Thursday, March 31
angry and probably hopeless bout life
ok i m feeling super depressed man.stupid teachers.everytime gottest means mus go get parents to sign.wal ao.wo bu xiang huo le.wa buay tahan.
ok to yesterday, john gave us a dinner treat at swensons and uh o strings attached...hhaha..cos got free earth quake so yeah...good huh?juz that service wuz bad.me and dickson were honourable guests to john's dinner..ahhha.then after that rushed to joo chiat cc for tkd..asked parents to bring my gi there.rushed there like half an hour later la.then changed and then started eaching pattern...man the person i wuz teaching wuz a test of patience sia.hes like dun get this dun get that.cant tell wehich stance is which.and hes same age as me. hes like slow witted or somethig la.then the worst wuz he didnt know basic command.then i wuz super pissed off at that la.that he actualli passed green belt and get that blue tip.then he blamed his failure at nervousness.true.but everybody had that kindof thing.we juz hav to overcome it.i gripped his blue tip and asked him ifhe thought he deserved it.then he looked up at me with confused eyes and didnt understand what i wuz saying.then i translated to super simple language.and he nervousl said yes.oh man.i wonder how he passed la.by right i would fail him and i m onli a done 1 black.examiners are like done 2 or 3..walao
ok ater trng.went home andbathed.then triewd to hw.then after that, i had to get a signature for my test paper.14/25 fore differentiation.i already expectec what wuz to come from my dad. if onli my mum hadnt slept so early.then he wouldnt know.i bet hes like daoing me now again like thge o level results lor.stupid stupid stupid. then he said i neva put in efort. said i m still the last minute worker.ok not to say i m stupud but er...shit happens.i juz hav to suck it up. hes more pissed off obut this than me la.wth?!i m already stuper dissappointed with this mark cos i knew differentitaion inside out. and still can get this kind of marks.man its not as ifi wuz aiing full marks cos i left some questions blank.and some careless mistakes.walao.then he startedthe talk.AND he mentionned my outdoor activites on the increase...i tell u i flared up and argued with him.how the hell do u win a stubborn mule in a fight? can't right. so i let him win lor. but i m not wrong..ok maybe a lil.but hestill overrereacting a lil bit. i et he gonna dao me.wth.onli look at results. i work so hard on differentiation la.and he juz say i m blody slacker. i neva slack in maths ok?esp a maths.but he dun believe.he so bloody unwrong.
man that night , ihad 3 option before me...one: kill urself and end this meaningless life. two: run away from this home andhorrible life.change name and neva come back again. three: suyck it up and probably beg for forgivness. four: do nothing. i wanted to choose 1 but then second floor kinda too low for suicide.might end up a vege.so no thanks...and also going to hell.i ait gona beg for his forgiveness.he wan to act like some stupid child and expect to attend to his evey whim and need.that he wans me to BEG for his forgivness.no way man. i msixteen.and he aint gonna do anythin to degrade myself about there.so if he threatens to kick me outa the house and change my school to somew neighbourhgood.so be it.i m sick of such shite.i dun wanna be at the mercy of some bloody bread winner who hass TOTAL control over things in the house.i will not ask for his forgiveness cos itsmore like we sohuld have a talk and talkb bout hi expectations of me.i cant b bothered to even try know how he feeling nowiu know hes throwing a bloody tantrum.like a freaking child.wth man.i shall not give him what he wans.i can survive. pls man.wth. i have lived like that since quite long tie ago.my home isnt one filled with familylove.i m staying on juz for $$ sake? yeah ppl willhate me for that.but its quite hard la.haiz...oh wellz...
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Tuesday, March 29
finally can use the bloody com
nabei...finally can get a com to blog sia.feel damn constipated sia.all the thought running through my mind..ok
friday...easter.woke up real late sia.slept full elven hours sia.then at night went to trinity's owrship thingy.got some easter performance...heheh.quite irritating witrh all the nkids around crying interupting the process.haiz.then ate at mac.prepare to go home early sia. nextr day have promos leh...then havent make my uniform.so panic la. then wanted to wear like mada. no badge.onli got drill badge. but then felt that kinda too slack.then neva polished...lucky boots shiny enuf.neva polish at all.
saturday...damn gay la. our slackers united came.then daryl wuz in his tight fit clothes.damn sexy sia....drill abit.rifle drill sia.dun play play ah...then had the campcraft part of the test..juz pitch one bloody tent.six guys pitcvh one tent.of course we choose our own group.ostracize bronson..oops sounds damn bad to him yeah.being too harsh on him nowadays sia...sorry mon.then leow couldnt tie a bloody tent guy loop.had to help him cheat sia.help him tie then he go beautify it himself sia...haha.then after thaat, got marks.we passed.YEAH.then we crushed david and bunny's tent.oops.sorry.lousy tent mah.step so many times also cannot snap the twine..no tension sia.lousy.
after all that nonsense, at lunch with sci and gang, rushed to tampines interchange to meetr cornerstone ppl. got combined cell meeting.they were eating lunch at kfc there la.super tired liao.deposited uniform at np room.leave there to stink.then we went to janice chiang's house....had some worship.then the freaky things start happening sia...cameron our preacher for the day wuz preaching.somehow this church has a tendency of praying in tongues..scares me lots la.then got some were even kneeling in humility.me coulkdnt do anytihng like that man.feeling uneasy sia..then after it all we went to 85 at bedok to eat la.dinner.joseph table ordered "hum" cockles.yinghui they all eat the hum like no tomorrow.then theres blood all over the place from the hum.argh..yucks.and they dunt taste good lor.yucks.then ordered alota stuff.finish it all.or rather they eat halfway, then i saw not early liao so try to go home lor. then went off with daphne they all...she wuz teaching moi how to take the bus home.cos veri ooloo.then go home lor.sunday noithing much.monday also.ran bloody 4k.stupid pe department.mad liao.tamade...
