feeling really weak

yeah.like i'm super weak now.i feel listless.no gdness coming up.having the jitters.scared my uniform not good enuf.my boots not shiny enuf.collar not standing straight enuf.iron lines on pants maybe wrong or not obvious enuf.collar pin is a tad off probably by a micrometre.i am freaking scared.its this looming doom feeling.i gues its just taht i not too used to some 5d4n camp in PA.my times in PA most of it is being screamed at.got a stigma or something.cos i always would recover within a week.but it can't go everyday.and i'm staying there some more.the thought of hecking it and paying 200 bucks goes high in my mind.haiz
one lesso learnt from geraldyne how-if u wanna see the rainbow, u have to first endure the rain.mymy.it sure is one heavy rain.i am freaking traumatised.i dunno man.and the worst part is....I FREAKING LOST MY CAMPCRAFT NOTES! so today went to library to borrow THREE freaking books on knots.ah crap.i'm gonna be creamed,pulverized,squeezed dry,killed,used for stuffing,etc etc.omg, who would think its fun?to stay there for four nights then another four nights.no joke man.then another 3 nights.altogether its 11 nights.5d+5d+4d makes 14 days
somebody kill maim me or something...i don't feel prepared at all.not at all man...diediedie
not to mention the passing out parade which sounds like the only good day.i dont feel good about it at all.like i gona die there or something.bleahx.choi
God gimme strength.i have to triumph through this....haiz.this is probably gonna be the last posting b4 the camp.cos tomoro i would have no heart and would be busy preparing for the camp.hear for my report on the first week erm...on 3 dec? or all the way on 12 dec...by then i would have died probably a hundred times...
LIKE SOMEONE GIVE A WORD OF ENCOURAGEMENT?!
gonna bring a diary to record the horrors that happened.

3 days more

went beach road.bought my stuff.bleahx.three more days.oh i can'tbebothered to flame that GEP anmore.abit boring.GEP sucks means GEP sucks.wth is the lady hanging on to herself being right for?oh and the cut articles are laid out in front of me now...
sis came back today.
i feeling the dread before entering ns thingy.
i need to settle one final stuff.i need a piece of info that i have no way of getting.
i HAVE TO SETTLE this by hook or by crook.
then settle the mmt i book out
then it'll be on time.
but it aint easy to get
cos the two people whom i know possess won't give cos of circumstances that i understand
this sucks man.have to go old fashioned way.
have to my uniform.tried polishing my boot.still wun shine.bloody hell.i gonna get thinner or something...got my finger facing up too.like grotesquely upwards.wuz freaked out.had to like bend it downwards.
crap man.

Troublesome!!!

ya la..so bloody pissing off.anyway, i got no time to play nice guy to sucker the lil geps anymore la.having a war on her blog seems like fun and a time where i don't think about the camp.pressing matters at hand...
went to PA to collect uniform today.first thing got school recognised even from a dist of like 3 metres.can see my school crest from so far.and say "hwa ACS"nabei.there were TWO raffles people there.why pick on the acs?
then fall in...from the second instruction i knew we're gonna get creamed in the course.creamed ok?like !@#$%&^*&$^*&& non stop at us.plus helluva saliva.pray for strength.like i gonna come out either a creamed zombie or a re-invigorated man.oh well i felt the blood rush today.the feeling of anger.its been a long time since i've drilled.crap man.rusty.man i need revision.ok i've not deteriorated up to where idunno sedia with right or left foot.but more of a can't respond to command well.and it felt weird marching.yup.and people hurrying you.asap."people this is CI...blah blah blah" not taht its bad.i just didn't see the hurry...maybe there should be a change in attitude.that place is some unfriendly place.lui called em to change collection date and got attitude.u do something wrong. u get screamed.no one holds ur hand anymore.u gotta grow up fast.and thats what we gonna do there for about one week.get creamed.and thats not even NS.i guess.we just have to take each day as it is.with the passing out parade in mind.boy thats gonna be hard.considering having to book out and book in again.about 24 hours outside.before going back.then creaming more.then go back.prepare for creaming in pulau ubin.FOUR DAYS.can we like demand a church day for christians?ok wuz jus kidding about that.haiz.past sunday.come back in pieces.then its the ok part liao.two days non res.then pass out.
i didnt know we had to wear number one to pass out.must be formality.i realised i've grown bigger since las yr when i wore number one.its like las yr i could fit in some size with my tree trunk neck abit tight.this yr,couldnt even breathe man.and no rank.i guess they'll giv it to u on the day itself.my name badge has too many words on it.like should cut it down to juz "sean lee" bleahx.not lee ji yang sean.mouthful.i am freakin scared man.i hope it goes by area for the residential part.its a whole new world.i cannot break down.have to overcome this mountain.however strong the winter and blizzard and omega sized avalanche, we have to overcome it.easier said than done.its been a long time.time to put on the battle gear again.might be a little be too tight though.we were once old warriors.we're reborn( duh, i mean from such metal heavy troublesome uniform to nothing but a nametag..its good man)reborn with greater powers to serve a greater cause(i'm just comforting myself)oh...but the process is rather painful man.
darned.the peak cap aint looking as good as it should.makes me look postman-ish.zipper boot makes changing time less.means more time for drill.more creaming.heh but it looks slick man.gotta polish it though.uniform is same.the new belt is like sticky.gotta polish it too.
the worst of it all:i gotta buy so many plain white t-shirts.i have only like 2.and they have giordano on the chest.so its a no go.like i gotta search all over sg to find a plain white t shirt thats cheap.next up.the shorts.dark blue.pucket in front on the right.oh boy if i hadnt seen one of those before i wouldnt have known they actually existed.and we gotta buy lotsa them too...so the real question here is...if 150 plus people are converging on the one place thats recommended to get it.some people are sure not to get it if everyone's gonna buy alot.so what are u gonna say when some say its outa stock?i dont think every npcc cadet has such stuff.after all, its some uniform to me.u cant say "is taht my problem?"4 days to settle everything.uniform altering.adjust.perfection of uniform.polishing of boots.forms.admin.all that and get creamed after that.its life
what are u gonna do about these things after the course.we aint some regular PA stayers man...that place is really unfriendly.probably becos it doesnt want that many people near it?heh.
oh well endurance it is...gotta get sunblock cos i so dun wanna get burnt and creamed.i tell u to have ur skin feeling like the human torch is not fun.esp when u're so many metres in the air.i got burnt last yr up there on the challenge tower.and wuz in a daze. gotta bring facial wash too cos with all that rough stuff.sure will break out one.gotta bring powder cos showers gonna be crowded.no hp cos chargers not allowed.ay might sound like a sissy to u ah.but its gonna be a long exposure to the sun.if i got burnt on the first day, then i would have got skin cancer by the end of the course.plus severe abrasions at the areas of dirt.plus a pizza face.
oh i forgot to add on...revise dril and campcraft in four days.got some knots i never even heard of.like question marks were on my head.omg.i have a feeling i gonna get creamed even more than the rest....
haiz
hey i thought i just saw harumi on tv!ch8 news
oooh sis coming back tomoro

