Friday, September 30
pre exam posting
awroight, this is probably the last posting i gonna publish before exams. haha.finished studying bio.oh well rushed thru eco and plants using lam peng kwan. with that o level text bk u can always move real fast. now its time to concentrate on maths. haiz.screw the lil ol physics man. i dunno nuts.
chinese (higher) got the sixty seven point five things man. my zhuo wen got like 48/70.haha lu xiang say i taking a big risk by writing these kinda compo. cant blame her. the topic wuz about learning to let go.haha.mid year i wrote some gay story about getting a gal pregnant. only got a 41 for that. haha...minus three marks.
risky risky.what can i do? i'm a blogger i get tired of xin wen du hou gan.therefore i prefer to write compos that i enjoy doing not some skeletal structure thingy haha.
mmm...the song playing is mei li de shen hua by two china singers. adapted from the song endless love. the soundtrack from the myth. sang by jackie chan and kim see hyuen? i love that song man. haha
i need luck. i need prayer. i'm afraid of failing my language arts again and my physics getting a shite grade. i scared my bio only get above sixty. i wan it above 70.i scared my chem standard may drop below seventy. i fear for my maths cos i dun seem to find the ability to calculate fast enuf.
friendships are dying. like the ong family is daoing me now lor. i cant blame em. the parents dont like me.cos i dao them. probably seen as a sign of defiance or disrespect. i juz said nothing to them la. what the hell...my mouth once open will sure pop out some cynical comment or extra comment, so i rather keep my mouth shut. this can be proved by my insulting of kangdi. i dun really mean all those nasdty words. but they sprout outa my mouth faster than i hold my tongue. i'm abit shy la. but i not those that say " i'm shy". i mean u cantr imagine me waving my hand in a gay manner and saying "i blush whenever charmaine is around becos she's a gal and then i forget what i wanna say" no. i dont do that. neither do i feel that way. i juz dont feel a need to say anything? its like ------?i not the conversaion type of people man. dun ask me why.haha
then lil ol reuben is like drifting far from me. he's like " i think we shouldnt be as close as friends" kinda thinking. shite man. man. u should know my mouth shoots off like nobody's business. so unnecessary comments happen to come out in ur presence. but not in ur parents lor. its called respect ok? haha.oh man. i hope u aint bearing lil ol grudges agst me juz cos i breached ur trust to help u.sheesh...he's an interesting conversation topicalist.haha.
thats it. and after exams we're gonnna going a-watching movies and a-playing and a-mugging again fro o level higher chinese.
then i'm gonna a-training for tkd to build up speed and get bashed up for tournments
shite, getting real fat. need to lose weight. no i'm not wavingthe flimsy wrist and whining " i'm fat"haha
crap, i lost mingwei's compilation cds la. its somewhere in my house. but cant seem to find it. oh man.inside all the good songs lor. must find must find
listen to the song. it starts with guitar plucking and "meng zhong ren, shou xi de lian kong. ni shi wo shou hou de wen rou..." its a gd song
awroight. got my cert for honours. and the guest of honour is really inspirational...
need ur prayers and encouragement..
angel mortal and devil. u have to tell me ur identities if u wana flame. cos i dunno u.i'm sure u cant be that clefairy that i supposed to be flaming cos u cant trace back to me.
if we meet again...
*salutes*
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Friday, September 23
oh my ganjis
oh man. whats up with the flamers man. cant say anything bad. they are helpful critism.buttheres a falicy of argument here tho. i aint liking anyone. should sue u for slander.interesting names u adopt here.hey man. thanks. haha.oh man, u shouldnt say like such stuff. and i dun talk about HER in class. dun be nuts man. it wuz in the past. whoever u are, u better check ur facts first.crap man.
number one i aint any bhb guy. hell no man.i havent got any kind of high self esteem.
number two i admit i aint handsome. in fact i'm probably handicaped in that looks department. but God created me that way.
number three, i am studying if u actualli are in my class. and i think about ways to increase my rate of studying instead of what u think i am doing
number four, she aint mine. therefore its not called stealing from me.sheesh.
