Monday, October 31
the battle of chinese
can u hear the cheena drums? it signifies the end of my war with chinese.no more mugging.whoohoo.bloody higher chinese is over.oleh oleh oleh...numa numa yeah.heheh.studied so much shite for twenty marks and another fiteen marks.haha.its OVER.the paper wuz ok la.did the bio technique for li hjie wen da.be over inclusive.juz spam the ans blanks like hell.haha.the first section wuz like the hardest.yeah.and its like the first time i finished a paper 20 mins before end. and the compo wuz like bleah.so average.cant score high la.i wrote some crap lor.maybe gonna get a b4 for it.haha.
watched the legend of zorro.its good considering its like some action show.
oooh,bought november chopin.JAY CHOU'S new album.sounds more professional now.no qing chun gan in his songs la.haha.but its ok la.
gala dinner.gotta get something done bout my hair.so thick.but its ok la.after this week gonna cut so short man.and sport a beanie out.haha.
now as i think back on our years in acsi.i feel so....melancholic or something.sec one we all came in.hey thts when the most fights occurred.and that bastard tan xian ling.
sec two, we were some nonsense class.sec three even more nonsense class.sec four no need to say la.the things we have done that make us so unique
in sec 1 wuz bullying lil ol xian ling.sec two wuz ok la except for big mouth pipetius(weird name) became a prefect in sec 3.i took alot shite in selection camp.and EOY camp died from clement lin's nonsense.sec three's prefectship opened up my views.whether its expand my circle of peng you or other prefectorial boards.self discipline.management of time.passion for the school.man u gotta love dr ong man.he's led our school to success.iron grip it is.but it was good being under him.nurtured us.tyhen there wuz the council selection didnt apply tho.didnt feel that it would be my path.
npcc-taught me the evils of the world.only in our school.teaches u that no matter how much effort u put in.higher peple bring u down.made good friends that i would neva know of.johan,jamien,bronson,wan cheong,shreya,daryl lin and more...
sec 4 prefects.started toget more involved.maybe cos wuz some imaginery "honourary council member"haha.more conventions(lao liao)
not to miss out class activities.kuanmeng wuz the damper on class spirit.bunny's blog killed him.PAPER BALL FIGHTS>HAHA...and the two tkd sparring matches with rui xiang.no one got hurt.at least no permanent damage.and the PENG YOU...i feel so sad man.leaving min yang, cheng,le chern,ash,kok,eggy and alot more.juz so saddening.jeremy choo and his nonsense.haha
oh boy.can't forget my egwugwu mask.tho i threw it awar,did my stress dance.
man,stairway to heaven juz got more interesting.haha last ep i think.kwan sang woo is crying.its like some crying scene.but the song is super nice.hhaha.
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Saturday, October 29
the end of our days
today's the last official day i wearing my badge as a senior prefect or rather i'm retired.haiz.its the last day of school.it feels so...weird.cos some people pon the last day of school.it was a good yr as 4.11 stephen. from 3.11 elisha we rose to four.then now we're finally here. the year passes by real fast.now, we're moving on to new classes.new environment.shite can u believe i'm actualli tearing.must be the weather
thank God i aint in the same class as david ang.or ben chia.
5.5 deuteronomy.that a mouthful to write.better find an inspirational passage from that book for next yr.haha.so sad.separated from cheng, min yang and le chern and more.same class as yi yang, jon b,kuan meng,ben tan,ben tan(water polo),michael sheng(hey he lives near me!),theodore,qiao zhi(bloody gep) and anoter gep....and rayan.haha.ok class la.
next yr.new yr.new books.new class mates.our teacher: mdm yong li har.yeah....
the guy to gal ratio is really frowned upon.oh wel, to go chasing gals at this time is to court death.
therefore, i have to make this promise not to go gal chasing in IB.ok its like loser's behaviour to chase IB gals.so yeah.no fleeting romance feeling for me.local foreign.blah blah blah....mark my words
oh well, allowed myself some feeling on tuesday.this st nicks gal came on the mrt.carrying the impossible chem book with one page filled to the brim with post-its.fleeting romance feeling."i saw an angel,of that i'm sure"no she didnt smile at me.but thats it."i will never be with her" haha thats right...
next yr cannot man.otherwise will zhou huo ru mo.then die.so yeah
bloggers...getting punished for inflammatory comments on the blog.better be careful about what u say.even if u are spreading God's word on people's blog. some random blog people ask ur to f*** off.man, the end of the world is near.haha.check
this out.
