ok?u noe?if i dun make it to the u.i dunno la.i think i gonna b a cop?at the worst, go fry char kway tiao lor.haha.theres a thousand entrepreuners out there.or i can set up a company to help ppl heal their spiritual wounds...sounds cheesy?maybe.its like one of dis times, wen u juz wan someone to hug u, hold ur hand, look deep into her eys and she tells u"its ok...u still hav me.its all gonna b ok.trust God."unfortunately i dun hav sch a privilege.HAHA.bang! stop dreaming!!haha...ok like anyone wansto giv dat to me metaphorically...can tag...but i doubt any1s reading this.readership of angelandmortalluv.blogspot.com:close to a 0...now listening to vertigo by u2....rox sia....

as i wuz looking back at the year bk dis yr one....i realised that our pb pics most dun hav an unrecognised hero...that would be russell indran...i would sae dat.cos he cares for us prefects even tho he keps up a strict image.u know like alot c dat he scolds em, den dun like him.but do they ever see wad gd is behind de scolding?its part of the guiding process yer noe?but wen u r rili down and out and depressed...he comes up and givs u a pat on ur back and sae"dun worry...if u hav any probs...u can share it wid me...trust God"something of that ilk la...most of the pics in our pb like hav all the posers and fun dudes.i couldnt even find him in our trip foto....and he went u noe?ppl sae this and that abt him...most of the sec 3s like hate him la....students i mean....thats cos its wad he has to do...ppl having fun, they juz forget abt him.while he smiles at the side...man, iz dis de way to treat a man hu cares so much for his juniors?oh sheez, i beta stop b4 i get caught for talking nonsnse...haha...wadeva it iz, we rmb russell as a legend.or i do la.

original 4 or 5

looking back at my sec 2 yr bk, i see the awardees of leadership positions for national day in uniformed groups.back then it wuz johan, ivan, daryl, perry and me.there aint no david ang or sucker geps.now its like shreya mohta, bornson, jamien.not that they r my enemies.but things ha rili changed.since las yr.i got lowered.SOME ppl got highered.and i m at the mercy of an si(ci now?)much as i like brian and ho chin.but this new animal dats posing as a human is gonna find fault wid me.ppl in skools wan to b ci to help their skool.i dn c where xing long iz gonna help....other than crushing me...c? i m so negative abt him.nothing is gonna change my opinion of him.probly nx yr i m gonna bash his head out?ppl, if u dunno hus ong xing long, pls dun even bother.he works for geps.and hes darned lame....beong ur imagination.and now, i hav to scrifice my great end of yr camp day one to makeway for ur lousy courses...great rite?wad kind of badge is neighbourhood watch and total defence(silver)?muz do a lota homework leh.like cut out articles of dis and dat.go on real neibourhood watch.juz for a stoopid badge...and den work plans....gd ah?involve de whole sec 4 squad....like i m telling u....WE R GONNA SUCK nx yr.no faith?y dun i show u how we all train...up till now, my sec 3s dun hav rifle drill.cos de bloody rifle are locked up in a cupboard by kwok wai keong.i dunno how they r gonna pass sgt nx yr.oh man, i need some strength to hold such a bloody responsibility...opne thing i can sae iz, i dun tink i m gonna get the si rank.u noe.i tink juz forget it la.like i tink sgt would rock my world already...like real.even then, bunny(joshua loh) wans to overthrow bronson.onli he cant sense the tension.cos he doesnt care.hes at the top.and he doesnt care much abt ppl wreaking havoc...wow if onli i hav his type of bochupness, i dunno man.think too much..i think not...u juz wait and see nex yr..whether i get lowered somemore.or worse....demoted.dat sux much man.political nuttos.frankly telling evryone, i m tired.dead tired of dis kind of fight.u cant fight wid ur fists.its a battle of wits.now i m beginning to sound like andrew wang.wadeva.tiring iznt it?i feel like juz quiting it all together...wads de point?i m not gonna go citc.cos its scary.and i hav severe phobia of de campsite.wussy?meyb yes.but chee hoe rili strikes fear into me heart...and if i m gonna go wid a asshole like david ang, y dun i tell u forget it?he can go and b his own ci of acsinp.which would soon to b no more...cos of its weak foundation.
enuf of dat...even more gloom...thinking back yesterdae, i realise dat i m such a quiet one....hardly anyone noe truly hu i m la...even my own skool mate can onli reach up to the outside....de crazy nutto behaviour dat i display is inside...ask cheng liangor any1 from 3.11.but wen i go meet new ppl in events i m chao quiet...and its not one time onli...its many....june act,nat camp,kc prefects ignite,atc,the bbq.its like i cant open my mouth...y?denwen i monline, i talk too much sia.at the bbq, its like ppl were being chao gd la.i mean, even marian asked me y iwuz a stoner.haiz....nx time den....if there is a nx time i meet u while u r bbqing again?
yesterdae, my father told me abt something he encountered.he wuz talking along pie...then he wuz talking abt the next life...u noe?to is christian nurse....den he saed something abt not being a believer...then a branch fell on his car!..hoohooo....DIS is proof dat God exists....nonbelievers, u shld start believeing now yer noe?tho i dunno wad dat branch meant, but well...He hears ok?