haiz damn tired day sia.slept late las nightto study ting xie..flaming time...
styuypid mingwei juz cant keep[ hisd mouth shut..cannot keep mouth shut also too stupid to know hu to tell things to. he go and tell mathias about my failed recent crush.mathias knowing having a bigger mouth than anyone.and also keep irritating me la.like suddenly ": hows marian?" that wuz like a bomb on my head la.then he wuz like saying what kind of loser i m la.nabei.can do with less of that shite man.one thing i dun like is unpleasant parts of my life..like failures display it to the whole world.come on man i see it as afailure of my life la.and its mathias.its juz plkain mathias to go make fun of bad things of ppl.damn pissed off with mingwei.then he threatened to tell more bowlers.sheez.lil runt of a boy.haiz.guai lan...
beta stop swearing sia....
oh yeah..happy belated birthday john loh...
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Thursday, March 24
flaming
kana flamed.thanks to all those friends for helping me speak up.rili.these jokers are like super wad la.go and piss me off and dun leave name.they dun even sound like gals la.( God forgive them if they are) esp that pl gal.walaoeh.threaten mee?! u think u who? didnt i already apologise.u not happy at least leave ur name la.then leave ur head prefect to clean up ur mess.is this good or not? i admit i wuz wrong for flaming ur school but threatening me?i dun think u are even pl now la.probably from some ruffian school.no guts to show name pls la, don't waste ur time and eneregy ok?
screeew it..this saturday got promos to staff.damn stupid sia.cant watch proper tvi n the morning and jamiens service is at evening.walao.sure cant cover it up with lies.so i dun think going..oh no thten my book of life cannot giv them.not that theres anything inside.havent done anything much
today, watched son of the mask with cheng after school.funny but bo plot sia.haha.
haiz thi week super stress sia..like evrything full blown blast.tamade.
our board t-shirts are not coming in!!!hopefully, john and hans have come up with final design. that time we came up with all kinds of gay ideas for it then finally decided on a rough one.maybe should have a mini john one.like juz put john loh and his number....okok.sidetracking here.
i rock at differentiation..beta not brag...got a freaking 14 for the test....but could teach cheng liang stuff.argh...freaking nuts man.i gonna go nuts soon.oip i dun get angry la..haha
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Monday, March 21
the tongues
man, its the end of the hols...and all i have don is my bio ia.and that kang di didnt do a gd job.he photocopy the procedure and says its our method.walaoeh.i feel like hooding him la..
friday, got a hair cut at parkway...first time ok?others its shamefully cut by my dad.rather eneven. then that day also got japanese stylist..hobo?haha
saw the end of xun yi cao...quite sad.its not some happy ending ok?i thought it would be from what i read.but it aint happy if the main character dies right?
ok on saturday, i went to the concert, its actualli worship experience la.met jamien at 1430 on saturday, then decided to play pool.ok i beat him by default la.he so pro onli lost at the last round.then on the bus to the chapel, saw some mix blood ppl la.they were having some weird accent.and damn funny la.then the biggest guy juz took out a whole bunch of clay and mixed it into his hair and then oh i shant say how bad it is..then we reached the chapel,waited for jamien's friend.go in.WORSHIP!!!it rocked.then the sermons wuz bout deer seeking water.of how we muz seek God like a deer seeking water.then in between, there wuz prayer.then the pastor aked everybody to pray in tongues. i wuz like "???" then khing prayed in tongues.kenneth yeo prayed in tongues too. the whole chapel wuz feeled with tongues.and sean lee jus stood at the side saying english?man, i dunno how the gift of tongues comes onto Man la.its juz so wonderful la.to be able to pray in tongues...yeah.
after that, wuz cell..i joined in for one time.then i wuz jamein's oikos...then they asked me to write some names down for recruiting.frankly, i didnt know what to write.so i wrote bronson.yeah.troubled teen.then marcus asked me what have i don to him that week that is good....hesitation sia..cos i have done only bad stuff to him.oh sory.the cell wz quite small la.jamien, marcus, kenneth yeo, khing, joanna, germaine and some felix..new ones: three other guys and me...yea.we played some games and then that wuz the end of it.my first cell...oops.
then we did forfeit la.marcus kana jack. he had to hold a pen in the air, go round and round for 15 times.drop it, jump over it.man he couldnt complete 15 man.then collapse.second time, he fell after completing...
after that, jamien, khing and moi went to seren centre to eat dinner la.joanna "went home". germaine joined in later.then we were uite bored la, so we did tat turning thing.kinda fun la.many ppl juz collapse.the onli one who could make it wuz some half angmoh....cool man...haha..then after much playing, decided to go home.took to macritchie.one stop after change to 13.go straight home.shiok sia.
how to speak in tongues? its kinda difficult.no juz wiggle ur tongue abit and make noise u know.somehow, muz be passionate.haha.i guess, i won't be enjoying such a benefit.hey even if i did pry that time, i wouldnt know right?so no diff la...oh wellz.i havent done hol hw yet!!!
argh...today wuz super sleepy.and pulled a muscle during 2.4...ouch.shant say what i pulled it for
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Thursday, March 17
i'm sitting here in a boring room
juz a sunny thursday afternoon....i like to change my point of view..oh nothing ever happens.and i wonder...