hmmm, watched sweet lemon.its now on ch u at five saturdays.i like that show.haha
chinese is freaking sian.study.study.crap man.pressure
saw the school magazine.haiz, i look so freaking off in the pic la.like i'm on some roller coaster ride.wide eyes.and i dun get a mention in the article on npcc.walao.
jay's releasing an album AGAIN.hooo!!! counting down to buy.watch doom.ms chew kah wai's treat to some restaurant cos we helped her carry the magazines.gala dinner.
need to train ALOT.the standard at joo chiat cc is so great that i'm afraid my standard drops. the boys there are agbala.scared of a hard kick even tho their hand are protected with a target.agbala to the max.and some idiot kicked MY hand without pumping.this is unacceptable.in eunos he would be pumped till his arms hurt.its like some learnig clas there lor.low standard.kids playing around.ILL DISCIPLINE.and the trng is soooo basic.when the overall instructor eaches, i actualli learned osmething that time.some hammer and reverse hook kick.walao.
had to partner this white belter guy who's so shy like a mouse.man he needs to speak up more.they shouldnt integrate black belts with colour belts.its like diff trng level la.like a black belter knows how to execute a kick faster than a newbie.then it'll be chaos.haiz,down there they dread kicking.boy i love kicking la.bloody hell, and we spend so much time doing gd ol physical work.i can do that so many other days.but this trng session go make ppl run run run.and kids go sprinting like some faggots only to slow down and walk nearing the end.PUNKS.
baskets.baskets.baskets.its near the end of the year.i juz saw this show"true courage" in chinese.talks about this guy abel who got brain damaged and believed in Jesus.then he got baptised, his neck from crooked go straight.and he knew how to walk without any kinda physio.sheesh.the wonders of God.he says, whatever religion u are in, juz believe in Him whole heartedly.from the bottom of ur heart.really touched me.haha
ronin came to school yesterday.performed with some undesirable words that the teachers dont like to hear. haha.freaking funny la...but VERY NOISY!
bleahz
ahhh
happy advanced birthday charmaine.
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Sunday, October 23
the wonderful things in life
man, juz when i'm feeling down and all.God sends a messenger to tell me dont be disheartened.crap, i wuz that near to being an atheist. shite, like i only have a half heart.somehow i aint touched or something by His stuff. means deep down inside there is an atheistic part.
shite, reuben's chiding me now.oh well, i'msome arrogant pice of shite.thats pretty true.haiz,pride makes men fall,gives men false hope and false expectaions.i look down on too many people that icant name.judge some really bad things on em.it cost me one friendship.its probably gonna cost me more.i feel like really tired of life man.lost all aim and aspiration.i feel like a bloody corpse.my psyche is missing.hollow zombie.i dunno man.everyday, i pass it like some....i neva felt like this since my heart got broken.yeah instead of zha bo its results.results results and more disappointments with my life. my career is made difficult cos of a prince who knows no value nor skill except that his father did something beneficial to our unti at a price.the money minds of the world will surely fall to temptation.had i not been bypassed it would have been harder to differentiate who would be booted out of the trng camp.
my life is at a minimal point.d2y/dx2>0...
shite its like i metamorphosizing into something darker.like someone help me?
darkened souls of the world
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Friday, October 21
fark goes my life
yeah.fark goes my lil ol life.
people who got higher than me in average-shut up...
this time, my results are like f*cked up or something.
maths- i had expected at least a six in BOTH.but i only got it for adv maths.bloody core got a dumb 5
lang arts-F*CK...wheres the justice in it man? i took the pains to actualli analyze the poem.what do i get? a f*cking fourteen.
ihs-ahhh f*ck that la.my nice lil hypo question got some lousy eight upon twenty
physics-i am a bloody dropper hence i failed even after moderation.how would u expect me to pass with a 23.5 upon 70 for my paper 2?
bio-its the most f*cking disappointing piece of f*ck in my whole life.i studied so much for it.got so many bloody stress pimples and zollinger-ellison syndrome like symptoms. got a f*cking 58/100.what the f*ck man
chem-not so disappointing.but its so full of f*cking careless mistakes.my mind mut have been some f*cking hypnotised
mother tongue- shite man, if only i got this grade for my bio and chem. or maybe do some sharing for those subjects. its the only subject which earned me a 7.what do u expect? 90/100.its ownage marks man.only marks minues was from compo and oral. main paper got full.heh
i'm at the bottom of the class.or near there.i beat only about ten plus people?