"My Only Wish This Year"
Last night I took a walk in the snow.
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love.
Santa can you hear me
I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I sent it offIt just said this
I know exactly what I want this year.
Santa can you hear me.
I want my baby (baby, yeah)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me.
Maybe (maybe, maybe maybe.) he'll be all my own in a big red bow
Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
She's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.oohhh ohh yeah
Christmas Eve I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong for taking a peek?
Cause I heard that your coming to town
Santa can you hear me? (yea yeah)
Really hope that your on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Ohh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me
I want my baby (baby)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me
Maybe (maybe maybe) we'll be all the love under the mistletoe
Santa can you hear meI have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
She's all I want just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
santa thats my only wish this year
I hope my letter reaches you in time
Bring me love can call all mine(yeah yeah)
cause I have been so good this year.
Can't be alone under the mistletoe
She's all want and a big red bow
Santa can you hear me (hear me?)
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
She's all I want. just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (ohh yeah)
santa thats my only wish this year
Oh santa can u hear me? oh santa
Well shes all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree
Oh I'll be waiting here
Santa thats my only wish this year.

and of course a 7260..my tag board is like dead?get it alive leh

6 weeks

Will You Still Love me Tomorrow?

Tonight you're mine completely
You give your love so sweetly
Tonight the light of love is in your eyes
But will you love me tomorrow?

Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moments pleasure?
Can I believe the magic of your sight?
Will you still love me tomorrow?

Tonight with words unspoken
You say that I'm the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night
Meets the the morning sun?

I'd like to know if your love
Is love I can be sure of
So tell me now and I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Tomorrow
Will you still love me tomorrow?

veri touching song....