lemon tree.sheez.today its the boring to pits things la.the modem wouldnt work till 10pm?and i had nothing to do.so i burnt some songs into a cd did 3 questions differentiation and went to sleep..i m so not proud of myself for wasting time.and i wanna go out tomoro.juz that everyones too busy.and i don't care for muxh obut deadlines.pissed off.watched chase.watched the mtv for tong hua..i m probably becoming some sucker for love stories.theres nothing touching bout the story in there?maybe its the combination of song and mtv.its like this guy playing the song on the piano.before that he turns on his hp and places it on the piano.then he plays.then one bar later, hes rembing the past of how he composed it or rather his gal did it.then, she asked him to help her move house.then the second bar of the starting piano began playing.then he started singing...then moved in he wuz staring at her...?like where? then, his gal wuz crying cos of some korean show, then he looked at her.and they kissed.and then her nose bled.then they went to the doctor.then end of chorus.music stops first.then he takes his gal to a piano and strts playing the starting of the song. then she faints.then second verse starts...hes rushing his gal to the hospital...then play until he sees all the x rays.she probably sufferring form cancer.then he gave her a hp.then zoom to present.playing the third chorus, shes listening to it on the hp....then the song ends" yi qi xie wo men de jie ju..." then she passes...oh man.then the song starts again.acoustic this time.no diff la.juz no drums and choir.then shes probably seeing her life flash by in her eyes.her time with the guy and it end with"dang quan shi jie bu li wo de shi hou, ni bu ke yi bu li wo."
but the most touching line is.."ni hui ji de wo ma? hui ji hen jiu ma?"when she fainted...oh man.its like nothing but tears rolled down me face.ok two droplets onli la....but something weird is going on in me man.i usually aint such a big sucker for love stories til can cry?alamak...
ok some psot cmap details...yeo peck hong is a bitch...really.ri bitch.even the sci thinks so.why?cos we didnt greet her.or ask the cadets to greet her. and she records our names down and reprimands us like shite.wth man?the woman who says i aint fit to take squad expects me to do some greeat i/c thing like greetin her.piss off man.i greet whoeva i wan and nothing u can do will change that.walao.the best is the rifle stealing la.....we stole like almost the whole squad's rifles.too skilled liao.and we were cursing and swearing at the estate office for cutting off te power suppply.ppl brought chrgers for hp and they cut the supply off.onli left lgihts.nabei...
ahha.i m going for jamien's chuch worship thingy on saturday....hopefully parents can allow.juz say go concert with friends.ho bo?
NOTHING TO SAY.ARGH....
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Wednesday, March 16
nco trng camp
day one.woke up.went to bathe.then juz in time to shout fall in to the sec 3s.fall in.we had alota cis for this camp.thank God again.xiangyuang.xinglong,brian,fadhli.do the job for us.we juz plan the schedule.the big 3.jamien, bronson and moi.cos the rest juz around for callefare.then xiang yuan is an sci.came back from BMT in ns.regaled us with some stories bout ns.and of course sadistic measures for sec 3s.quite strict la.haha.then they kinda suffered alot.then rollerblading course in evening...i slept through it.wuz s'pposed to watch em.but wuz too sleepy.so slept.then i woke up.to tay kaijun's blody smiling face that insulted me.ok his mouth did.damn irritating.so its down 40 for him.ok actualli it wuz supposed to be 20 FULL pushups.but he did half and try to escape.so....i told him do 40.teach him that ncos aint there for his insulting.sorry if i sound so bastard but these ppl will climb over my head.and i didnt like him from start.why?cos i mforced to promote this lose to CPL.and he failed it.and he attitude me somemore.think he get easy.eat some shite man.then at night.we gave em rifles.HO came.imposed on us a set of rules an regulations for us.walao.no this and that.buay tahan.then at night stole some rifles.i warned the sec 3s to treat the rifles as if its their own body part.not wife.but then som dun listen.so we took some.5 i think.then had fire drill.gave back the rifle.kaijun kept smiling.so i did this formula on him
no. of pushups for smiling person during strict times = length of mouth that is smiling or curved upwards(in mm) times 20
he stopped smiling after that.
next morning.HO left.woke up.blah blah blah.at night.went dover.da pao back sang mee for ncos and prata for cis.onli left 4 ncos cos heiren(shreya), johan and wan cheong decided to leave.at night, solte many rifle.onli 5 left.so today...break camp.ate lunch..go home.gtg.i got my black belt gi today.hohoho....wadeva.its tootall for me
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day 0 of nco trng camp
woke up.walked to cornerstone church on sunday.went back got my camping stuff.dad fetched moi to school.re4ached there.meet up with jamien and irving.waited for goldfish.ate lunch at macs at clementi.then took cab to serene centre.met marcus.then walked to his church.
background info bout his church.its charsmatic like cornerstone.cool huh.it has khing and eugene wong and shawn tan in it.and lotsa chio bus and liang zais...haha.its cool.and jamien speaks in tongues...ooooooh.the Lord chooses him.cool huh? i m guessing i can neva b like that lor.to speak in tongues.my whole life.
our team- 2 whitley sec gals.another marcus.another eugene.matthew.joseph.goldfish,irving.me.jamien.mingxia.jeanetteand then we set off.