Five finger mountain

heh...new name. flaming judge has turned into war lord.yesterday wuz a warm up for me.of course i was testing waters for those lil kids.but today, is the real battle.HA my five finger mountain wraps around them.they can't escape my trap man.haiz.after all, a gep is like a dog.give it bacon and it'll listen to you.they don't bite you anymore.ahhh.neither do they bark.they don't even know that the bacon is actrually some rancid shite.boy to do that kinda thing not easy sia.had to rack my brains or something to talk like alistar chew powerful speech style.suddenly, the tagobard goes deathly silent after i say something.haiz...

that aside.CIBTC looms.i have the feeling of impending doom.its like entering the army or something.i feel like freaking scared man.i fear i would not have the strength.i fear that i would break.i fear that i would be gone.my mind.gone before christmas.i have to survive this.i need a means.i need a pillar of strength.last year i could survive cos i had a vision of the end.which was about 2 days later.this time one bad one inPA and another in ubin.how to surive.i need strength.nuts.i need a cross or something.God GIVE ME STRENGTH! to withstand bitching.oh and i definitely need that new daily bread.the thing is...I DON'T HAVE IT!! school aint got it yet! argh...and kenneth lui goes "seeya next tuesday or something" it depresses me man.aint no sunshine.i dunno if others are so excited about this camp but i really feel apprehensive man.argh...they're gonna kill us.i can't afford to break.i need strength.Chirst, i need a pillar of strength.where am i gonna find it?anyone knowns message me.or have a crucifix for me...ya.by this weekend.i feel i may not be able tomake.can some one give me that daily bread?

HA!

i admire that reply today on TODAY.heh.yup.gave lil ol michelle a piece of mind.hmmm, sounds like a hot issue huh? later tomorrow got another reply.hwa seh
today went ok.go school buy books.only to find they aint available.went to sa to exchange my brother's books.the aunty still rmb me.then went to eat with my mum at eunos mrt. heh.saw zhu hou ren.some old actor...yesterday also see quan yi feng and her husband at marine parade.argh.anxiety rises as the day draws nearer.so long away from home sia.the anxiety is a combi of fear of being bitched,a really small homesickness. and the sian-ness of having to spend twenty days like that.esp when my sis would have come back then.also the frustration of be unable to send someone's gift out so that the person may receive it on time.and THIS weekend is my last one.argh.
my poem....boy its dark after reading it man.combined eggy's thingy plus lotsa bitterness plus SHE's hou niao theme and got this.heh.if it suck then nvm la.

"Migratory Birds"
winter's come and autumn's gone
my love has gone with the migratory birds
flying on great wings to the unknown
taken on a ride with a friend i know
i dunno what'll happen there
but they sure gonna get close
when they come back in the peak of winter
i'll be alone and they'll be as one
enjoying the warmth of their love
while i suffer in the cold

i can remember the day we met
the sky was grey
and the heavens were weeping
with the wind sighing aross my ear
as if mourning the beginning of a tragedy
a story of a love not meant to be

were u really busy?
or did i sound too desperate?
did make u feel uneasy?
or were u really tired?
we've come so far
we've run out of conversation topics
a little "hello, how are you?"
with some "good luck"
ending with a "good bye"
laden with lots of "ok"s

it feels like a lifetime that i've known you
but in reality that is not so
i can't say i'll be ok
neither can i forgive this friend so easily
i guess the only way is to forget
easy as it sounds
but when it comes down to actually doing it
you would appear in my dreams
sometimes a guess star
others, a main star
accompanied by a love song from the radio
a song which i remembered u by
now its just a painful reminder
of how my love has gone like the migratory birds

the end
really really dark man.i wuz like "gee thats so not me"haha...eggy ah eggy.feel the PAIN.pangsei peng you...haha

geps

phooi!
today two jokers replied to that GEP article.check TODAY Nov 21 pg 20.HA....
the first one wuz a parent of TWO GEP daughters.describes their anguish and all.oh well, nobody said that program is a bed of roses.ahhh, why let em into that freak program?haha..
the SECOND ONE is the one i would really love to flame.oooh.like hell too.words from a GEP-er itself.michelle qiu.listen as i analyse the reply paragraph by paragraph

"Your report gives the impression that GEP students are mentally unprepared for the curriculum and that students do not like being in the GEP. Having just graduated from the GEP after 3 years, I beg to differ"

go on.beg to differ.its ur lil freak ol GEP's point of view.pffft.they should be prepared man and there's nowhere else they can go if there aint GEPs

"I may not be the best student in my GEP centre, but I did not find the curriculum pressure-packed, and looking at the fun the students have, I doubt the others did either. Sure, we get our share of homework and projects, but nobody said life was a bed of roses"

they sure look like they had fun man.doing things like powerplay.cracking childish shite jokes.sure sounds like fun.in their own lil world freaks.this person has my respect for having survived the program.so far...