f*ck
i may not get my dream combi-i'm changing it.not some gay combi. its maths chem and bio at hl and english, chinese b and bizness& management at standard
gonna try for medicine-cardio man.or lean to make mee pok and sell.or criminal law
i didnt get selected for CIBTC.f*ck.like hq chose me over the otther three to be knocked out.bronson i can understand but the other two?WHY ME?! i cant appeal?
life's so unfair.maybe a life of Christ aint so powerful.maybe i should be an atheist.its like a life like this is so restricting. i cant do the things i want. why? cos its unlawful.i wanna get a lil revenge.nothing happens when i asked God. then when i wanna take it into my own hands, its wrong.ah...crap it.such thinking is bad.can't imagine a life without God.haha
now i must go june camp izit?
one thing that really amused me is during tkd trng on wednesday(stil sufferring from muscle cramps) some yellow belt guy tried to pick up this white belt gal.i wuz like laughing. heres how it went
we were separated into two groups.sec school and above, and below sec school.
i had to partner with another two black belters cos odd number.
this yellow dumb f*ck got a male partner liao.then he see the whitebelter( probably he fancied her or something).he thought she got no partner.it was to practise some hammer kick and reverse hook kick.illegal moves.but he got jagged.i wanted to laugh.some dumb piece of shite.man its freaking amusing.
if the dumb guy actualli gets to read this, he's good: U DUMB F*CK, THATS NOT THE WAY TO PICK UP GALS.U'RE SOME TOTAL FAILURE!!!
sorry, i'm pissed.but it sure feels good saying the word.i felt practising the hammer kick on his face.HAHA.
i'm pissed
nothing is gonna lift my spirits.
i have no passion for studying chinese
go away
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Monday, October 17
bleahxx
check this out.got this from someone's profile.dun mind the f words
"im f***ed up with my life. am no longer that lil girl next door who lives blissfully without worries. no longer smiling genuiely to her peers. no longer embracing readily to wahts hitting her. it's a thin line between reality and fantasy. and i've woken up from my dream... from the reality that has slapped me hard.
here i am, sitting alone. alone in the stillness of my room. silence has filled this place, and, not forgetting, persistant haunting memories. i dont need a hit and run, i dont need a heartache. but yet sooner than i know, they've already entered and turned my life around.
i used to have a vision. used to hypnotize myself that everything happens for a reason. used to naively console myself that everything's gonna be okay. used to admit and think that it is part and parcel of life, part of growing up. but all is helluva bulls***. view me as a freak, call me childish, i dont give a d***. and f*** to this, i dont accept fate.
still, journey has to continue. thou slowly, im glad im proceeding. glad to relish the fact that i've moved on, moved away from him. im not at all gonna be emotional, neither am i gonna be pinning for his return. no more. instead, im gonna turn the page, embark a new chapter in my life. but, as much as i know that my wounds would never heal, i know, they have stopped bleeding."
sheesh...what a mouthful. i duno whats gotten into her.rather poetic i have to say.haha.pitiful.pitiful.i dun see why ppl make such melodrama over a heartache.u shoudnt like declare it.having a heartbreak is shameful and takes out alot from ur mental strength.like getting into some car accident and getting back on ur feet.declaring it out loud would make u look foolish mah.why put on ur profile sia?
this is bad man. whats the world coming to? well, she's mighty poetic if u ask me.haha
bleahx. i have nothing to blog about. only scared for my exam results.haha. everybody's gonna beat me la.haiz.theres neva gonna be a day when i actualli get sevens for my grades.wheres the justice man...siao man 85 and above.how to get sia? i feel so jealous when ppl actualli get so high la.esp when there are more than ten ppl who get it higher. u can say i am rather the competitive extremist kinda guy.o cruel world!i need more intelligence and adversity quotient.shite man,next yr when others come its gonna be tougher.ARGH...wheres the reset button in this game of life? this version of sims:sean lee's life is like really boring nad distasteful.i have a feeling that this life has gotta have some spice somewhere but i havent found it. its like the allegory of the cave by plato.feel like i'm one of the cavemen who went out into the world and returned to the cave with the feeling of a better life. where is this better life man?
best-uh place
spice of life
yong heng guo du
where am i gonna find these things man?
and WHO'S GONNA WATCH THE MTH WITH ME?! ALL THE BLOODY FORKERS GO WATCH ONE BLOODY GOAL. ji bai man. really...some bloody shite show with gd ol newcastle.its really shite man.u can guess the whole story.'bout some lad with some football skills having a dream to go football professional.i dun even LIKE football or soccer.what the hell man,nearly wanted to fall asleep.its juz a few men kicking a bloody ball.wheres the thrill? wheres the rush that ppl want to know who got bought and who got thrown or who sucks and who rocks?i'm bloody pissed.and the best is that ppl can actualli talk about with no end.i'm impressed....