number five a studying life is not a life. buti have to adopt it.
number six if u are so free to read my blog and post such good advice. i dunno..u must one helluva smart guy
number seven devil u repeat so many times for what? u shame the art of flaming.
flaming is an art. if u dun hate but flame me without knowing how much trouble u can get into, u aint fit to flame. flaming is when u have alota hate for a person and hence flame. but u would be scorned. so try not to do it.
i have to clarify again. i do not like anybody now. dont anyhow go slander me hor... saying such things can destroy friendships.i dun suppose u care tho. haha
bleahx...whoever u are, if u got the guts, come up to me and ssettle it properly. this is like acowardly method if u dun hate me. flaming for mischief is for pussies. so pls u wan be a man. use more manly lang.
i still duno who u are. but ur art of flaming sucks.
oh well now i have forgiven bunny. like the whole hated disappeared. i have returned to the light...be happy forme.haha. God's intervention...haha
chinese prelims wuz a headache. didnt study finish...sowell...haha
its time to study somemore. feelingtired thesesdays. no drive to study.perhaps angel mortal adn devil u can deliver some nice messages? haha
wanna see the myth after exams., any takers?
ciaoz
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Friday, September 16
things fall apart
shite man. we're all gonna get sick of this quote now. haha.must comment on my progress for exam preparation. it sucks.slow slow slow. not fast enuf.my lil brain cant seem to absorb fast enuf
bleahx, reuben keeps doing gd ol counselling for me.wth man.he's like why u hate bunny. he expects me not to hate bunny whjen he has done so much shite to me. like i'm supposed to forgive huh? i aint God man. haha.if i give up this persecution i'll be doing myself an injustice.oh well, things seem to be falling apart for me. we're gonna have alota this kinda titles for posting
yeah. i AM falling apart. my life. getting all spasticated.
ah sheesh. this business with bunny is really not top of my priority. neither izit any kind of COCKED UP CASL ESSAY?! wth is the school trying to do to us.neither is homework. the school doesnt even let us off to study.do this do that.i cant even study properly. everytime i do something other than study, its WASTING TIME!!! what izit that the school don't understand?! that we HAVE TO STUDY!!!really tempted to say the f word
lets put aside the bloody bunny incident now.for now.after exams, then it'll continue. i dun see why ppl actualli cant stand a conflict with another person.its juz plain !!!i am infuriated.cos its NORMAL.i dun practise loving one another.i not fit to be called christian. are u HAPPY NOW?!
ITS MY ARROGANCE MY PRIDE AND MY STUPID ILLOGIC REASON.the fact that ppl do wrong to me and i cant do anything back to them cos its agst christian values is wrong to me! then i'll have to live my life a very bitter man if i cant go have revenge right! i'm not like u, i was raised to eliminate compeititon.i have an extremist mindset.WHAT ARE U GONNA DO?! u cant change about TWELVE YEARS of upbringing like that!!! the fact that u keep teling me to patch things up with him really irritates the whole thing. its like theres a wound and u keep scratching it!!! i'm freaking stressed out and i have to get moral lessons. i dun neeed moral lessons! i have a dark personality. my soul is very black and full of hatred now. and then u threaten me that if i dun patch things up with him, u wun let me talk to her. what the hell. my second type of aggresiveness is when i feel threatened.it gives rise to a very hostile response. SHE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS AND U GO AND USE HER AS BARGAINING CHIP! do u wanna DIE?! u should mind ur own business. this is called high powered games played due to a childish reason. no BIG DEAL.and great, our friendship suffers the stupid price.i have changed. become stupid or something.what the hell man....
feeling angry at myself for being so useless. not able to study. when i wanna have a nice talk, we tlak about bunny and my blood boils everytime we talk about him. like he's some interesting topic.i dun even talk abt him to sam or eggy or anyone la.cos it DIRTIES MY LIPS to tlak about such a flithy lifeform.