"The study noted that in Primary 6, we were 'stereotyped and subjected to heckling and verbal abuse'. Yes we do get such things from mainstream Pri 6 students, but it's nothing we can't handle. You see, GEPers (as we call ourselves) are more mature that most mainstreamers, the result of being in the GEP. The mainstreamers think we are snobbish - when they stereotype us, they are being immature. When we prove ourselves able to handle the 'bad press', we grow more mature. Being in a specialised class lets us interact with people like us. I had to keep changing schools every year before i entered the GEP and i didn't have many good friends because i found my classmates to be immature"

no shite man.immature.she calls lil ol mainstream people immature.people who just call a bit of name immature.wait one day a man with a vision of a GEP-free world or at least country pops in.we'll see who's immature.what's with that arrogant tone? "more mature" huh? like playing gay ass childish games "mature". and i sure don't think they're snobbish.FREAK-ish is more likely the word to describe what i think of em..oohh and they say we're immature for stereotyping em.ok, i don't stereotype.i just see if he behaves normal then i decide.oops...how about replacing "bad press" with "the norm"?u grow more mature by handling the normal people.sounds like some x-men.just that the brotherhood of mutants were the ones who "handled" humans.and they were under magneto.so er...no need to explain further.oh change "specialised class" with "freak quarantine" and u get the idea.where freaks interact with more freaks.sound like a happy haven for those freaks. and changing schools every year because of the classmates is plain loser behaviour.and u think they're immature.when they're perfectly normal? like when they talk about harry potter, u wanna try talking descartes? ooh. like alota em would know what's "i think there i am" or plato's allegory of the cave.or maybe u wanna talk about newton's three laws of motion.or maybe balloon angioplasty.or the different types of strokes.haemorrhagic and ischemic.different causes of atherosclerosis. hey man, i feel pretty mature man.talking about such stuff in primary school huh? dumb butts probably wonder what new science stuff is coming up.or DREAM of getting Nobel award.or rush to the bookshop for the latest encyclopedia while others are busy watching tv.movies.playing games.HAVING A LIFE...ahhh, i can already identify two jokers in 4.11 that fit this description of a GEP.oh but one chases skirts.the other...i dunno what he does.spend whole day in school doing work owed from last year and thinking of excuses to extend the deadline.ouch.that's too close....

"But when i entered the GEP, I was impressed with my classmates and now we can't bear to part ways.Unless someone is transferred out of the GEP, or change schools, we have the same 52 or so classmates throughout the three years. This forces us to become good friends.We were all mainstream students before the GEP.Most of us found it boring in mainstream classes, as we knew most of the curiculum and it was easy to get good grades. But when faced with someone at our own level, we step up our efforts to compete."

u gotta respect em for their intelligence.and what's with that arrogant tone? its like pompous and all.if its easy, good what, why do these jokers find hard things for emselves.oooh, i've got something hard for em.how about my fist?bleahx.tsktsktsk. that aint the way to solve things.i think that's why they named the stream GIFTED ah....cos these freaks were given an intelligence unfortunately.but they dunno how to put it to good use.haiz

"The GEP broadens our experience. Nobody minds if a girl mingles with a bunch of boys, or if she is interested in DotA, Final Fantasy VII or PS 2 games. We accept each other."

oh right.accept each other.i have some genuine curiosity.is she referring to her stream or our stream?cos that pretty much what most of us do.having a life.ha.of course they gotta accept each other.GEP is world in itself where lil ol GEPers dwell and live their happy lives in ignorance and arrogance.thinking the whole universe is dumber than them.that EQ don't matter.that they are the elite.of course they accept each other man.same blood.how can they not accept each other?

"Would we be able to do that in the mainstream, where everyone follows the trends or the person who is the 'coolest', and everybody starts gossiping if anyone talks to someone of the opposite sex?"

WHAT?!hey man, these are teenage years man.its what normal humans do when they're teenage.not talk about john locke or kiekergard(can't spell) or some bloody physics formula that baffles even newton.hey trends are what u wear.i don't follow too closely.but i don't see anything wrong with it.other than its un-Christlike.its akin to false idolatory.the cool part? i guess they're just jealous that they can't be smart and cool at the same time.haiz.what to do?they spend their recreational time on books.can probably be their family. and the gossip only happens in mixed schools.i have not much info about that.but in ACSI we don't talk that much about who talked to who.its just bimbotic.like immature to go all whisper whisper about who talked to who from dunno what school.like if they're a couple maybe la.but if so and so talked to who, there would be lots of rumours.boy,can get outa hand...

"Nobody except us, the GEPers, could know how much fun we have being in the GEP"

ho...sure.u gotta go through it to know what it is.

*this is referring to freaks in GEP.as in thes freaks are a sub set of GEP.people who cannot get accepted.people who switch schools every year. because they can't handle the crowd.the ones outside these freaks in GEP, u really have my respect for having survived this program.great men u'll become i think.yup.lil ol freaks that do powerplay, go eat shite.

ahhh.one day left to my poem posting.heh.

gotta buy books liao.crap man.i have so lil time left.crossing fingers about the grouping.

珊瑚海 - 周傑倫

this is the song playing.its really nice.that bloody aunty at poh kim kept
repeating this song.now its stuck in my head.hope this file can be played.heh
for those who cant seem to read the words.dont worry.juz listen to the song.
a duet by jay chou and lara(nan quan mama female singer)
海平面遠方開始陰霾　悲傷要怎麼平靜純白
我的臉上　始終挾帶　一抹淺淺的無奈
你用唇語說你要離開(心不在)　那難過無聲慢了下來
洶湧潮水　你聽明白　不是浪而是淚海

@轉身離開 (你有話說不出來) 分手說不出來
海鳥跟魚相愛　只是一場意外
我們的愛(給的愛)　差異一直存在 (回不來)
風中塵埃 (等待)　竟累積成傷害

轉身離開 (分手說不出來) 分手說不出來
蔚藍的珊瑚海　錯過瞬間蒼白
當初彼此(你我都)　不夠成熟坦白 (不應該)
熱情不再 (你的)　笑容勉強不來　愛深埋珊瑚海

毀壞的沙雕如何重來　有裂痕的愛怎麼重蓋
只是一切　結束太快　你說你無法釋懷
貝殼裏隱藏什麼期待 (等花兒開)　我們也已經無心再猜
面向海風　鹹鹹的愛　嚐不出還有未來