school's starting AGAIN.major groans. all the paper reviews are gona come in. i gonna realise how many MORE wrongs i have. then hear ppl who actualli get it right and groan more.lament and bitch about how bloody careless and dumb i can get.it probably can't get any worse. if theres any comfort the teachers shouldnt go thru the papers before the results come out.
i'm freaking scared.ppl say they know how to do some questions while i dun.it means ppl get higher than me.this is wrong wrong wrong.
one thing about me is that i dun like being bested. but then time and again i do.then i cant seem to get some things. and wil never get it.drats.
was talking about some classes and schools with my brother.ha wouldnt wanna say anything here considering the sensitivity of blogs here.cos said some stuff.haiz
haiz
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Sunday, October 16
my detestable brother
yeah. i want to report on an incident yesterday mon. haiz. u know to add on to all those horrible stuff that i said about my brother, boy, hesure has a lack of respect for life. as in pets
some background info on the animals concerned. u know i have three dogs. two who have been with me since p4 and another one who came in last yr. the two dogs are like toy dogs.haha they contain our memories. and the big one, he's a nice one to greet u when u go home. only that its bloody disgusting saliva.
haiz. yesterday, the two dogs.bichon frise.were allowed to walk free in the garden.they're kinda really old.yeah, if its anything that i love so much it would be them la. haha.they contain my memories from primary school.happy and sad and its always the female one that likes to make people happy.she's really smart or something la. the male one is rather gong.so now they face persecution from the big dog.hes some malamute.crazy one.bloody whiner when u do some things to him.haha.
the two small ones are so fearful of the big one now that tey actuali fear human touch. it took long to convine the female to be pet again.but the male is still withdrawn.then what my brother did was stupid. he go and pet the female. then he tried to pull a bloody stunt in lion king raising the child.ya. my heart was like in my mouth when he griup her with ONE HAND. i was afraid he would smash her ribs or something la. oh then it didnt happen. what happened was he almost dropped her from his height. i tell u.my heart did go into my mouth.he struggled and gripped her back legs. i was so shocked. then he refussed to let go. until i did some funny push on his sleeve. haha i touched the dog before.therefore my hands dirty. i made sure she touched the ground. oh man. i tell u i could grabbed his head and smashed it agst the wall la.he said walao. and complained that i dirtied his shirt. i was so pissed. then i was like u almost dropped her! then he went so?i really wanted to kill him or something.he probably treats em like some warcraft shite.kill nvm.why dun i kill him then i say that man? what the hell is this nonsense? i tell u the poor gal was so traumatised. i wanted to punch him la.juz laughed at her trauma.i gonna do that the next time he carries her.right on the face where everyone can see it.he does bad stuff to the big one.pull its tongue(ouch),use a peg and clip its ear, holding its paw in a bid to do some gay handshaking when he can't.closing the dogs mouth forcefully.he relly doesnt respect life. i gonna pity his children man.if hes even gonna get a wife instead of some casual fling.oh well, if he tries such stunts on his kids or wife, i really gonna give him the "Sean-lee-royal treatment"full of colours.
u see, he thinks the world is his kingdom.can do anything.i really pity any profession he goes into.it will go broke with a loafer like him.he has no respect for elders.none for my dad none for my mum if they chide him.none for me. then he go and think he is some one class above his school.go and judge and complain to me about the peple in st andrews.i have some impression theres like no decent soul from there thru his lil reports.haiz. then he go and think he's better than me.haiz, oh well. let the fool go on deluding himself.i even told my dad blatantly"he needs a whupping"i'll be glad to volunteer my services.u might ask what kind of brother am i...haiz, lemme tell u la.i also dunno why my parents want to have another child.maybe have a sis not bad. but have a brother?pls la...i dunno what i did.everyday, i see him in his selfishness and want to be selfish myself and give myself some peace by whacking him up.but my father does not condone my whacking him up.oh well
oh yeah, i wanted to say this for very long time.jeremiah.stop bugging him in school. didnt i say noone is supposed to tell him that i go church? why got ppl harrassing him?now he knows some info about me.info that can lead to my downfall. so i have to say SHUT UP!!!
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Friday, October 14
"You're Beautiful"
My life is brilliant.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high, [ - video/radio edited version]
Fucking high, [ - CD version]
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
mmm this song wuz played on the radio yes 933.funny huh? its a real good song...
the whole exam time, diffsongs were being played in my head. haha funny man. from david tao's(anata) to jay chou to nan quan mama's (mu dan jiang).haha
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its darned well over
yip, its over. freaking shitey exams are over.