yesterdae, we were shopping for stuff to cook for dinner, den mysis kept using my hp to talk to her bf.nabei.talk so long sia.den i saw kenneth loe, from tns one.the feminine one.haha.he still talk like limp wrist sia.i bet he din reocgnise me la.i look so diff from primary skool sia.but he still so TALL!!argh i m so jealous of his height?its like i m too short for a guy.my comfortable height would be 175.dats ok wid me.not juz a pathetic 167 de las time i measured.walan eh.so short.den i tried my guitar again. and its rather a weak attempt.guess i wuznt born for guitar.m i?its like i cant coordinate la. and i play it in the most peculiar way.which would b upside down and left handed style..so some chords cant reach lor...veri diff leh.if convert to right hand damn difficult.u dunno how difficult it wuz to make me a righthandeed writer.my mum had to beat me hand like siao la.still can rmb one...haha.but the rest of the stuff dat i do still left hand one la.born left hadn u tink so ez convert ah.meyb its dis conversion dat cos me to screw up in sparring session in tkd.like i show ah.my right leg kick fast but hav not much power that i know of....but my left leg kick power but no speed...wa piang eh.how to fight like dat?spking of which..dis yr got spex 21 sia..i tink i gonna support eunos cc man.heheh.haiz, i cant fight!!!!i cant go down there and go and go mad....the onli badthing bout eunos cc iz dat my instructor makes me spar wid de chao gd ones.evrytime i spar always lose or worse hav injuries.like bruised shin or bleeding nose(dats cos jie yang go and kick my face flat...den BOOM!)and rizza is damn scary la...he so fast...and so big somemore....madam go and train he and his twin frends....wa piang....kana thrashed by them sia...walan eh..den thers soon ming.ppl sae he sux.but i dun c dat ah.hes got the moves.other than the fact tht his double turning kicks r like once hit sure fall down...and i talking bout kicking him wen hes executing his kick...but his backhook oso veri inacurat...supposed to hit the side of the head...he go and hit my mouth...the side part...hwa...gums bled dat time sia.man i miss em la.real bad.then theres the famous twin, wei hong and wei kit.they r damn gd sia.but they procrastinate so much....like doink doink doink...change leg.and doink doink doink...and kept doing dat...onli wen u piss wei kit off, then u r in so much big trouble sia...he will hook ur head like siao until u punch his head la...dat wad happened btw soon ming and wei kit....spar 30 mins...can die one.its like he bang den soon ming juz move away too slow.den bang...after one oo many times of bang, den soon ming punched him in the head.and dat is like offensive la..den theres karen thye.the twins' sister.same age as moi.kick all correct.got speed oso.but power agst a bigger opponent?nada.madam made me spar wid her la...wa piang eh.i couldnt bear to land a kic kon her la.its like i wuz juz pacing pacing pacing.kick one two times dat "miss"den mdm kept telling me to kick...den i did, well it wuz sad la.cos one kick wuz wad ended the match(thank gdness)i wun tell u wad dat kick did to her la..nothing harmful tho...then las yr the spex 21 form, i rmb that for religion i wrote freethinker..haiz...that thhe diff btw las yr and now..and i had to help yvonne( a different one) spell that word out...dats y i wuz having cold feet the dae b4 the competition.yalor.den i purposely lost to adrian on that dae, to get a bronze?nah.cos i wuz afraid of rizza.he wuz de gold dude la.if i won adrian( which would seem impossibleat the rate he kicking my legs rather than my body), i would hav to fight rizza.and dat struck fear man...i m dead scared of dat dude.haha.ok enuf bout tkd.by de way, dis iz all eunos cc one.wan learn?go eunos.dun go joo chiat man.and i juz hope acsi set up a tkd cca la.den can join ma.den go competition oso.
i watched six weeks yesterdae, its a rili touching story la.go read up bout it in ...newhere?sure hav one la...its dis show sdat made me think...wad would i do if i had 6 wks left to live?i dunno man.do crazy things?haha...its so touching wen he wuz settling stuff wid his dad...co he always tot his dad wuz ashamed of him.so his speech wuz so touhing...it nearly moved me to tears la...sniff sniff.nx wk hes settling wid the wife, who has left him.touching man.
ppl, i hav cut my hair and moustach( yes, cut not shave)so if i still giv u de impression dat i m a hum sup loh...den its gotta b my eyes liao...dat one cant help it la...sori

bored again

ok wen i type dis title...its not gona b a recount cos theres nothing to talk abt...like yesterdae, i watched jack frost on tv tigar..haiz...such a beautiful story...ya lorz.givs u de feeling dat the world juz stops spinning and u dun hav to think of anything...its like de feeling the polar express givs u...sounds childish duh...but do u like de feeling of realism? naw..not if ur a student...haha...stress max man...doesnt help if u hav a nitemare dat skool started.i HATE ISO..its such a waste of time...waste of effort...i rather we hav our own acsip...not IB!!!wads wid being international?drong wans dis and dat...chock is always breathing down the whole bloody cohort to WORK...bio teachers r always threatening abt saying gdbye to IB..its either sih teck hock or paul cheong..both juz as bad...but ifu hav yong li har, its not gd either.cos she doesnt teach properly..ok enuf bout skool nonsense...
yesterdae, while i wuz lounging(rotting) at home, 6h'01 had a nice gathring at mrs lims hse...yea...i DIN GO OK?tho she uz my teachr for like 4 yrs in tns, but i din go.cos i wuznt 6h?and since its THEIR class gathering, y shld i go?later ppl hav wrong idea of me sia...again.so beta to miss visiting the teacher...nigel kept smsing moi, telling me"eh, esther here leh" den i wuz like so? wa piang eh...nonsense kia....haha.ppl having gatherings, i m having none.blah blah blah
dis morning, my dad cut my moustache...shortened it?so i dun look so hum sup?haha.
ah haiz, i miss eunos tkd frends...spex 21 coming up sia.and ia aint paritcipating cos a small fart like joo chiat cant make it.c? de harm dat my brother brought me.
man i hate that thing dat my father asks me to sae its my brother...hes like a piece of biological waste?hes so weird dat saints dun like him.not dat i blame him.even his own brother doent like him.wad u expect?they sae pluck out the plank outa ur own eye b4 plcuking out the speck of dust in ur brothers eyes...HA.HA.i muz b blind to even recognise him as my brother ah.wa siao lang sia...i cant stand him lor.wait till u hear his brainless banter den u noe how great he is at makking u dislike him.and hes like take offense at evy single thing...pathetic lifeform i hav to sae...i look at him in the same eye as i look at GEPs....the whole buncha lamers...go skool c geps, go home c brother.crazy i can accept.spastic i oso can accept.but *undescribable word for my brother*?no.i juz hoping dat he learns his way thru his skools religion.the WAY OF LIVING thru Christ...he doesnt listen to me....he has to be put into the hands of some1 wiser than me.not that i m some wise dude la...i m onli a novice.like i saed b4, i muz go to a church wen i get my active form gain...yupz