@轉身離開 (你有話說不出來) 分手說不出來
海鳥跟魚相愛　只是一場意外
我們的愛(給的愛)　差異一直存在 (回不來)
風中塵埃 (等待)　竟累積成傷害

轉身離開 (分手說不出來) 分手說不出來
蔚藍的珊瑚海　錯過瞬間蒼白
當初彼此(你我都)　不夠成熟坦白 (不應該)
熱情不再 (你的)　笑容勉強不來　愛深埋珊瑚海

i dunno how to name my posting.its like some stuff to talk about.
like HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my sis and shu hua( don't really know who she is, but she share same birthday is my sis.so er...got mention here.heh.
my sis- 21 yrs old(u aint getting any younger mon.under the organs thingy.)
shu hua- er...16?
ya like pfft.stupid com.non-stop cursing of the inability to sign into MSN.so slow some more.nabei
hmmm...yesterday watched this really touching show called "i am sam" on ch 5.it wuz like really touching man.about this mentally handicapped father who wuz fighting for custody of his daughter. sean penn is sam. michelle pfeifer is rita( the lawyer) dakota fanning is lucy( daughter) it wuz really touching la.its like sam may be mentally handicapped but he thinks rather clearly.he could actually think like an adult.just that he has the intelligence of a kid.he really loves his daughter.there are times he makes u laugh with his silliness. there wuz one scene where lucy wuz reading to sam a book.then she couldnt read a word.decided to give up.then he made her continue
l:".....(reading from the book)" i think thats it for now.i'm going to sleep"
s(in a kiddy manner):"why u stop?"
l:"i cant read that word"
s:"continue reading.i want u to continue reading"
l:"no i wun"
s:"listen to me.u will read becos i am ur father and i am telling u to continue reading"
l:"but i cant.i'm so stupid"
s:"no u're not.u're not stupid.i am ur father.i know u can read that word.so read it"
so she read the word.i dunno man.its like his love for his daughter wuz really touching.there wuz this ball in my throat.hard to swallow.like he took multiple jobs to be eligible for custody.u know financial support? he worked at star bucks eight dollars per hour.dog care.pizza hut.u can actualli feel the love from him la.and he could actualli plan for a surprise birthday party for his daughter.altho it wuz the day the social welfare took her away.i was really touched by his childish method of trying to make his daughter happy.and all the things he did to gain custody.rita the lawyer represented him for free in court man.
sometimes in life.we have to be patient.then we can really slow down and treat such people properly.we cant expect everyone to be like normal.it reminds about that green belter i scolded like many months ago for not getting anything. i thought he wuz lazy.i didnt know he wuz slow in his thinking.oh man.i feel like really bad now.cos that time i wuz shouting at him la.like no one shouts at that cc.oh wellz, that still doesnt excuse lil ol GEP boys.
went bukit timah plaza with my family today.its like some old shopping centre with new shops in it.pretty funky.and there wuz popular.met ryan huang there.oooh and the new or not so new book of pendragon:rivers of zadaa.eight dollars nine cents.pretty good price eh? too bad i didnt have that kinda money on me.
man i feel like getting the whole series or something.its like intriguing or something man.
ok who wants to watch harry potty?i didnt read the book. so i didnt know what's happening inside the movie.bloody eggy watched 2 times liao.too free.or to busy watching the hotness of hermione granger as he claimed in his blog.pfft.two times just to look at a gal.some more say those who want to watch go tag there.then go claim he watched two times.some peng you man.
EAT MIDDLE FINGER MAN!!!

lil ol geps

A gifted student? Sorry to hear that
phooi!.the day they entered that cursed stream.their minds and genetic material have been altered forever.they would have de-evolved to some sub human species with ultra high intelligence. some of em survived the process.like mun,josh hoe,dicky and lil more.
the rest have to pay for it with their poor eq.prettty darned low indeed.ahhh, its too late to turn back man.poor children have to pay for a parent's dumb decision.don't u know it destroys ur child's childhood.i prefer my child to be not so smart with a happy childhood.instead of a smart gaping ape.with a weird sense of humour.gifted indeed.phooi.how about quarantined spastic children's program?thats for the majority of those in lil ol GEP.but...there are some who are really gifted.i gotta hand it to them. but others?juz think weird.they should have gifted AND quarantined spastic children's program.ooooh. and no second selection after PSLE.thats like having a second sweep of the population to see if any more spastic life forms left that missed out.haiz, but in the end.there are still some at large.probably the stupid ones.lil ol GEP detection machine couldnt detect the low iq.or more likely unawakened intelligence.low iq low eq.thats some sad lifeform.i admit those who actually made it into the program are pretty darned smart.ah haiz,but they aint exactly normal.except for a few evolutionary ones who are genuinely smart and normal behavioural people.the true blood i have to say.see it wuz set up likesome x men program.that they're gifted with high IQ and therefore could be trained.that wuz initially.but now?its like some place where weirdos are dropped in.once in a while u have true blood coming in.oh well they're still smart.
any x men wanna argue please don't.unless u are a true blood GEP.as in u're smart AND normal.otherwise freaks shouldnt even be looking at this man.anti-freaks blog
still its a good program. i salute it.heh.
boy that wuz harsh...i'm just talkin about the GEP of our year.
haiz,they gonna integrate em into us.oh cruel world!
its not the low down that we look down upon.its the high up spastic.