LA- the unseen was funny, i did the poem.felt that i could score higher with the poem. i may be wrong.tho it wuz hard to unederstand. the set text was cool man. jit, seet and moi sported the question before the exam. compare okonkwo and obierika. whoo hoo.
IHS- one word : bullshite
physics- thank God i not taking it anymore. it was hard. let us welcome the new bio converts who think physics is a bitch too...i couldnt do finish the paper haha
core maths- shite it was easy but i didnt do about 15 marks of qn in paper one and 19 marks of question of paper 2.somebody shoot me la.everbody's gonna beat me.that feeling sucks
bio- i wanna cry man. all the shite that we had to study, almost all didnt come out. not even aneurysms or PEPTIC ULCERS.ARGHGHGHGG....i lost a number of marks stupidly.no point mugging so hard andngetting all that pimples from stress when shite aint even tested
chem- no need to say. it was simple but something went wrong in my mind, i actualli c4+ as an ion of steel.somebody shoot me.give me a gun
mother tongue- if anyone ever had a definition for waste of time, its mother tongue. its so freaking easy man.
advanced maths- shite shite shite shite shite man. ppl say its easy when i couldnt do like some questions.shite shite. I DIDNT DO THE BLOODY CIRCULAR MEASURE. WHY IS MY TRIGO SO LOUSY? its like must do this and that. then got one stupid question have some extremely big number then the answer ended up being zero. and about 4 questions in paper one i did before la. all thanks to that qonderful book that kangdi lent me.(enuf bitching me already)
verdict: i did not perform as i had planned.
in a period of exams, my behaviour changes.
a:i get boring
b: i get nasty
c:its easy to lose friendships
d:i have no life
e:i realised that no matter how hard i studied, i still cant seem to overcome the atmosphere.THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE....
unsatisfactory exam conditions....a loser sits ehind me. he happens to make a hell lota noise with his nose and coughs and his legs always hit mine.bloody kuan meng.i nearly wanted to break his nose.next is the stupid gep next to me who exudes this wonderful smell which hapens to interupt my chain of thoughts.
the third is the most cocked up one. is that when i am preparing for the paper or even doing the paper. the thought of a destroyed friendship came to mind.
really saddened.number one i didnt know the person to be an agbala who couldnt take my poisonous mouth...and i dont use my mouth for friends.poisonous is when i use on enemies.i attack such things called weak spots.so far my biggest challenge is kuan meng cos he doesnt break. except that one time when he got physically damaged.mamamia, his breaking point has surfaced.i only criticized ur singing and ur taste in retro music. i didnt call u fugly or insulted ur family.and that time when we went shopping for those guitar picks that i wuz supposed to get for marian's bday. but u were like whats the point and all that. i told u its juz for a friend.somehow u didnt get it and u still kept saying thisand that. then i snapped and insulted u and that unmentionable issue.sometimes ppl dun seem catch hints,then u flew back some bloody harsh one.oh well, i realised my mistake the moment i said it.
shite man, this is so screwed up la. i didnt know u were agbala. then all the time pangseh me.what the hell man? thats four years of frienship for u.gone juz like that. juz cos u feel " hurt" agbala.i'm pissed cos u actualli try to set the level of frienship. u dun do that in frindship. and mutual respect doesnt count formality must i use perfect politically correct engrish like some bloody raffles debate boy? look at the way i behave around the scouts, we exchange words like nobody's business, what makes u so special?!
watched the last episode of heartlanders, fantastic fight scene man....also told us a famous quote from things fall apart " if a man walks into ur obi and defaecates on ur floor. do u sit there and do nothing? no, u take a stick and break his neck!" haha
watched a korean movie today" the cool guy"...gayness
watched "goal" yesterday, all the bitches wanted to go watch. haiz. then went for some more watching in alex's house.haha then wasted money on shooting stars and the myth soundtrack
shite i wanted to watch the myth
great, i spent 55.10 on a vcd series "my date with a vampire 3"haha. i love that series. bleah splurging
results. gimme a six for both maths and chem and bio and LA. ihs and physics can go to hell
losing my faith.losing my faith
to all those motherbitches who give gynaecologists a problem with consultation fees. screw off. esp those who are apprehensive about the period of prgnancy. lke number of months. guilty consience of screwing around say so la. dun give the gynae problem. and PAY UR CONSULTATION FEES. otherwise go get a chinese sin seh or midwife. u bloody mother bitchesthat dont pay are causing money not to enter my pocket therefore, u should go to hell.
eat shite
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