stone gargoyle and lone rider

i m a stone gargoyle and lone rider...yesterdae,it wuz cycling alone in east coast park...rented at the wrong outlet cos it wuz so ex...and it wuz my second time cycling...frankly telling u.so i wuz like ohoho.cycle chao fast lor.den cycle half wayy, heard some chor lor kia shout.den its super familiar.i saw marian la.haha.den after one hour of cycling( i noe i rugi la), i returned the bike.den took a nice stroll down the beach...or not rili the beach la.juz a walk on the grass la.den i walk and think walk and think.den bu zhi bu jue go to marian's pit liao lor.and i wuz listening to SHE's hou niao...on repeat.yea.seemed perfect to listen to that song while looking out at the sea.and oso cos its written by jay.all love songs written by jay is chao ji nice to hear lor.back to the place.den marian called me la..i wuz like super surprised cos her pit is so far.i wuz like huh?i walk so far ah? den she saed something about her barbeque.one bowling frends one primary skool.den she wuz like bye.den i juz stood there pondering whether i shld join in la.and i looked to the blue sky and then i rmbed something i would share wid u all later.den i wuz abt to call marian to ask her(ehheh ren jia pai seh leh to ask u wid ur frends)den she wuz like behind me going to offer me a drink la..i wuz like heyz noneed to call liao...oh yea i saw vera at east coast park oso rite at the shelter nex to marians bbq pit.i think tkg band got some outing dae...den i asked if can join in lor.den she wuz like shps dun like outsiders so i joined her bowling frends...they r a nice bunch la...ryan,billy, and pok( i forgot wads his real namee),den i started to help out at the pit la.ok its hardman.lucky i m half scout.tho i dun hav their shen cooking skills but i hav the instinct...or rather i juz copy li jin from our 2.6 zebulun gathering...the way he did this and that...suddenly it all came back la...oh man...then the gals came...regina, zen and shu neng...couldnt get the las one correct for the first time tho...sori...cheena names abit harder to rmb than english names...ya...and zen and pok dyed their hair!!!cool mon..like i wanted to dye it but like in a grey fashion and then go make it up like some spike thing...haha...juz chao ah beng style la...den i cook lor...gathered wadeva observation i did went my m um wuz bbqing oso...how she dis and dat...all had to put into pracxtical sia...den they left me wid it la...scary mon..later i screw up the food how?den i wuz super scared...den did dis and dat...ok nx issue...its not that i so stone leh...its juz dat temporary thing...did u all watch the gargoyles cartoon...they turned to stone in the day time and came to life...i m still in stone form....waiting for the dae i getmy freedom ...the dae i can spread my wings and fly...so like rite now...cantget high and wild....cos wen that happens i turn real high la...guess hus clipping my wings?haha.yeaz.den stone lor...sori marian dat i gave u dat dat impression...juz dat cant go free yet...wen i get freedom...the first thing i do is go to a church...nx i do all kinds of things i din get to do mon...ahha...kah chee told me once abt my freedom la...haiz...den had to go real early lor...saed a sad gdbye to all of em...called my mum and ran all the way from the pit to macs....saw vera and her bf on the way...but too dark...she couldnt recognise...haha.....reached there juz on time lor....pick up and den go home...clebrate sis bdae cheena one...yupz...den my mum made us all drink a whole cup of fresh milk...my gosh...like wow?my cup is a mug...a big one at that too...and from young i din drink bloody plain milk..cos i always puked it out....ok so i juz took it la....den took a shower go online and talk.....i hav to sae dis...yvonne, sori dat i delayed yer..i guessed she wuz pissed off wid moi for like delaying la...she saed she owuld call moi den she did...den i wuz still online...den i told her call back later...well, i sms her dat time..nocall came la... i guessed she wuz pissed la....sori yvonne...rili sori...and it wuz 130 am in the morningand now abt the clouds...i wuz reading my bible yesterdae. but b4 dat, i wuz tinking depression...dun ask wad it wuzz abt...den iask God, shld i continue?den he juz showed me the dark clouds...see this dark clouds?wads behind them...then i understood...then las las nite, i wuz reading my bible, then this note fell out...and it saed the same thing abt the clouds...oh man...then i knew...so dats y i could join in ya?haiz...now my com is like super wad.cant connect to internet. so i beter save it to notepad first...haha....
by de way marian, ur mums marinated chcken wing are CHAO JI HAO...ICHIBAN....oh man...ven my mum neva marinated such gd wings sia...wad magic formula she use sia...?muz b some jia chuan cai...no chicken ever tasted that gd sia...not even kfc...kfc needs dat missing ingredient in marians mum one to make real gd chicken....ya lor..nice sia...NICE ah!!!and thanks for letting me join ah..rili...