escorted @ 3:14 PM;

yeah.i juz received bad news.hey something to colour up my life...CIBTC is 29 NOV to 18 DEC.some how they decided to add another 2 days to the course.which means.i have fewer days to enjoy my hols.the price we have to pay.it also means i have less days to spend having fun with my sis.cos she's coming back on 25 NOV.
collecting uniform on 24 nov.whats with the weird grouping man?!its like totally randomness or something.oh two raffles boys...and muthu and lui get to go together while i'm separated from bronson.pfft.i surely darn hope that they still group for the camp according to areas.if not i gonna die.cos number one, i have reduced my socialising aura to almost zilch.no mood for making new friends that fast that soon.i sound like some introvert la.haha.haiz but really.i hope its juz uniform collection.pray for a miracle.if rain can fall on a sunny day.anything is possible.its just uniform collection groups.not camp groups.pray pray pray.
what's worse is two raffles boys.basket.two raffles boys and the acsi boys are separated.better train them knuckles.ok wuz juz kidding about that.man that place is so strict that they don't allow sandals or sleeveless.not that i gonna wear those.but i not sure about three quarters.can wear?oh better not.juz wear school related stuff.heh.29nov-18dec.what exactly are they planning to do in 20 days? 4d3n camp.another 6d5n residential in PA. and courses.how many rest days?christians should be granted day off on sundays.heh.
vas deferens not feeling better.on medication
bloody com still not giving me what i want.bloody internet surfs friendster at a" breakneck "speed akin to a hundred things piled onto it.u know in a rugby match.some people are slowed.yeah. basket.my internet and com moves at such frustrating speeds.
bloody GIRO form and bank account.so old liao still havent got own bank account.so must go create another one asap.

a random day of offness, weirdness and dull pain

i'm like really pissed off with my com.its like MSN refuses to sign me in.i'm gonna kill it or something.
yeah i watched finish the series.like i gonna sell it or something.anyone interested? my date with a vampire 3.price negotiable.
crap.i feel so off today ok...like my right vas deferens kept yelling dull pain into my brain.i'm like feeling so weird la.hope nothing serious down there man.argh...back aches.funny looking anaphylactic reactions on my wrists.ankles.butt.something feels really off about me today
killed about 3 mozzies today.
ouch my vas deferens really hurting like some dul pain man.argh.
internet's so slow.
some people finish o levels today sia.*claps*
i have an idea for some kinda poem.hee.inspiration from eggy and his poor romance.gonna release it on er...22?yeah
okok.my vas deferens really screaming...crap man

sunburnt and really pissed

i'm like super sunburnt.
and super pissed.
class outing-yesterday
time:0830
place:harbourfront then sentosa
details:boy it wuz fun.its where i kana sun burnt sia.ALOTA people were late.that's time keeping for u.i wuz like trying to take a faster way to harbour front and got really pissed off.i toook a 966 from my house to st andrews thinking its at the potong pasir side.not the ack gate there.but darned it wuz.i had to walk a great dist in order to go to the mrt.then i saw the bloody route(i dun take no bloody NE line so often dammit) i coulda got to harbour front faster by EW ten NS then NE.then reach there.only kai lun,charles, kangdi were on time.the rest were like freaking late.tamade.then we went after a loong wait to sentosa.pulawan beach it wuz we went to.alota people went frolicking in the lagoon.heh.i juz stayed dry then. then we ate lunch and moved to siloso beach.and...continued forlicking in the water.but heh.it sure wuz fun.then we saw some hwa chong boys.aye, the house of mao tze dong wuz at sentosa spreading his word and idealism.ohho,they were armed with flags and walking in big groups.some of em were so passionate about their missionary work that they were walking around topless.funny that there were no riot police around.oh well, after alota funny mini-adventures,went back to sg and went dim's house.there, we continued forlicking in the...swimming pool.haha.it wuz a funny misadventure.first the jaga wuz like telling us no ball.cos we were playing with this ball.so i hid the ball.then dim and charles came in with this super light ball. then dim threw the ball up and outa the pool at another pool at kailun.then it hit the beam above and it came down.haha.kai lun nearly died.ahha.we fit it back and continued.after that bloody jaga come and tell me my pants cannot make it.alamak.oh wel it wuz gonna rain anyway.so we went into this hot springs pool place.heh.boy it wuz good.argh.after all that.bathed and had to go back for trng.didnt wana stay out too late.had trng.bloody bus wuz so late.cos the previous totally daoed me and continued on its journey.this is a complain to the bus company.i never heard of such bad service.i wuz waving for it.and wuz right in front.and he juz snubbed me.oh well after all that shite.i had to ask my brother bring my gi to the cc. cos i wuz gonna be late.ah nuts.got into a whole lota shite.scolding and all.bleah.and the bloody trng wuz full of shite.juz teaching of pattern.ah crap.with the material irritating my sun burnt skin and all.its simply ouchies.
buying of books with my brother today.ah nuts man.in enemy territory.couldnt like wear some ac shirt out.cos i always wear some ac shirt out on casual outings.ahhh...then bought the bloody shite load.i have to say my brother's pretty anitsocial.like alota people who know him say hi.then he wuz like a bloody dog that growled.some freak man.and he bought lam peng kwan AGAIN.ah.carying those bloody books killed my sun burnt skin some more la.i have to say.the place has changed since i last saw it.like a swimming pool and a field? poppped outa nowhere.it replaced the construction site or something.heh.but i got a saint badge man.mmm.
walao.the new daily bread is out.dec-feb.someone go school and help me get a copy leh.i'm like so not going school in a long time i guess.there aint any OGL or interim meeting.looks like i gotta make the trip some time.as well as to change my brother ci yu shou ce.got a bloody sec 2 ones.darned my carelessness...
oh harry potter.thats some movie.who wants to watch?i'm like freaking bored here.watching finish my vcd series.almost there.like about the last two episodes.fate is the ultimate enemey.haha.betrays humans.but yet seem to friends with em.oh and i havent read any of the hp books yet.i dun wanna like start commenting on plot and all and how different it is from the book.bleah.people think too much man.its an ADAPTATION.not the book.
14 days left to CIBTC
8 days left to sis's return
1 day left to those taking pure science o levels
4 or 5 days left for those taking combined
oh boy.i feel really scared for CIBTC.like i'm gonna be away from home for a very long time.haiz
there, we'll be looking at kenneth lui and lee wanyi's romance in progress.it raises the goosebumps on ur skin man.i always saw her as manly kind of person.not someone who would raise the sweet factor of words by a hundred times.makes ur skin crawl.heh sorry lui.
argh a week after CIBTC ends is christmas.orhhh...no party this year.i'm really gonna get dull or something.
in need of new spice in life.


