the first station like abit no kick la.then the rush wuz cool la.haha.everybody rushing one direction then mingxia strategise we go another direction.then the newspaper.walaoeh.lousy estimation caused us to die or something la.supposed to collect 80 kg of newpapers.we collected enoough to make 200 kg.so heavy!than kana delay.the language station.supposed to get 5 diff lang of god loves u.and not english, cheena and malay.so we acs boys used our hidden power...the scholars.haha.then next station.eat fried insects.oh man.didnt dare to think what it wuz when alive.juz te like 3 of it when onli required to hav 1 each.but then got left over.oh yucks.gross.same taste when i FRY insect with electricity.u noe the funky racket used to electrocute mosquitoes?yeah.then go back.we wqere tenth?yeah.then did some worship!!!whoohoo.two church sewrvices in one day.cool huh?the onli da i can gochurch, i got two.thank God.then acs boys deicded to have some fun first.then jamien brought along joanna(hope i got the name right paiseh)she had some safra card.then we needed her along for directions.ate at macs AGAIN.then gold fish went home before that.then irving me and jamien and mingxia had a laguhing fit.cos irving wuz maknig us laugh nonstop.then we were laughing from serene center all the way to the bus stop.guess how long is that.and th bus took quite long to come.joanna wuz like looking at us with the weird eyes.oh wellz.bus came.laughing stopped.then started for a while again on the bus.then we started freaking ourselves out with ghost stories of our school.if hes not lying, poor mingxia has been seeing ghosts for quite a long time.not that he has the eye.but its occasional.haha.then irving wuz getting freaked out.rili freaked out.i know its kinda evil to think bout such stuff.but i need to ask God what are ghosts?how come they remain here?haiz.
then we reached safra yishun.irving walked home alone.onli left jamien, mingxia, me.joanna.went bowling.so late.it wuz like ten plus?yeah..but still quite busy bowling alley.then we had 2 games.my gosh.my bowling sucks to rock hard core.kana 16 longkang in one game.wth man...lucky i neva said we were acsb bowling team(cos we were wearing acs shirts)...damn suck la.ashamed of myself for having such lousy bowling skills.then secod game wuz like improving la.one time longkang.then the other time got strike.what is this man? erratic performance.sheez i suck at bowling la.damn suck.left handed bowler sia.my palm keeps shotting forward!dammit.
then longkang.then finish playing.i got lowest obviously.then joanna took us to the interchange shortcut method.then mingxia wuz getting freaked out(cant blame him la)hes like "can u walk behind me?"then we managed to get some hing from 7-11 before we left.then joanna wuz like going home alone.feels uneasy for zhabo to go home alone like that.but er..she ran so fast after the bus?and also to go take the next bus after her is juz plain stupid la.she lives at thomson.me and jamien going back school.and it wuz eleven plus...still felt uneasy.ah heck it la.then we went back to school.damn ex la.cab leh.then wan cheong, bronson and leow wuz there liao....playing soccer.then plad abit of soccer.hey i played soccer(now thats a rare thing to do for moi)cos the onli things i kick well would be a body.not a ball.thenn we slept in np room.wanted to rape bronson.but talk and no action la.haha.
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Saturday, March 12
apologies
man...three postings in a day...that rocks la...
ok i m here to apologise for flaming plmg board.firstly, i didn't hate synapse before.i thought it wuz gonna be great.apparently, i wuz proven wrong....and i m angry at this cos...i paid 14 bucks for the t shirt and dinner and i got onli a quarter of the deal.the t shirt wuz too small and i didnt eart dinner.and those neighbourhood school ppl were behaving so unprefectlike...maybe if iahd spent the day with em i would have enjoyed.but its not possible.cos i msort of being forced togo for the atf. and also, based on what is plmgs affliated to barker..are u talking bout methodist institutions?bull man....we also methodist institutions and plmgs don't carry no acs crest....so dun come talk to me bout affliation. we didnt do june act with mgs right?in fact they held their separate one on the same day as june act.so beta check ur OWN facts right first...miss or mr '-' its not i hate it.its a bad impression of it.and the thing that i can't talk about it on my blog cos i have to show to ppl.i dun wan my blog to becomea mask as well la...and i also dunno how u owuld find my blog.cos 1.nobody knows of my blog from plmgs.2.nobody knew my name from plmgs so they wouldnt know how to find my blog through links 3.i sure don't have any contacts in plmgs, none of em would have known this blog.4.its not ALL linked cos i dun see where they wil know my blog...and to plmgs board its not ur fault...its my fault that i have such bad impressions and LOOOOOOOOOOOove to bitch bout such things.its juz me...and barker is a cool board....oh yeah the bad feelings also came from the campfire..i had bad experiences from campfires.so obviously i would be pissed off in surroundings of darkness, one fire in the centre.everybody's sitting down.ppl are singing and dancing tostuff u dunno.thats why i feel uneasy and its how easy for such feelings to convert to unhapiness and then toanger.i dun HATE such things ok?
hopefully, the next one i going to is free from hassles...so far iginte is still the best la.try learning from kcpb?
and also i wuz unhappy bout our item..we did some gay face off and then some cheers.while other schools have such good items.i m frustrated that ppl juz can't be bothered to follow tradition and give a proper item to please the board there....man do u think that wuz good?even john thinks i should have scolded the buncha uselesss shite...samuel cheam scrammed so fast.johannes juz says i dunno.douglas juz comes and is so slack.cheam thinks its nothing when its important..i m esp particular bout such items.if i m not happy with it then i dun think the plmg board would have a gd impresion of our board.i m afraid that they will see our board as some bochup board.i dun wan to giv ppl that impression.but no..these buncha sec 3s and 2s muz go and screw it up.if not for the atf i would hav forced johannes to go learn some song to play acoustic and we sing.no dance la.dance take weeks.and best is jhannes can come up with excuse...thats right.i m flaming the new blood of our board.very SLACK.las yr at least roshen and wes would stick with me and actualli bother to perform properly although they had their doubts and other unhappiness.but this new blood(both 2s and 3s). they juzcan't be bothered.why?cos they expecting somebody to do it for themand if everybody thought that who would do it?stupid mentality....hopefully in the sec 2 trng camp they will be enlightened.if not oh well, these sec 2s beat watch out for a senior who will come down harsh on em...cos our board is not one that u be prefect and then bochup.u muz do ur part.its a machine.u dun work.the whole thing breaks down.and i will be theregulator to eliminate u.oh well, its still up to discipline department.DEAL WITH THESE BOCHUP PPL..make them take performing items for school conventions a serious thing.kc wuznt some fluke performance.we practise hard de day before.onli singer missing...even then jon pang wuz adapt and good.i dun see why this new blood cant make it....