heart's pretty confused now man. sms running out. only like have 4 left?! to last me like six days?
shite man, nearly fought with kuan meng lor. the stupid fool liked to play with our "dropped" ohp screen.roll into a bungle and u get a long pole. so this stupid fool keeps wielding it.i javelined it once when he wuz doing the see saw thing. did it from behind. then another time i told him let go.cos i wuz not happy with him doing that.irritating. when i told him nicely. he tries to play coy with me. so i grab it and i told him " let go if u dun wanna fight" well, seems like he's not as harmless as we all think . so i speared him with it. knowing his big ol mass, the attack wuznt powerful enuf or rather didnt hit. then he tried to do another of his lil ol anime tricks on me. oh well what can i say, anime dont match up to reality.helicoptered his arms and pushed down. stupdi fool used to much strength on upper body, forgot to stabilise below.so oh well, freaking fell on me la. then i moved back word tripped and moved shreya table.u can see. that lil kobe kuan activated my fight mode. i would have smashed him if i hadnt crashed into the table. the first thought that came to mind wuz " wuz it seet's table?" cos seet would bitch u if u make his table. so had to divert course.fight mode broken. then the punk fell abraised his arm cos of his stupid tank top, then tried to confront me. oh yeah. u shoulda seen his face man. it had "look's whos boss here" all over it la.oh well, i backed out cos not gd for a prefect to fight.haha.would have pummeled his face and cracked one bone of his. i tell u one day, i'll do it. jeremy choo wuz the funniest " triceps are scary...like rock hard" super random man...haha.u see i would have a traget to ventr my frustrations on.i'll get hurt but i'll probably take a few of his bones with me. ha.
oh if i aint here to blog.
20 sept- happy birthday marian.
haiz, CHARMAINE START STUDYING!!! i duno what ur brother says about me. oh well its probably true.haha.he doesnt lie.
the effects of a stressed out mind man....
this is pretty random. taken from lynette's blog:
l0ve ish n0rt b0ut finding s0me0ne y0u cann live with__
but findin s0meone y0u cant live with0ut.
quite true man. oh great its in briliant pink now.
gotta go studying.better pray for those who cant seem to catch up.
oh if i aint here to blog.
20 sept- happy birthday marian.
haiz, CHARMAINE START STUDYING!!! i duno what ur brother says about me. oh well its probably true.haha.he doesnt lie.
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Sunday, September 11
okonkwo
shite man, i feel like lil ol okonkwo in things fall apart.ok other than i mug and less manly than him.probably more street smart than him. haiz.shite man, so much for walking in the valley of shadow or quiet time( cos i promised someone).ok i did quiet time( u gotta gimme a yay!) bleahx.the devil's trying something funny man. he tried to set up some bloody mooncake thingy on me.crap, my second moon cake got cut up when i had no desire to eat it yet.but then my dad dunno what mooncake it wuzgo and cut it.that's his excuse. the word lu cha is so big there. he dunno cheena also should ask my brother. but then he go and start making it look like my fault. oh well, anger boils in me la. shite man, i feel like smashing something. i cant begi to talk about the maid cos she wuz juz following instructions( she's as what okonkwo described as stupid deaf or dumb)yeah, ok very mean thing to say.she's not very bright, so easily forgiven. the fact that pl in this house don't admit they're wrong and they go make it look like my fault. oh man, my blood boils at this thought. took me how long before i can cool down.