laggy internet

ok...i hav got nothing to do...and nothing to blog too.wad u expecting?i still rot at home like usual.yesterdae, after i blogged went out wid mum to orchard.den felt so sian.den start to tink of x mas gifts to buy for frends...haha....dis and dat...veri ex leh...$$ probs..den i saw 2 foolish young boys play halo 2 on the x box...HAHA dey SUCK!!!..my gdness, can dey get any worse?one din even noe how to swap weapons, and e other blew himself up wid his own grenade.den wen one died, he cursed and swore at the other one for not helping him, swore att the game and de x box..wid words dat i wouldnt use on my mouth man.haiyo.kids dese daes r getting horrible...such bad language...den the best thing the former kid did wuz...he tried to manually attack a Hunter( one of the most powerful aliens dat require several hits to the head to effectively kill it) from the front...not the back..if its the back, its instant death for it man...but no...he wanted to b bruce lee or wong fei hong....attack the big one wid his fists...i cant blame him la, his weapon wuz outa ammo...the fool dat din noe how to change weapons...grenade oso ran out...both plasma and fragment..tsktsktsk...AND I M PROBLY BORING U WID COMPUTER GAME SPEECH...SO JUZ SKIP IT IF U AINT A GAMER????
den saw keith tan at tangs...hes still dat feminine teacher i knew since sec 1..but hes a gd teacher la...other than the fact that he always charge $$ each time u swear...and he wuz probly shopping for gifts or worse...guy meterosexual things...i wouldnt wanna mention em here...heehee
oh man, theres one thing i dun understand, do u noe y women spend so much money when they buy juz clothes...its not cos they like to spend u noe?its juz dat dose bloody labels muz charge so ex...like few hundred for some super branded bag....WAD IZ WRONG WID DOSE DESIGNERS??!?!? the guy ones oso...dats y until now i still havent bot nething new from billabong or OP...cos they r so ex...haiz...till de dae designer decided dat charging clothes super ex as bimbotic or some other word dat i cant think of, fellow men....dun scream if ur lady spends it over the limit....it cant b her faut...unless of course she oso dunno how to think how big the hole in the guys pocket will get...haha....
and now to squirrel( my sis0 and raccoon(rui kun), i guess they pak tor-ing liao...but the fotos they take while dey together using a cam wid dat self portrait is simply horrible...like cut off the forhead and de chin...oh my gdness...guesss dey will b spending more $ on the neo prints...i hav to sae...raccoon iz beta than the psycho( reuben pang) or the angmoh(james)...meyb not james...from wad she sae abt him,hes even nicer than raccoon..oh my gdness...wadeva...now my is talks to him like daily routine of two hours....had to charge the phone for her long lasting battery life...
ok now to myplans todae...nothing till 4?den all is cool and no reain is falling, i will go east coast park to cycle...alone.cos poor kar kin hasd someting to do...he wouldnt tell me...meyb he has his reasons...i sensed like diffulty in his voice...like something major went wrong at home or something...so i m a lone rider.....not many acs boys live in the east u noe....if i could get cheng liang or lerchern to go wid me den shuang eh...butthey live on tthe other side of singapore....like jurong???haha...wow, gusss i m still a loner in my three years of acsi...great frends dat i used to hav, hav become distant due to class shift...like i wuz super pals wid lui...since las yr june...in that npcc course, den go atc, den go prefects selection camp...but he din make it la....quite sad la...he would hav made a real gd senior prefect to hang out wid..haiz...but russell tot he wuz doing de suck up approach....well, russells rite...but lui would hav made a real gd leader...haha...ok now i m crapping again....new frends dat i make in acpb dis yr oso not so close...kar kin, shreya...and oso scouts...aaron...maurice and dom....of course cheng liang and le chern....de dudes hu hav been wid moi since selection camp...dats y i sae i m half a scout?hang out wid em too much man...cant blame me wad...npcc has unsafe grnds....frends r onli an illusion there...other than my gd one, johan, bronson, jamien,wan cheong(ivan),,,and daryl lin...and sometimes shreya...haha...times to go liao...