this posting is a public apology obivously..i m sorry for flaming the plmg board.for tha i m sorry...ah iif u dunno...today i posted three postings...so scroll down somemore to see the rest ah.sorry
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a touching love story
this is a short love story..got it form 933 shuo shuo er yi.it wuz played las yr la
there wuz this couple taking a motorcycle ride on this road....suddenly all of a sudden, the boy tels the girl" can u hold on to me tighter?" the gal has question marks on her head.but does so....then he says" can u gimme a kiss?" then she also wuz more puzzled but still did so..."do u love me?" he asks...the gal says" whats wrong with you? yes i do love you.."the boy ju says"nothing, i juz wanted to be assured..." and then...
the next morning, there wuz a report of a motorcycle which crashed into a vehicle.one man died the woman the pillion rider survived with onli a few scratches...the man wuz ound protectingthe woman from harm.and died in the process.cause of the accident..problems with the motorcyle brakes....
the guy had already known there wuz problem with the brakes.he knew they were gonna get into an accident.so he wanted to have a last hug and kiss and to die with the words "i love u" in his ears....and protect his gal...
aww isnt that a touching story?
chase wuz good..."erm..u dunno me but i know you... err....next saturday's prom ...er i wuz wonering...er.if u could come with me?"utt asks in his teenage years... "why dun u wait another ten years?" says linda coldly...ten years later.utt is a advertising producer or something like it.linda comesback from canada after a botched wedding and a break up.she is his comany client's niece...haha
next week" sory do i know you?"nice show sia..haha
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initiated
ok...quick review of things.oh yikes...all my three tests got the magic number 12.chem ibo and physics....man i sucks at such stuff.my maths too mild...lousy sia.then yesterday wuz npcc service day.had to go dover flats there and promote crime prevention.damn boring sia.lucky i got partner with pak ning sia.then me bronson and jamien arranged ourselves to go the same block.means we change with some ppl la.then we competed to see who gets the most number fo signatures.to show we went to thehousehold la.haha.i got the most.probably cos i could speak decent chinese and bronson and jamien couldnt?haha.but it wuz scary talkng to them la.had to know what i was talking bout.then we went back to school.had a small meeting about the nco camp.then rushed out liao.rushed to go cornerstone.joseph invited moi to go to their youth meeting.told dad and mum that i gonna have dinner out.so yeah.ok.sorry i lied ok?or told a half truth.my dinner wuz onli some vegein some gravy.14 took a long time to go from my school to there.haha.passed yb orchard.
reached the place.rushed up there.eat the vege left.then go inside. i saw guitars and musical instruments and question marks pop in my head.then i realized it aint some youth meeting.its like some church service.and...its my first time in a church.WHOO HOO!we did worship.then pastor daniel wuz doing some praying.and he started some machine gun talk.not english.kinda scary man.but...i lrealised later it wuz speaking in tongues....
then there wu a skit on having a mask sahowing the real world while we hurt inside...then pastor ken came...he preached about how we are some ppl under prison inside our minds. and we carry burdens.and about good exchange...how Jesus takes our bad stuff and exchange it for good things.really good stuff la...then we did this thing about ppl who have onli prayed onli once that prayer.then i wuz up front.hey everybody's eyes were closed, no need to be shy.then three ppl prayed for me la.i tell u what is the mostshocking thing....there were ppl CRYING!i dunno man.but wuz i supposed to cry?nah. i don' think so la.i felt the bad stuff get cleaned up.my sins washed and my mind cleansed.for a moment the rage and bitterness (what little of it la) wuz cleaned out la....forgiveness...then th three ppl wh prayed for moi kinda spoke in tongues la.ok i dunno how these ppl can speak so rapidly la.like how does it happen to them?then jodin wuz like telling me stuff bout what i juz did.i wuz still in shock la....haha.then we sang "one way" and then, got some review of thingts that they did.then i saw the video....u noe the part where they put their hand on u and then pray?then i wuz like shocked to see that the pastor pray then pushed th person head and then the person fell...i dunno man.but are thing supposed to happen like that?i mean, ppl were crying.probably cos they felt the love la.ok i got inititated into cornerstone....yeah.then when the whole thing wuz over, had to go home fast.cos quite late.and er..parents wun take too lightly about being so late la.then daphne walked moi out.then since katong wuz quite far form my home, she lent my $$ for a cab cos i bo lui.then she waited with me for a cab.but take quite long la.then she wuz like "will u blame us if we ditch u after three minutes?"i wuz like ok beta call parents.then i called my mum to fetch.then waited for her to fetch me from odian shoping centre...then daphne could go get her dinner..haha.quite bad to her la.make her wait so long with me.then some more hold up hr friends.oh wellz.
today, woke up at 5 plus to take 33 to school.saw my brother using the ocm in the morning la.ok not surprised.juz keeping my mouth shut.my sis told me before.hes so engrossed that he didnt hear me la.crap.then he saw me and turned it off and pretend nothing will happen.hwa seh.hes beyond hope sia.would have been early for tgm if...i hadnt overslept in the bus and it went to kent ridge.yeah.i could have been early la.then overshot.then took a bus back and then rushed to school. at 710 then reach...bongard wuz talking bout stuff..oops i missed all the reviews...bad sia.thentrack and field meet.prefect won the inter cca race duh.third wuz npcc.cos of ruzaini.he covered up distance pretty fast...my dear scouts er..got 4th?then got free ice cream andwent home.