omg.pardon me if i sound despo or shallow.but i think she's really pretty....haha

fork...dumb butts

i'm pissed. i can't sign into msn.and i gotta dl all these bloody programs juz to get something started.i'm really pissed.this stupid com should have some power firewall.what the hell entered the system man? really pised.
hmmm...yesterday my dad told us how he met my mum.haha.its like yuan fen or something.
they were at some party.him and some other docs.supposed to bring dates.cos female docs then were described as "squarish" so this doc who wuz like sort of a "pimp" brought gals to the party.and my mum happened to be one of those gals.its like u know "wanna go to a doctors' party?" haha.then, he didnt have any lastying impression of her.but they met each other 2 days later at peoples park.and exchanged numbers.and dated for 2 yrs.b4 getting married.haha.shush.dun comment on this.
heh gotta go

nutzo

shite, my com got hit by a lil virus taht's screwing things up .crap.
had a medical checkup today.hey i'm normal.i'm pissed with this com.crap...
shute up eggy.i aint aunt agony.u piece of shite.i try help u and u go and say crap to me ah?
don't let a relas get to u man.its not as good as u think it'll feel.oooh.iforgot to mention what happens if u actually get heart broken.u'll feel like shite.but no one will care.heh.best not to get into all taht shite man.esp not in IB years.or u'll die then our records for first yr will die.and dr ong will be slighted by al lthe principals.including all those prized jcs raffles,hwa chong,victoria,temasek, SA...AC...even the not so power oners like catholic,and morethey gonna look down man.we wouldnt want anything to happen in the first yr.have to make dr ong happy u know?haha.i'm like talking crap or something.but really, don't try any funny things that bunny would try.hmm.basically survive la...
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an answer to lil ol eggy's heart problems

boy am i bored..."she's cold and she's cruel, but she knows what she's doing...

are u really busy... or do i sound like a despo... maybe i do..." quoted from lil ol eggy's blog.if u ask her out so many times i wouldnt be surprised mon.love is this lil nuclear power that u dun mess around with.man i have to confess.if she don't like u,there's no point in clinging on to her so much y'noe?unless u're a sadist and need a direct to the face answer to bring u back to reality.ur lil fairy...maybe u dun belong together or something sorry if i sound like a wet blanket.gals dun exactly take to going out with a guy alone they dun know so well.i mean how would u feel if some gal u dunno so well asked u out?a lil creeped out wun u?unless u're bunny or something.i can't i've had alota experience with dating gals or even asking em out.heh.but its juz not right la.heard of the term si chan lan da? yeag.no use hanging on if she dun like u right? its so much easier to say than do.i know.i've been there boy.bleah.besides this fairy is like two yrs younger than u.yich...i cant help much as flaming judge cos her postings are rather weird.juz nothig to comment about.what to do?i cant really help ya in terms of this.if only u had money...
ooh, i know.do that drops of jupiter thingy.something along the line of that song.check out her blog if u dunno what i'm talking about.can't exactly tell u what to do la.cos that'll be me.not u.so exercsise ur creativity.
hmmm the thing about love is taht it makes u dumb things. dun go too far.wouldnt wanna look stupid right? and if fate decrees that the two of u aint meant to be,don't feel angry.cos it'll make u hate her.its like nuclear power.can get outa hand.if she has guys around her.don't go all jealousy over her.heh...wun do u good if u think daggers at them.everyone deserves their space and circle of friends.
[i love you] means really care for you...... say it out but not to expect the return or anything....
[i love you] is said because there is a pure thought... that was hoping this magical 3 words...
can bring you happiness and futurity...... and because of having such pure thoughts..... ppl which have true heart to a person. gives out all his/her courage to tell.
as quoted from that ice princess.
and oh...if u have a church friend or something like that's going real close to her.i would kill him if i were u.if i dont have to bear any consequences.nah juz joking la.u would probably feel sour and betrayed.its normal.if buay tahan.then dont think.avoid all kinds of contact with her or him.in other words run away.heh
"attachment leads to jealousy...train urself to let go of those u fear to lose"says yoda in ep 3...
keep ur mind in extreme equilibrium.feel not anything that is akin to love.unless u understand it, u can never control it.but u can control ur mind and block off the effect before it gets too big.
go the jedi way.
i'm talking in jibberish.so dont worry...if ur peng you really try get too close to her.ah haiz, i dunno what to say.maybe "o cruel world!"
HAHA...good luck eggy...
a lil hint:now's not the time for gals.heh.however u wanna get a gf.think of the trouble man.eh...do not be rocked by such...people who sweep u off ur feet....
don't kill the back stabber.however gay or unworthy.it aint up to u to decide.

ah...met paul cheong at parkway today.dunno what he's going there.

d'oh

hmmmmm....the world discrimintes agst lil left handers.can someone recommend a good brand or model for left handed electric? tho i have no $$.like someone speak up man...
glen juz asked me if there's a third law in newton's laws of forces.d'oh.big trouble man.even i the physics joker also know there s a third law.ahhh.but i'm hopeless at applying all the moments and all.pisses me off.force here equals force there or a = to a whole buncha v and s or some gay square.wth is up with the magnetic stuff man?haiz. olevels can do it man!!! gogo go...i'll never get it.therefore drop.freaking failed final yr for it la.even after mod.heh
oh the pic? its from our prefect's dinner.we're te sec 4 prefects!

fate

i've been thinking about this...i've been getting a really sad feeling recently.i dunno what man...
i belong to the order of the cereal under shawn ang.bleah.u wun understand.
k back to the topic.hmmm.when two people meet, their fates meet each other.if they fall in love their fates are entwined.before they split up somehow by death or something.fate is this lil thing that goes laughing at us.when we try to outdo our fate.it doesnt allow.cos no matter how hard we try, we are unable to escape from the grasp.this idea wuz gotten from the vampire show.shant say much.its just saddening that our lives are controlled by this lil thing called fate.bleahx.we're like lil rocks being pushed along a big flow of water...its kinda pathetic isnt it?life's like taht.suck it up!
haha

phooi

stupid internet.
stupid internet.
i had this nice posting prepared and somehow.the internet decided to try andscrew around with me.
anyway got this picture.eunos tkd w/o me...
sobz.
sobz.
sobz.
if only i hadnt been transferred
cos of my brother. dont think i know em all.
from top left to right:kelvin,eugene,wei kit, wei hong,adrian,jonathan, eric,unknown
second row:unknown, soon ming,jie yang,wei jean, jian cheng, and yvonne...heheh...good pals man