big relief

ok..the doc said my nice lump iz a bloody blood clot...and its one crap of a pain one at that...and that nice ring of blackness at my ankle...i juz realised that its a sprained ankle. after it wuz dere for so many days...shame on u..sean, u dun even noe wad de hell is going in ur body...yes...tsk.and a thousand apologies on the previous post abt raccoon, its not ray khon.sori i tot its an english name.but it aint, its a chinese name.rui kun...tsk.heehee.dis dude, i hav to tell u dis sia, my sis beginning to like u liao lor.y dun u two juz go together?instead of doing dat goosebump shaking gflirting when u all talk on the phone...something wrong sia, talk on the phone for two hours straight in a session.one at nite,den 1 am,den 3 am...at the cost of my hp free incoming calls...wa piang eh....can u get any worse..den yesterdae, she wuz comforting a frend...cos her frend broke up wid the bf...blah blah blah...tsktsktsk...
den las nite, as i wuz like preparing to slp liao,i started thinking of esther...wad rili appalls me is dat we used to b frends...yer noe?its amazing wad jioing pppl the wrong way can do to them...they will be traumatized and then dey will hate...haiz...tis a lesson, u wannna jio somebody, go jio correct.dun overdo sia.or she will hate u w/o giving u a chance to explain it...howz dat?
den i had a nitemare abt atc again...its like over, but sometimes bad memories come back to visit u in dreams...but dis time i knew who wuz in my team...and de wierdest thing wuz dat the CIs were tkd black belts...and even weirder, i saw eugene.my "brother" from eunos...funny sia...tsktsktsk
spking of brothers, mym family iz rather a pain...indeed.i m so bored at home.rotting away...meyb ineed someting to do other than juz rot at home?my brother decided to show off his culinary skill dat he picked up in home econs class...he cooked burgers..not enuf for the famly....cos not enuf meat....fart headden the bread wuzz plentiful...so breakfast my mum made noise again...man, i rili need to get out of the hse often, like i gonna die of noise pollution?my gdnessnagging is damn painful on my ears ok?and my brother as usual so defiant....shld teach him a lesson on respect one day....haha...wadeva...haiz...this lil punk got me into joo chiat tkd...its a painful place...to c tkd go down de waste....the worst ting that is true iz dat i m de fittest there?do u noe how unfit i m?its a sad sad sad place....and the owner tried to show me wad HIS style of trng....the class din survive at all....gd i would sae...but u do all pt for WAD...stoopid ol man...u cant compare to lee yen yen's super trng ok?fart bag....some more sae the tough trng wuz onli his 10%...wads 100% den...more pt?it aint singapore fitness club yer noe?REAL TRAINING is sparring, target kicking,snapping,technique improvement....not kicking blindly, hopping, running sprinting, pattern teaching, mocking, slap butts of those who lag....wth man, if ur korean teacher tot u dat, i bet any eunos dude can thrash ur arse at sparring...does ur lousy cc evn hav roper referees...eunos has plaenty..urs hav near to a distinct00rite? and ur nice sprinting left mewid aches for kc camp u noe dat?!?couldnt rili enjoy myself cos of dat....bastard....and u nearly screwed up my drum playing....at the bass drum...moronica....tonite i aint going duh...i still hav that clot and sprain...sori...would stop anything to misss ur ugly training....pathetic...and i m de onli poom there...gd luck trying to teach ur black tips man....the pattern is hard...and seeing that u do dat style of teaching...i tink my brother is gonna fail again...dats another 60 bucks down de drain..nice?great...of course....