uncle tony veri good business.clsoe his photocopy shop so early....i couldnt get a photocopy of the IA la.so i told paul cheong that.then blah blah blah.haha.and conveniently, the photocopy machine in front office broke down.cool huh?
joseph mention me as gloomy..HA.of course.i look at my results.how to make a niche in life?be happy? how?no matter how much fun i have its the mask.the mask is down onli when i blog?
everything bad that happens to us will be a scar to us and a burden on our shoulders. imagine this...carrying rifle and a bag of stuff.water bottle.uniform and doing obstacle course in record time...u will die la...its like that lor. so we must throw down uch bags and live life.kinda easier said than done ah....why we carry masks around is because this world is full of bad things....we have to bee on our guard all the time.always...if the world changes, thenwe will be in comfort liao.no need for maks.but this world we're in,it spells bad.oh man i m judging people.thats bad.and do u noe las night...some ppl tot i wuz sas? even in my uniform.school uniform.like my school crest wuz kinda big? and uh i dun carry some tiger and some simple symbols on it?its a hybrid creature we have ok?i think he got ocnfused cos las sunday, i wore some once a saint always a saint t-shirt to parkway.blue colour.then saw some cornerstone(didnt i mention that), maybe he saw me then he recognise me in that shirt sia...oh man.i wuz wearing cos i had nothing betato do la.get some fashion kick.haha
heard two new song this week...."gravity"by embrace, "boulevard of broken dreams" green day...nice sia.wan to learn how to play those songs on guitar sia...haha....
tomoro got amazing race with jamiens church.and then stay over in school...one night before the nco camp.hopefully can go service....haha
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Wednesday, March 9
tennis finals
whoo hoo!feeling high! we won tennis "b div"HA! ri finally lost to us.today wuz damn bastard...wanted to cheer when their good player got a muscle cramp.man i dun see why we can't do that.after all, all is fair in love and war.so what if u kana muscle cramp...then neva cheer thenhe got back on his feet.walaneh.
today saw alota taonanites....adrian lee( dunno what he doing in ri, probably good la.become tennis player), marcus oh, wong kah wei, eleanor, charmaine yuen and surprisingly esther....but esther wuz at a diff time....i din say hi to em at all..i dun think they would rmb me la.maybe kahwei and marcus would la.but didnt wan to create unpleasant feelins la.cos very tense there.i go toilet also scared get beaten by ri punks.but then mingwei said got faith in my strength.ot that i scared em la.juz that later kanaa caught.then kana suspended.
then tkg wuz there for the gals finals.mingwei wuz asking me where esther wuz.right...like i knew where she would be ah?then somemore say shes my gal.oh my gdness.oh wellz.shes not ok?walaneh.then took 33 home.
when passed by tkgs.i know why she wuznt at te finals.saw this mei mei in np t shirt and carrying a super pink op bag.i know onli one gal in np would carry such a bag.that esther lor.then i think she saw me.didnt say hi.i also didnt la.perfect strangers hor?well didnt feel anything so wouldnt boter trying to get her attention.then i got down first.she drops off juz before kembangan. i drop at onan road there wad.
after that go home.at night go tkd.damn slack.ordered my black belt gi.and done....cant say much.
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Monday, March 7
naggy dad
man, i dunno wad's gone over him.thats my dad.he heard i got a b3 for my chinese and started filling my ear with ear wax man.nagging to the extreme.talk bout my future.frankly saying.i m super afraid of my future.cos i dunno whether i can make it or not la.to law.to smash those people who go suck up to ppl with the big $$.but how to score into nus.i m super scared la.this question has been going round my head since las yr.wad are ya gonna do?corporate law yeah.get a rank in white collar crime bureau.oh man.its not as if i dun wan to study chinese.actualli i m fed up with it all.hes neva happy with what i do la.everything has a dark side to it.when i wanna get a hp, he says get into law and i get u this.man i m 16 not a 4 yr old kid.dun think i dunno that hes telling me a bloody BEDTIME story.ya like hes even gonna part with the $$ at all.yeah i noe we having a "jaguar or mercedes" in austrlia.but my hp is degenrating and its dropping value.then he said i have a high iq.wth?how is that so?i dun have man...basket...or rather i have been using it in unapprpriate ways.ya like how m i supposed togo get smart bout studies?yeah.like yesterday, i anyhow guess the answer to cheng liang's chem question.but its juz pure luck.i dun see myelf as some smart guy la.
then before that i watched the ad for the new series "chase"funky fairytale man.then got inspiration to write a story haha.not complete yet la.haha
then the song by pearl jam juz rang in my ears..."last kiss"its suh a sad song la...
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Sunday, March 6
the light and backsliding
man, i have to divide this into two posting cos later ppl complain i blog too long sia.ok the light.it empowers ppl(hopefully la) gives hope and happiness.the darkness is where al unimaginable stuff happens.the horrible.ppl in there try to hide all the tim.and will do all things possible to maintain tht status.oh wellz, they doing harm to themselves man.