ah crap. i finshed lil ol coordination other than homeostasis.didnt do anything last night.bloody lunch wuz like sinful man.charkwaytiao.oh man, so many calories.haha.WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WORD "BLOODY"? how am i gonna refrain from using any kind of words if even BLOODY is banned. walao. i canundersyand the DAMN part la or the hell. but not the bloody.*scratch head*
last day of the holiday, i havent touch the heart diseases( as in the whole bunch, not juz angina, or heartfailure.more of the aneurysms, mitral valve dunno what) after i'm done with that, we can move on to circulatory system and then blood poisoning and diabetes mellitus.whoo hoo.uhhuh. then we do homeostasis.then the week one nonsense thats like what we learnt. then do the sexual reproduction and then growth and development then, lil ol enzymes. read greenstout and taylor to finish up. then ecology(GST stlye) then plants( but its optional la, heck the plants.we aint gonna take it in SL anyway)
so much stuff in so lil time. i feel like ponning school for three weeks.hwa then can cover liao.walao. school is major tripping stone in my path of mugging.MIN YANG STOP SUDYING the slides for the FIFTH TIME!!! haha
screw midautumn festival. i have no mood for it anymore. all my moon cakes are like tainted. idun wana eat anymore this yr. traumatized man.i still need to hit something. darned. look at this dumb story
"As I sat there in Enqlish class, i stared at the qirl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didnt notice me like that n i knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her.She said "thanks" and qave me a kiSs on the cheek. I wanna tell her, i want her to know that i don`t wanna Be just friends, i love her but i`m just too shy, and i don`t knOw why. . .
11th Grade
the phone ranq. on the other end it was her. She was in tears, mumblinq on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so i did. As i sat next to her on the sofa, i stared at her soft eyes, wishinq she was mine. after 2 hours, a drew barrymore movie, & 3 baqs of chips, she decided to qo tosleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" anD qave me a kiSs on the cheek. i wAnna tell her, i want her to kno that i don`t wanna be just friends, i love her but im just too shy, and i dunno wHy
Senior Year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is Sick" she said; he`s not qonna qo. well i didnt have a dAte n in 7th qrade we made a promiSe that if neither of us had dates we
would qo toqether j/ as "best friends". So we did. prom niqht after everythinq was over i was
standinq at her front door step. i stared at her, She smiled at me n stared at me w/ her Crystal
eyes. i want her to be mine, but she doesn`t think of me like that n i kno it. then she said "i Had
the best time, thanks!" and qave me a kiss on the cheek. i wanna tell her, i want her to kno
thati don`t want to be just friends, i love her but i`m just too shy, `nd i don`t kNow why
Graduation Day
a day passed, then a week, then a month. before i could blink, it was qraduation day. i watched as her perfect body floated like an anqel up on staqe to qet her diploma. i wanted her to be mine,but she didnt notice me like that, n i knew it. before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as i huqqed her.then she lifted her head from my shOulder and
said,"you`re my best friend, thanks!" and qave me a kiss on the Cheek. i wanna tell her, i want her to know that i don`t wanna be just friends, i love her but i`m just too shy, and i don`t know why
A Few Years Later
now i sit in the pews of the church. that qirl is qettinq married now. i watched her say "i do" and
drive off to her new life, married to another man. i wanted her tO be mine but she didn`t See
me like that and i knew it. But before she Drove away, she came to me n said "you came!". She
said"thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek. i wanna tell her, i want her tO know that i dont wanna be just friends, i love her but i`m just too shy, and |[{ i don`t know why }]|
Funeral
years passed, i looked down at the coffin of a qirl who used to be my "best friend". at the
service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her hiqh school years. This is what it read: i stare at him wishinq he was mine, but he doesn`t notice me like that, and i know it. i wanna tell him, i wAnt himto kno that i don`t wanna be just friends, i love him but i`m just too shy, n i don`t know why. i wish he would tell me he loved me . . . i wish i
did too . . . i thouqht to mySelf, and i Cried"
crap man, i have written a story like that before.ohwell. but not to the extent of the funeral.pfft.still touching.bleah...
SCHOOL!go away.come again when the exams over. haha.nuts man. i havent had dont qi in some time. so i looked at my daily bread and opened the bible which i havent done in months.haha.yeah.