bleahx.some jokers like insulting ACS(I). i mean i look at the students sketch pad. they make fun of all the schools.but when ours go on newspaper, they go and try destroy our school.when SA goes on it,no one says a nut.whats this s'posed to mean?what, u think lil ACS boys are rich? i'm not.if u think they steal ur gals, dun be silly.they aint urs to begin with.if u're jealous say so la.it makes things easier than to go hating a school juz cos they steal "ur" gals(oops) then say ACSI are despo.it sounds like jealousy la.ok i dun go skirt chasing so i wouldnt know what it would be like to go gal stealing(who the hell does that anyway)if we're rivals at sports,let it stay there.no need to go hating a school and insulting it.oh hey, maybe s0me people from other schools were smart enuf to try start a fight.or maybe knock shoulders.i mean wazzup with that man? i aint did nothing to ur wife or kids or families.nor ur friends or family.really really bad man.saying that i cant say our side is perfect.but from my perception.alota people hate us.hmmm even some jokers or jokes at PJC wit my sis that time.they heard i wuz in ACSI.then first thing wuz "bastard" wth man...
now when we introduce gals.they implicate those poor gals( i dun even freaking know em) and mun.idon't think mun even said that la.how can u say mun has no life?he has the results,sports and achievements.what more can u ask for?ah crap.we're ACS ok?we've been here for so long.we ain't gonna die.we've come a long way.we got two sec schools.one jc.one international school.two primary schools.which we SET UP OURSELVES. we didnt do no shite swallowing up of lil ol SMPS and naming S**(junior). its not a vulgarity.juz censored.and they doing the same program as us.why never go after em?sheesh.insulting people juz cos they're rich and all.or they steal ur gals.then u hate em?no logic man
i've probably not made a point.and most people from other schools who hate us would be having the idea of flaming me in their heads right now.oh well,u aint convinced cos i would probably sound like some stuck up ACS"bastard" ?who's so caught up in my world of ACS that i dun see the flaws.well i have to say.don't bother.by doing it,u would have proved urself as a lil jealous freak.besides a lil traffic on my tag board wun kill.but, if u putting senseless stuff there outa spite. i have to say...go take ur fun somewhere else.get a galfriend.or a blow up doll.or maybe some fresh air.blow out the dust collecting in between the ears.
ah. i would probably be expecting some really bad stuff by tomoro.so err...heh

blink blink

blink blink
bab bab
bob bob
i'm bored.
seriously have run outa things to write about.when u stay at home.there is nothing to do...
wuz juz watching that dance show...pretty cool the way julian hee dances.too bad he got such a pathetic partner who only thinks about snake dance and tree.what kinda cocked up idea is that anyway?but if u see him dance yesterday, its freaking cool la.haha.
crap i gonna get that do as infinity cd man.

my name is luca.i live on the second floor

haha.my appeal to CIBTC wus SUCCESSFUL!!!whoo hoo.uhhuh.in here.oleh...ah man.that means i cant make it for OGL trng camp.hope they'll change the date.bleah...haiz.o level people... jia you!

yesterday wuz a total hit man. i drank.as in alcohol. and ate leftovers.very unglam right? cos those ppl wasted whole plates of food.i see also heart break man.our dinner wuznt as good as theirs.so stole a few roti left overs and chocs.mmm.downed with champagne and white wine. the champgne wuz good.man guarding the auction items tired me out man.like how many k of $$ worth of items were there.then made new friends! heh.juniors la. got to know clifford and samuel loke.people were decked in their NINES!.omg.its like all so elegant.some people were drunk to iguess.how can someone buy so much wine?(16 bottles of white)$38 each bottle.omg.saw adrian pang!haha.john,dim,oeij and charles were there too...quite fun la.at the end of it all.i watched tv.sunday night rmb

and then today...caught the wrong bus.took a 16 instead of a 33.then caused me to be late for book carrying.basket.reall man.how can i not see the number.plus it looked like it came from the left side not the right( parkway side)haiz.something mus be wron man.then help a lil bit.and then go home liao.so pity man.like o level guys collecting their school mags today afte the maths paper.die sia.hahaAND I GO THRU ALL THAT BUS TRANSFERS ONLY FOR AN HOUR IN SCHOOL!basket

then today.dunno do what.used com for 6 h straight.afterwards sure kana headache
oh well good luck mateys

call to arms

k i am bored.i have nothing to do except to have this speech for o level people.tomoro is their first siting paper i think.haha.sounds scary isnt it

o level students,the battle for ur future is imminent.it will not be an easy one neither will it be an impossible one.this is only the beginning of what is to come, therefore do not use up ALL of your energy on this battle.this battle is one where u're alone.no one is going to help u in the exam. no one is going to pity u if u missed a paper.ur future is in ur own hands.if u screw it up,don't cry.pray if u must.but pray not for an easy paper nor for others to fail.pray not for a paper only u can do but do pray for the other candidates.pray for clarity of mind.pray for strength to be able to withstand the pressure.pray for the stamina to run this part of the race.ur answers are ur doing.what u have learned.all that u have prepared for the past years.this is the battle u have been preparing for.where u wanna go, its all in ur hands.whether its a poly or a jc of ur choice, it is ur own doing that takes u to where u are.choose ur path.choose ur weapon for war.strategise carefully.one wrong move and ur battle may be lost.but do not lose hope, try ur best for all that is left.do not think of the losses.do not look backwards.look forward.try eggy's motto "moving on"u are on ur own soldier.whether u'll win or not.depends on ur skills and preparation.rest well.dont fall sick.God is with u.good luck and Godspeed...

man, that sounds so soldierly.keep them in prayers, all non olevel personnels.
i hope alota o level people read this.at least it aint like some prepared prayer like mr paul cheong.freaking funny man....