God is always with us.the onli ppl he doesnt go with would probably be the luke warm punks and the sunday guys?yeah.lets explain it.i heard this from yi yang during sec 2 in my prefct selecition camp.here goes...God spits out the luke warm chirstians out of His mouth.why cos they neither here nor there.juz in the middle.its as bad as nothing.if u are evil, He can try to help u.but if u neither evil nor good, wha can He do?sunday guys are those punks that worship Christ on sunday onli.hello ah?God doesnt onli happen on seventh day ah...He rest on sunday.the rest he had been working on creation.we should worship Him everyday right?thank Him for all that creation.creating us.loving us.protecting us from harm.whats the point of worshipping Him on the day He rest onli?rili man...
backsliders...God is always with u...its juz that something in ur head prevents u from feeling Him.notice the breeze that always caresses ur cheek everytime.the rustle of the leaves when all is quiet?the rain that juz so happen to come when u feeling sad?the love song that seem to play nonstop on the radio everytime u turn on the radio.its not chance or some funky mathematical formula.its God's work.He ouches u with the breeze.He whispers into ur ears with the leaves.He tells u how much He loves u through love songs. He cries with u when u feeling like it.GOD IS ALWAYS AROUND US....everything that happenes happens for a reason.everything plays a part in this big ol tapestry of Fate.ppl come into ur life for a reason.ppl leave ur life for a reason.it may not involve u but some bigger plan. God's plan is too complaicated for us to understand."tian ji bu ke xie lou"thts why u ask God why He had to do so and so, he doesnt answer u...i got this idea from qian li.whatever happenes is cos He wants u to be a good person to enter His kingdom.project soul harvest that is i think.He wants us to enter...but we muz b pure.free of evil desires.so that the day, satan comes out to play, he can't find anything to play, insterad his arse gets thrashed.isnt that a good thing?backsliders..u muz hurry up and seek God.satan wans u to play with him in the day of judgement..or when u pass on.he wans u to come to hell, keep him company.dun forget, hes also implementing his own project soul harvest.and his plan is beta to mortals.or so it appears.wh think of so near.think of the far end.where do u go?if u wan enjoyment now..then u get hardship later.if u wan enjoyment eternal...well suffer now la.give up ur worldy desires as what the bible would say.its hard to do.God's proposal to man looks like a bad deal la.satan's one is full of illusions and "benefits".Gods business proposal is the one with the real benefits.so think this before u think u back sliding:"both the Good One and the evil one wans u...which place u wan to spend ur eternal life in?"both God AND satan is with u.unlike God, satan has control over the world of desires.God is free of such stuff.hedun need to control this.He loves us so much.can we possibly bear to actualli make Him cry or hurt Him by saying we backsliding cos He's not speaking to us?the problem is ur ears.not His voice.and satan's voice is the silencer.muter.probably also the cause of ear wax la..especially dedicated to those who feel God doesnt seem to be talking to them...
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ignite is better than synapse
yeah.i m rope burnt and sun burnt.i had atf yesterday.man i tell u, those havent gone atc yet ah.the intermediate challenge tower is not considered tough ok?its the advanced challenge tower.ho man.i tell u i wuz praying to God la.so HIGH.and i had to walk on two lines following some rope.with a harness to support.then i thought God heard me.cos a big gust of wind came.and guess what?i lost my balance.oh my gdness.and thats when i didnt dare to look down.the guy wuz getting angry la.cos i didnt exactly walk.i shifted my bum along the way.then i heard his angry tone.then i knew the next instruction to tell me to walk on the line would come in the form of a shout.so i stood up.oh my gdness.damn scary la.then kana rope burn.then the ICT i did the easiest one.finished in 5 mins cos i knew what to expect.did before in national camp mah.then we bluff them that we did the dangle duo.when we didnt.hello? its dman boring la.then we did th flying fox..hoohoo.i tell u man.adrenaline man.the moment me and wan cheong left that platform.i wuz gripping the thing so tightly .supposed to rest on that harness.but some how i didnt feel safe lor.oh man...then moved damn fast la.then cos of my weight i moved double time....then after all that..go home.had to endure david's nonsense.
alota ppl i know from other units in area 15 and 16 came la.mixed alot with barker road.their head prefect and vice head were in np la.then onli the vice one came.the head wuz in plmgs.coorganizing the synapse.loh lay heng from queensway sec(lady that doesnt know me but i know her), ivan from new town.emily and wan yi from nhss, some mats from ctss plus tanglin plus jin tai.then wan cheong wuz like asking bronson if he is stupid or dumb...i counted it like got 15 tiems sia.i got 4 times.then we kept threatenting bronson that if anything we didnt like happens.we gonna kill bronson.haha.gladly nothing bad happened la.then go back sg, changed mazlind offered to fetch me to plmgs.man, we got lost la.she dropped me off near there cos we oculnt find the place.then i found it and ran tothe school lor.johannes the punk kept daoing my calls la.then reached in time to do the item.thank gdness la.it sucked real bad.i tell u compared with ignite, plmgs sucked.firstly they were siao zha bo.second the prefects invited were from neighbourhood school and those bastard hurled insults at me.civilised huh?third the t-shirt distribution wuz so lousy.i got some ultra small size crap la.gay fashion as what shawn quek said.then their souvenir sucked.basically it sucked.the item sucked.too many late comers.too lil attendance.it wuz a screw up.to me.and plmgs board wuz probably too weak to even hold an item that they had to ask barker to co organize the event.suck right?i tell u kc ignite is still the best la...
today i went parkway again....saw soe cornerstone ppl...din say hi cos i think they dun recognise moi.saw jie yang.also din say hi.ok.wuz the m1 store.looking at the k700i.man i want to change my hp.then...my mother saw la.then she wanted to buy in secret i told her dun wan la.cos like that how to keep fom my dad huh?and i noe his pocket gonna blow.folllowed by hisscolding...so no thanks...i hate doing sneaky things....something bout what dachi said bout ppl who did evil things and were afraid of the light. i do not want to do uch stuff and then be afraid of the light.so yeah.i will onli accept it if my dad buys it for me.or if its a gift.i wun steal i wun lie bout it.