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Saturday, September 10
lost of feeling
oh man yesterday, not so productive. studied onli like three chapters of bloody chem in afternoon and three illnesses of bio.stroke, meningitis and encephalitis. haiz. dun ask me what man. must go and revise it again. i onli know whats ischemic and haemorrhagic stroke.pneumococcal meningitis. bleahx. getting all bio-y.must study more today. heck physics man.cant seem to understand the madnetic thingy. magnetic resonance imaging(MRI)-uses computer and a strong magnet to produce images of the organs of the body. dont ask me how they do that.its better than a computerized tomography scan( CT scan) which only produces 2D images. i dunno why also....bleahx. the notes like got loophole. haiz.minyang! stop studying!
watched a tale of two sisters. bleahx. don't really get the story. haha my dad shrieked man. haha.lucky i didnt watch that part.head wuz away.i dunno what happened man. its juz confusing!like a hand shot out to grab the lady's hand from beneath the sink.haiz.
oh man, my brother took my green tea mooncake! argh.u dunno how much i love green tea mooncakes. and my dad brought two from malaysia. then i scared the thing too heaty so i eat one quarter a day la. i know thats like a lot too. cos everytime i eat, i feel full after. then he freakin ate HALF. in one go! sobs.half a mooncake. i bet he didnt bother savourin the taste. only realised what it wuz when he bit into it. like a stupid pig.or my dog.ya sheesh. why couldnt God give me a younger sis instead of this animalistic brother.i must have done something really wrong to have this kind of brother man. since go into sas become some spastic children.i hope they don't teach all the guys there to take things without asking and not apologising. what the hell man! juz eat whatever's in front of him. horrible. savage!yeah. i only have ONE left. my heart is like totally broken.xin qia.sheesh.
why couldntt i have a younger sis? i have some nightmare thats two yrs younger than me. imagine.bunny's thick skin plus kuan meng's logic and spasticness shahir+zhiwen+ong's addiction to dota into one. and u have my brother. haiz.he's like some accident with contraceptives la. like somehow tear or something went wrong in contraceptive purposes.so lack of respect for elders. only likes people cos they treat him well.eats like there's no tomoro.sleeps the moment he studies. yo wwf, i've got a sloth here. i hope its endangered, so u can bring it away from domesticity and back to nature.and what is he taking? double science, combined humanities.oooh a mths. i hope his brain can contain it.but then again like what min yang said, what brain? oh wadeva....a younger sis would be better la.for one, she wouldnt go pigging out.oh well....bad luck
yesterday, didnt feel like studying. so wasted alota time.reading tv sypnosis. heh, "my date with a vampire 3"really cool series. i loved the past two ones la.ok tho i didnt watch most of the episodes but i got the general idea.rmb i rushed back from some big christmas even to watch the finale for the second season lor. haha.its a hk series la.
oh goody, jj lin is finally releasing a complilation of songs!gonna buyh it. finally some cd to buy.delirious, jjlin and shooting stars soundtrack.haha.
oh bloody mosquitoes,killed like how many yesterday. while they're in action.need to upgrade my skills to whack em in flight. alamak.no point if they sucking then i kill.cos might already spread to me lor. lil ol dengue.no, i dint get any.UPGRADE.where's the stupid place that's breeding all these bloody parasites?!one day,i'm gonna invent something to cause the extinction of mosquitoes.why did Noah even put them in his boat?!
i didnt know fairytales still existed in our times man. wow look at the !! couple. the jokers who invert their names with a ! in front.talk about prince charming and cinderella. ok i'm being really harsh and extreme by saying a and b cant get together due to status.or rather schools.okok.revealing too much!its not kangdi and jon wong la.haha.
grrrr.......STUDY!
crap the hols are ending so fast!
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Friday, September 9
no title posting
how's that for a title?
man, take this jealousy test, i actualli have 50.79% jealous. and i wasnt so honest in the survey la as in i didnt answer some questions that show how jealous i can get.oops.this is bad bad bad.