my punctured shin

saturdae...went out wid family...at orchard...den we saw all dose ppl singing...busking i guess...gd way to make money yer noe...den donate 50% to charities...de rest save up for my 7260...den my n sis went to see her frend working at the singtel fair at taka..haha...shes a blonde...or she dyed her hair blond...yeaz..den we went round orchard at super speed...dunno why oso...den my shin started to ache lor...its like ooh muscle ach...on a shin...my gdness....den walk walk walk den her frend ask her out for dinner...got some other frends of hers to go along...all de guys were ac guys or used to lor...haha...den we separated from de rest of family...ok i need more fresh air ok? not stay at home and stone...so we went cineleisure to eat...i wuz full liao lor..so onli bought drinks....den there wuz junior, xiang yun, daphne,and ray khoon(raccoon) haha....den ray came in late...cos he met wid an accident in a taxi...den can tell dat hes jioing my sis..oh my gdness....he wuz like super vibes coming out of him...and they were like frends progressing to a couple...yikes and i wuz a lamp post to light the dsark night for em...haha...den zhao home lor...den todae, went wid my brother early in the morning to safra tampines juz to accompany him for his bowling course dat he signed up for...yikes...ex sia...and dat guy wuz boring....and i wuz super tempted to go play one game by myself...one lonely soul...ya lorz...
now to talk abt the punctured shin...its now a lump...feels like a bruise...hurts like hell....and doc( my dad) is telling me dat it could be a bone infection...as if it aint scary enuf...i found some blue and black circle at my ankle area....and its painless....u noe i m scard like hell....my dads not comforting....todaes already dae two of obserbvation of the lump...if by the third dae, the lump has no progress, i hav to take an x ray...oh man....i m scared...like rili..cos its not a fractrure..or i dun tink so...it could onli b bone infction..and dat means a possibility of amputation...oh God, dun do dis to me....much as i m not a sportsman, i hav a certain liking for taekwondo, and i cant let dis left leg juz gabra....cos I DUN WAN SUCH A FATE...NOOOOOOO....its such times dat u wan a frend to talk to...abt ur fears...of losing a leg...but den...u find out...theres no1 to talk to...its like u r all alone...how to trouble other ppl wid ur troubles...fear of losing my leg...of even it being a fracture....cos hav to g oop...not dat i scared of op la...but staying in hospital costs $...alot of it....and i dun wan to rob my dad of dat $$....ARGH...i dunno wad to do la....i m praying alrite?real hard...Lord let dis b juz a bruise and nothing more...nothing internal...PLEASE LET THIS BE SOMETHING NOTNASTY...PLEASE!!!!oh man,den wid dis...i rmbed some story dat i read on a bkmark in a christian bkshop after my pk course...there wuz a man who dreamt of his life as a walk down the beach.wherever he went, there was two sets of footsteps.when he asked whose footsteps it wuz.God answered,"I have always walked with you."when he looked at the parts of his life where he wuz at his lowest, he saw only one set of footsteps.he asked God about this.He replied,"when times were good in your life, i walked wid you.but in times where you were at your lowest, I carried you through."
God, if you are carrrying me now, let me know...or at least drop me a clue....cos i m rili feeling fear...i need assurane of Your presence....
at a lighter tone...i wuz so bored todae afternoon...dat i watched de SHE vcd dat wuz included in my SHE cd....hou niao rox man....den i wuz eating some sour worms candy from australia...haha....de feeling wuz juz rite la...haizdis christmas iz gonna b a lonely one...wid no true loved one to spend it with...forced to go to the same ol chirstmas party....dis yr its rili forced...my uncle dropped 20k to help my dad for my sis aussie education....so yea...but den osao no true loved one to spend it with...so no point even if i dun go....haiz...de onli ting i can do iz giv x mas gifts for my frends...bad english here...las yr i spend onli a hundred to giv my tkd frends...in eunos cc...small ones la...but dis yr i m broke...how?and i aint gonna giv tkd frends la...cos lose contact wid em...then some more defect to another cc...haiz...lonely christmas...de onli ting dat goes thru my mind iz undone homework, iso, wad to do on x mas...wad to buy...how to get $$..and x mas songs...white x mas, let it snow, jingle bells etc...haha....grim laughter..