crap

shite man.why izit that life has to be sso difficult? i know i shouldnt be complaining compared to the o level ppl.thier paper starting liao.ah bleahx.b4 i start complaing lemme start with the day's events
left for far east.wuz the earliest at the restaurant despite this super stomachche.ate some really good thing at the restaurant.then decided to go watch movie.rayan decided to pangseh us cos of someone or some reason.then orion and arthur had trng and lessons respectively.jo wong went for prefects day.left, charlie,hans and me.oh well watched doom.its freaking scary.my heart wuz in my mouth the whole while la.it teaches us a lesson in life.judgement.we have to be good peple if not the creature'll come after u to spread its seeds.only the evil men turn into the devilish monster.the good ones become super humans.so i have to do some spiritual cleansing of my mind.its turning real dark. its a confession man.i find it harder to resist temptation.i dunno why man.its like i'm moving further from God.not that i'm already so far.i'm really in need of some spiritual help.its like i 'm stuck in a corner.ran outa doors to run and hide behind.life....spiritual cleansing aint gona be easy man...its like i have another self.and this self has gotten stronger.i have to remove it or something.some one help me or something.
another irritating thing.i am in the wrong here so juz listen to my bitching.
my mum has a substandard of english.its real bad.with the tenses.she's geting old.i dun blame.what's irritating is that she keeps askin whether this is correct or not.its in her job.to write remarks for her students' report cards.i'm pissed cos she always asking me in the middle of things i doing.blogging or watching tv.its really gets irrtating when she go and ask me multiple
"honour thy father and thy mother" no joker come and correct this now.cos the idea is there.
i have been so disrespectful to my mum.something's bad man.irreversible damage.she's probably pissed or something.i'm like full of shite or something.what am i supposed to do?
crap man.this sucks....
life is juz crap man.how am i gonna change myself man?my ten percent of my human genomesays evil all over it....nuts.haiz.

humph

really boring here man.decided to exchange with my brother for a day cos he's on orienteering today.some ncc.not surprised if he ponned it.this morning i sneezed and this load of blood came out la.i wuz like ARGH.oh man.need to drink water man.haha.NOTHING to DO...
tomoro is ms chew kah wai's lunch.heh.helping out with magazines.she's a generous one.imean it wuz juz carrying some school magazines lor.haha.juz an ice cream would do for me.but she's treating us.oh well...looking forward to actualli going town tomoro man.haha.sunday is gala dinner.oleh.then its gonna be a boring week again.my appeal so far has no replies...so bleah.
oh well i have my guitar, "my date with a vampire 3",radio and of ccourse the com....oh wait theres the tv
and my study table to clear.i bet if a cockroach can build a family amongst those books and grow smart or something.haha.
oh twenty days to my sis's return.crap.i almost forgot how she looks like(if not for this picture hanging by the CPU that wuz planted by my dad) or rather that she used to live here or something.must be cos neva talk to her online.haha.tsk.looking forward man.if my appeal goes thru, 1-18 of dec i wun be free.CIBTC.argh.crap.i want to be a ci la.haha.help our unit.build it into something power.not some brand with no quality.heh.
who wants to watch DOOM?
bleahx.heard lil ol kuan meng got the sack.people like him cause out acs flag to be disgraced man.dling some illegal software.then caused kah ming to be sacked too.nabei.bad luck to be in the same class as him lor.haiz.what to do?

zmm zmm zmm

hmmm i'm bored man.yesterday spent it juz...watching "my date with a vampire 3"
not bad storyline juz that it kinda unfolds so fast
training wuz....kinda soso.oh i hate punching exercises.pisses me off.i know how to punch liao.still want try to be funny.nabei.kana used as target holder for some work stressed man.probably 30 plus liao still wan kick.so stressed make me hold.HOW TO HOLD HIS KICK?!he's like the king pin.his leg power would be pretty power.basket and when he kick light he say not counted.i nearly collapsed from the disbelief.then change to this coward of a green belt(lil loser kciked my hand and wuz scared of getting kicked by black belts)wanted to give him a slap.kept drama-ing around and whining like some agbala.then kicking practice.had to do the slow way cos want to see the turning.basket u turn u get knocked out in tournament liao la.and the poor guy who partner me is like so shy or something.ARGH.want talk to him also he so...silent.then there wuz free style sparrring contact:light.for coloured belts.the kingpin wanted to spar with.i wuz freaked out man.i tell u.he's relieveing stress man.i dun wanna die.probably had to resort to smashing his family jewels if i were to spar.but its pathetic there.their attack is like soo.....----------bleah...no fancy tactics.
now to my-pick up gal.aka mr lampa.present updates.he's dyed his haird purple with some cheap dye that wore off almost immediately.he's like some lian that cannot make it.ooh pierced three holes on his lampa ear also.really poser.wan dye hair dunno type of colour dunnno brand.go use some ooloo brand.then pierce few holes.style hair for tkd and come for trng.i would raelly love to slap him with my feet.make that double slap
there's probably some reason i would like to whack him.basket.cant stand him sia.then some MEGA FORCE lampa go and say i'm a faggot juz cos iwuz rotating my wrists( does that make u look gay)
i'm fed up.
oooh, i was playing this super nice song on my player. fa ru xue by jay chou..oooh its raelly good mon.better than ye qu.haha.then when i change to radio.it wuz playing that exact same song.kinda freaky...cos it came from november's chopin
played guitar like mad today.until my poor fingers started going zhou huo ru mo on the frets.wuz playing jiu shi ai ni by david tao...mmm great song...
electric guitar!got cheap good lefthanded ones?
whats with suspended chords?!
argh....

the life with no exams

my life with no exams is sooo....boring...watched some deepavali movies.bleahx.its like nothing to do man.cant wait for weekend la
ooh, i got the haircut man.from my dad.its not bad la.the trick is not to let him get too carried away with the shaver.
argh.i need an electric man.guitar i mean.basket.no $$.nothing to use to get parents to buy for moi.i have no skill at it.i cant seem to really play it properly.and whats with the suspended chords man?i cant seem to know which string to change to....MIN YANG!!!need some help here.one electric so ex la.mus buy amp plus pedal plus main gui.plus coil.plus God knows what else man...
argh...the skin on top of my forehead is freaking ugly la.its like full of scars.shites man...anyone know any scar removal cream or something.a lil wun die but too much makes me look like some diseased guy....haha
november chopin rocks

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