Jealousy Test to see how jealous u are
oh shite, yuen gi's mugging more than me. not good.walao.mug till 4am.some life man.everbody!stop mugging! chow minyang, eggy, yuen gi, kenneth seet.ARGH all the secret muggers.stop mugging! oh man, my mugging is considered peanuts compared to them.so people stop asking me to stop mugging.can't
ohyeah. only lefft about 8 or nine chapters of chem left.completed nutrition and haemorrhoids and eighty percent of digestion. nnow i gonna move on to blood clottin and er...some other diseases. stupid brain don't really work well at night.moved at a really slow learning pace.haiz
k rewarded myself with a movie last night at twelve. chinese tv la. some show called " homicidal maniac" about this murderer who seems to be killing those ppl who bother this gal. so suspects are...this movie producer who is rather weird and is suffering from mental disorder.he's obsessed about the gal and anyone who threatened her got killed by the murderer.his obsession got to the point of gonig into her house and all.ok, hes not the murderer. his sis is the one.she also got mental but she doesnt show it.SHE'S THE KILLER. in the end, the brother killed her la. with a gun cos he didnt know its her. then shoot the masked murderer.haha
roight, eugene's just telling me about BMT.sounds pretty good huh?note the sarcastic tone.sheesh
haiz...STUDY!!!
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Thursday, September 8
on the cliff
man, i have this bad feeling man. like i'm on the cliff. so far i have only covered like 5 chaps of bio. if u consider each disease to be a chapter.
peptic ulcers
cirrhosis
hep a & b
appendicitis
intestinal obstruction
chem, covered the first ten chaps. blody waste of time, i havent even touch on the impt topics
28 chapters!
physics! onli covered sec one.
ARGH, i am so underscheduled. i havent even touch my sec one bio. or any of the big ol disease like athero or aneurysms. crap. crap. crap.
things fall apart, the centre cannot hold.
blah blah blah about the second coming. forgot the wb yeats poem liao
not enuf time!and higher chinese oh man. bloody prelims are so near. like onthe 21st. AREGHGHGHGHG
somebody kill me. haha
heard over the radio some dedication. about some guy who wans to see the sun rise with her, go star gazing with her, be there for her. and the dj says this kinda guy can pao gals one. i wuz like !!! its nothing but a poser la.i bet BUNNY uses such romantique language. wonder how he's doing now? oh well, ur rest should be read good. appreciate it. cos after the exams
its smashing for ur friends man. u didnt seem to get it when i said ur friends are juz casualties of war lemme giv u a hint. 5 weeks max 6 weeks later. they gonna get "harrased". and u said like i am not. haha i am the perpetrator how can i be a casualty. use ur brain first la. oh i forgot. u use it for attracting gals only.
haha, man, i have some evil heart. i am the midnight personality. no happiness. what nonsense. as described by reuben ong.
this life sucks man. morning wake up. breakfast. use abit com, afternoon, mug one subject. night mug another subject till twelve or near twelve.crap man.
things fall apart, the centre cannot hold.
if anyone know the code for free by corrinne may, send moi. haha.
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Wednesday, September 7
gay pics.
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the basketest of most basketest
yeah. i dunno what possessed me to write that gay poem. its so mundane so ordinary. bleah.alamak.there goes one of those themes wasted man. juz cos of a bloody headache.
yeah, now that we're here, described a funny incident tat tells u all to bring tissue whenever u go out. i wuz on the way to school yesterday, and on the mrt...i wuz studying bio la.cirrhosis if i rmb correctly. then a bloody trail of blood came out of my nose. i wuz like !!! oh shit. ARGH.panic man. had to hide my face later ppl see then laugh. then had to wipe with my hands. oh gross man.then now my bio notes got some bloodstain la. haiz. no kind passerby offerred me tissue la.kind sinaporeans it is.