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Friday, March 4
bored sia
yikes nothing to blog la.ok.make it short...slacked in npcc.sec 3s went classification shoot.i wuz left with nothing to do.so slacked.made some unsuccessful flubbers from the darned labs.life science symposium.then got tattoos.haha everybody went mad with al that tattoos.dimitri made some constantine like one.its actualli some double helix dna thingy.then he made a cros on his fore arm.like constatantine.juz that constantnie wuz some ancients symbol....haha.then i put one on my right wrist.left middle finger and left side of my neck....haha.now wash off liao.tomoro muz wake up so early.rush up and down.hq treats us like shite and say they are proud to have so many cadets.wth man.and i gonna spend my day ith seven other freaks.ok maybe plus half more.bronson.getting too much on my nerves by being peacekeeper.
new song new song!!!
ai wo hai shi ta by david tao
hei an zhong de wo men dou mei you shuo hua
ni zhi xiang hui jiz bu xiang ni hui jia
ji mo shen de xiang hai tai rang ren hai pa
wen rou ni de shou qing qingrou zhe wo de fa
ni de mei yan shuo ni hao ke wang wo yong bao
ni shen ti que zai pin ming tao dang yu wang zai ran shao
ni ai wo hai shi ta
shi bu shi ta zhen de you bi wo hao
ni wei shui zai zheng zha
ni ai wo hai shi ta
jiu shuo chu ni xiang shuo de zhen xin hua
ni dao di yao gen wo hai shi ta
ai~ai~ai~ ta
zhe shi bu shi ming yun dui wo de cheng fa
ai ni ye mei ban fa hen ni ye mei ban fa
xie zai zhe ge xuan wo zhi xiang zheng tuo ta
la zhu ni de shou que rang wo ye bei tuo xia
ni de mei yan shuo
ni bu ke wang wo yong bao
mei dang ai bian cheng le jian ao ni jiu kai shi yao tao
ni ai wo hai shi ta
shi bu shi wo kei zuo de geng hao
rang ni bu zai zheng zha
ni ai wo hai shi ta
wo ning yuan ting dao can ren de hui da
ye bu yao zai bei sua
ni ai wo hai shi ta
wo wei ni zao le yi bai ge li you
wo jiu sahi na mer sha
ni ai wo hai shi ta
shi fo chen mo dai ti ni de hui da
wo ying gai ming bai ba
( music solo)
yeah....
ni ai wo hai shi ta
ni dou yi kan bu dao wo men de hao
wo hai wei shui qian gua
ni ai wo hai shi ta~
shi fo chen mo jiu shi ni de hui da
wo men dou bie zheng zha
qu ai ta...
great song---man i beta cut my moustache or i will make the same mistaken impression when i went to te kc camp...
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Thursday, March 3
founders day and hypocrite christians
ok gonna make it fast bout founders day.wuz great.can wake up late.then report at indoor stadium.do NOTHING bu walk around.then ate pizza for lunch.we the fillers are like pigs man.took 4 pizzas for 9 people.pigged out man.then changed.then duty.the fillers were in chargew of reception.then some acs international ppl kept comiung into the lounge to usae the toilet.spoilt brats man.then there wuz this pair of gals that stayed inside there for more than half an houre.shall not elaborate on what they would do inside.then shook tharman's hand sia.took a pic qwith the board of governors.then found out that ang peng tiam, vice chairman of acs board has a great son in our school in gep called david ang.feels great doesnt it..fighting against a person even dr ong sucks up to.thats the part i wanna go about..he talks so much about christ when he go and bow down to $$...wads this man...i can sense this la.no point fighting la...haha
Christians...if u turn to Christ...giv up ur old ways alrewady.cease to persisit ur old ways...dr ong, u talk so much bout christ when u go discriminating rich versus poor...thatrsa how bad la.lucky i din lose my temper with david and go and bash him up otherwise, senior prefect would have been lost liao....dr ong if u re reading this..take note of this verse" my brothers, as believers in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ, don't show favouritism. suppose a man comes into your meeting wearing a gold ring and fine clothes, and a poor man in shabby clothes comes in. if you show special attention to the man wearin fine clothes and say " here's a good seat for you," but say to the poor man "you stand there" or " sit on the floor by my feet," have you not discriminated among yourselves and become judges with evil thoughts?"...But you have insulted the poor. Is it not the rich who are exploiting you? are they not the ones who are dragging you into court?...if you show favouritism, you sin and are convicted by the law as lawbreakers. for whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it" James 2:1-10 tyhis goes out to those acxs board of governors...man i tot u guys are like super holy or something la..rili man..using ur money.and sucking up to ppl with $$...
is this world rili gone so evil? is God in heaven regretting His convenant of not flooding the earth again?i see kinda. we are in a society of decaying values.the government believes in $$ and more $$.wads this la.how are we gonna make a diff in this? Another question came to mind: what happened to the souls who drowned in the flood? did thewy go to hell?won't hell be full of business? o rather suddenly massive death rate like that is like too busy la...
haiz...yesterday, track and field heats.did student official thingy la.or rather i slacked with my sec 3s.they also do nothing then buy food and eat somemore.then went hoe with raymond after he collect his prize.
ok..simmered down.apologise for such harsh comments bout sas.under investigation by dennis cheong?some deputy discipline master.cos that jimy koh kinda went for reservice....haha..ok after i blogged that night.zen kinda knocked some sense into moi la.bout stereotyping the whole school cos of one guy.ok...
thursdays are such a drag too.wanted to take green form sia...satrday hve the stupid atf thingy lor....haiz.chinese b3..should drop or continue higher chinese.man i know glen is like super pro la.got a1.hwa seh.dunno how he does that sia...if i drop i can slack the whole year round cos my results dun rili matter and i aint gona take the o levels again.i dun care.content with a b3 cos i dun wanastudy the same shite again.and if i take higher chinese, have to take the o's in november..then pass or fail no big deal.the onli fuming punk would be drong cos he doesnt wan fails.oh wellz, u wan money or Christ? cant have both mon...food for thought..
man my tag board like having no life like that la...pls la ppl.got comments tag or write into comments section....ciao
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