bored sia

how bout dis...i m gonna crash my hse com by blogging...the stoopid ting iz already on its way to com doom...haha...and i mbored now...so i mblogging...haiz...wads there to write abt...nothing interesting sia...gonna go soon...i gona drop dead from rotting at home so much...juz wanna talk abt the show which i watched yersterdae...angela's ashes...preddi cool show la...the dude fainted during his ocnfirmation lor...oh man...cos he got typhoid...den he grew up n blah blah blah...dis show juz reminded me abt my faith...how i hav forgotten it since atc ended...so i took out my bible collecting dust ina corner and started reading...sori dachi...yalor...so so sori...and i realised how much i hav sinned and not talked to God and NOT PRAYED...man i shoul b ashamed of myself...hahaa...den de show oso showed me how poor ppl lived in those times...rili....another advertisement...PEOPLE..GO WATCH THEPOLAR EXPRESS....its a nice show...if u like living ur life in a fnatasy and reality....santa claus..hoohooo...chritmas angel...gimme a 7260 for x mas...i promise i would b gd nx yr....hahaa...rili...i wan dat hp...but bo $$ leh...parents would surely yell if i go ask em..so dun dare...no1 would b saen enf to giv it to me...ya lor...can onli dream of it ...haiz....u noe..my bro picked up a 1 dollar billl yesterdae..he went to keep it..and its a us dollar..wad a greedy bastard...if i picked up $$ on the floor i would juz chuck it back lor...if its abig amount..well, i would giv it to police...no point if no1 sees picking it up...God has eyes everywhere...tsktsktsk....and my brother doesnt giv a heck..tsktsktsk...haiz...time to go...

even more details on de previous post

ok...now i am officially pissed or something....the one who doesnt give her name...hmm...dazzlyn....thats the one....xiao jie..u should know better than to write stuf about people on your blog and expect people not to find out....whatever....i am speaking perfect english already...wa piang eh....yes...and i AM NOT A CHI KO PEK....haiyoz....man, what she wrote about that scared me la.i am like super traumatized by that comment...yikes...like i am some kind of a vain dude....but its the ultimate scare to look like a chiko pek...my eyes got problem mah....walaneh....the best thing is that so many people know my blog...heehee...haiz...the only pity is that we had to go home for the prefects camp...by the way, i don't take offense...just that make more effort to look into the mirror...haiz...whatever...oh my goodness....english....i m speaking full spelling....i feel so bored now...that i am blogging from home....good huh?ok enough with crap...this is the only post that you are going to see me type in super english....yes...i am looking for a job....and i am still unsuccessful...sigh...so i am free...iso havent done finish...or havent started....i wanna watch blade trinity, the polar express, national treasure...blah blah blah...i think polar express is a great show...all that believing thing...its just nice...good to get away from the pains of the real world...yes...taufik won singpore idol yesterday...cool...doesnt matter who won la...just that i had rooted more for sly cos he sang jay chou....and i like his music....SLY...haha...and i went m'sia on tuesday...i bought two pairs of shoes...one pair of nike adversary poser to wear on normal days...and a extremely cheap pair of running shoes from power...POWER!!!getting lame liao....just a few more points.....too bad we couldnt finish the friendship dance....at kc...not atc...i tell u atc thte friendship dance was all wrong....yes....
and sorry i got the name wrong...its neritta...sorry...
and something about zi ling....i don't know sia...mysterious with all that hair covering her face...like the mei mei in the incredibles...haha....seriously don't ok?
lastly, PEOPLE...MUST SUPPORT MARIAN HOR...she is dancing in kallang theatre right now as i am typing....must support hor...pray for her....yaya....and blah blah blah...time to go...in case you wanna know...i still hate geps...will hate them forever...and dad stop nagging...mum also...

Sean Lee
12 Feb 1989
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