STUDY!!!
corrine may songs. the one thats playing now is "save me"
Everything in its time
Sometimes i wonder what lies ahead
How long til my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
so many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and i try to pray
in the silence i can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
I often feel like that i'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
why i should give up
But i'm stubborn in the things i believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to the patience and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan
One i still cant see
A little surprise, like your love in your life
Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to the patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time
Free
I see the morning glory
It winds upon the tree
It tells the untold story of
how things were meant to be
You saw the universe
Caught up in desperate dreams
You came and changed the ending
Changed it to save my fate
You led the revolution
You left your legacy
Embraced the struggle
in the face of mortality
I know I'm not alone in this
Help me believe
I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful Healer
Beautiful Grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains
It's still the same old story
This great divide
Between the want and waste
And all the hunger inside
I heard the news today
Now I'm trying to find my place
I'm just a single voice
What can i do to erase
All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe
I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful Healer
Beautiful Grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains
Save Me
I drift, I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands
I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who i am
Just take my hand and
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
I had a dream that i
was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die
But out of nowhere you came and rescued me
There must be some grace in the touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid
Oh ' cause you
Save me from this place
Heaven knows i'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting
Before i met you
Life was slow-mo
So slow-mo
I thought i had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows you've come to
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you
her songs are so nice, why ppl say she not famous. she's better than ur lil englebert humperdink la!!! this is to reuben
haha.
escorted @ 11:21 AM;
the time to mug
yeah shit, i got a bloody headache so better make this quick. oh man, my dad's karaoke doesnt make things any better.
oh well, got a haircut.eight bucks. its super short. i like it la.super buget.wadeva
today went for the senior's cheering session for the selection. man, the nominees need to have a huge cut. too many. i couldnt break them.without killing them.hardly bitched them la.cos got alota restriction. and also havent bitched for a whole month.
not allowed to say the word "damn" or tamade.its a promise to someone. and also john loh said to damn " is to condemn someone to hell" just now. haha.shall not say. boy, my vocab is gonna be quite limited.
argh this headache is killing me. not enuf time to study...stupid higher chinese must study for the lousy prelim.crap.
poetry
"stars"
the night is bright
illuminated by the moon and the stars
u and i, we go star gazing as always
we lie on the roof and stare up
i look at ur face and wonder what i did to have met u
then u look at me and smile
that innocent smile that i fell for
and asked " what?"
i replied " nothing." and continued star gazing
as i looked at the stars
i think of our future and our past
but then when u put ur hand on mine and said " i love you"
i just thought of you and treasuring the present
i have seen the past
the times we've gone through
i dunno about tomoro
what our future will be like
but what we have is now
and i have u
nothing else matters
inspired by wu ding, xin qing by jay chou, sweet lemon and of course the story of g and k
i am not in any kind of mumbo jumbo thaat wuz described above la. haha
escorted @ 12:41 AM;
Saturday, September 3
things fall apart, the centre cannot hold
famou quote by chinua achebe.
guess its applying to me now. oh well, phan's left, so has mingwei. u know i am debating whether this should e a really long post or two long posts.oh well one long one la. haha.
u know its really funny, that we dun really appreciate the people around us till we have to part. then we rmb the times that we had together.but by then its too late.funny u know. i guess its human nature.i dunno man.i was like writing a farewell message to phan and then suddenly, it juz got so emotional.its like i started reminscing the past. tho like i've onli known for almost two yrs. ths times were good la.ok.i've known him since sec one la. but not so well cos we werent in the same class.haiz. as i rmb.its funny, tears rolled down la.i couldnt accept the fact that hes leaving.not to mention mingwei.i have known him since sec one la.likew in same sec one class. i couldnt accept that this ppl are going.that we aint gonna see em like everyday. where we dont feel their presence in sg. except on msn. but i suppose u dun feel a presence on msn do u?i dunno man.the farewell party wuz crazy.some ppl got drunk.and funny things happened.haha.
then we had another farewell in class, and really...it was sad man.ok other than the intimate pics that i took with phan( for fun la u think what?)which kangdi has yet to send me.
mingwei refused to let me see him off at the airport. stupid boy.why did he do that man?i couldnt see phan off cos of school.but mw left on 1 sep!.damn
all these is getting to my head man.its time to gear up for battle.alota shit to revise now.but we also have to help each other.when ppl need notes, we have to give it.now exams come in 2 papers.so no one shot whack all.haha.
been reading some chinese love novel. those ou xiang ju.all of em are based on a certain theme.quite dumbness la"when u're in love, sometimes even the sweetness of the lemon can be tasted" go read sweet lemon. and turn left turn right juz has so many more "fate play trciks" themesthen the movie which i failed to notice.damn sweet la these damned stories.
i read or heard this from somewhere. one day, g and k were walking. then k turns to g and asked" can i kiss you?" g then says" i should be the one asking u that" and he moves in and gives her a kiss. oh well, g and k broke up eventually.why? cos k started daoing g's smses.really pisses me off that even in stories they do this kind of thing to destroy the relationship. haha.oh well, its only a story.and the worst is she go and lie to cover up for her bloody crimes. man, when poor g found out, his heart is even more broken.
2 weeks, very significant number to lota ppl in acsi.i dunno.shant say anything more
ok yesterday, got this fantastic dream. i dunno man.if they say dreams dont come true but they tell what ur heart holds true. i was like running some damn stupid cross country( hard to believe eh?)then the focus is the final part.i held someone's hand and started to the end point. i thik there was some couple first prize. as i was running, i felt her presence. its not a specific type.like i have met her but yet cant seem to tell who it is. then in my dream i feel ppl rather than see. its a weird thing la.like u feel a person's aura. haha. then the damn alarm clock woke me up and i lost the presence signature.@#$%^cock and bull.
teachers day, i dunno. i decided to give gifts for the fisret time to my teachers. esp shaun choo. he worked so hard to let us understand and he nevea gets angry or throw temper. haha.then went bak tns. its juz gay la. nobody left to see. onli ms lam. and some really small subj teachers. then most of the sec fours neva come.oh well, shou hao said i've grown buff. i was like !!!. then he accused me taking gnc products. I AM NOT BUFF!damn fat sia.then theyt were like molesting my chest. damn sick sia.
man, the weathers damn cheap skate. my world seems to be falling a part.like yesterday, i had to fotocopy some chem notes. i interupted tony's lunch time. hes the damn photocopy man. and he was dman pissed. and he was grumbling and all that.ah f*** it man.juz to photcopy some shit make so much noise. and his lunch time onli left ten minutes. and he talked about me not treating him like a human and not entitled to lunch.f*** again man. then he said i am a prefect. oh yeah, u can probably expect a complaint from him soon. why? juz cos i insisted he photocopy. juz one request.and he make so much noise. what a bitch.freaking weather man. i had to deliver some stuff at bedok.and the DAMN rain is juz unrelentless. had to like shelter with my a maths book.and from mrt to place of destination mostly unshaded la.can die sia if i was water soluble.haha.my own delivery service motto: "rain or shine, we deliver it for u" damn. that kind of stupid rain. not too heavy.not too light eiher. lucky i went to reuben house and changed shirt man.and my poor silk tie....then studied.the funny things that ppl use a camera phone for...charmaine was like taking a picture of a BLOG on the com la.i was like ???didnt get it.
bunny, u havent learnt ur lesson.the next phase is gonna be up.after the exams boy.whoo hoo.you're gonna learn. its an educating purpose.
the meaning of life...all the damn philosophers are crazy. they make me crazy understadning they profound words.
damn man, myfather uses my brother's name for a damn password to something. then my brother thinks hes so big now. my placing in family juz dropped at least by 200%.damned
exams are coming. exams are coming up.draw nearer.draw nearer.hit ur books and stop playing.hit the books and stop playing.its time to start.
i must be mad orsomething to sing a damn campfire song and change the lyrics.
the flaming will start again after exams.flaming judge has gone into retreat.shit man, why am in the same primary school with the lil tart that broke eggy's heart? well, she juz come from my brother's batch.haha.gideon yap is not gd. eggy is better!gideon yap is an obnocious lil bastard.
i'll be damned. i cant go for the chillin under the stars thingy.why? cos its study time.exams preparation is juz plain eff you see kayed man.damn i gotta stop using that word man.
number one rule of flaming: dont use God's name in vain.dont judge ppl using God's word.with that i have to leave. and go study. ah damn.
escorted @ 12:17 PM;
