Tuesday, January 31
yin yang clash
crap crap crap.
there are COUPLES who are celebrating their sixth month anni...and i'm here with a...(cant say broken heart) wrenched heart?haha.my entire being is pulled into conflict with itself.thats why i cant go to the party...not in this state.caught in this place between....dots.need to straighten out my thoughts...absolutely torturing.ay but i need to go thru this shite man.
CI couples CI couples CI couples.absolute gay.absolute gay.other people can work.why cant we?i'm full of shite.i dunno what i did.i know that we cannot go back to the way before.bummer...
was listening to tian hui by SHE.funny.i actuli liked the song.in case u dunno which song.its that one befind friday weekly.haha.
ay nothing to say liao la.one more day of holiday.haha.i wanna go meet bronson tomoro for np.i'm so bored.
MY ANGBAO $$ IS SO LITTLE!!!!
and i dun have the pics.dotz.their my sis'.not my prob
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Monday, January 30
two things
one- i was playing coral sea on guitar yesterday.freaking cool la.cos such a song is not guitar-ish lor.but i got the tabs.and a capo.haha...emotions run to u when the words just go like that la
"hai niao gen yu xiang ai, zhi shi yi chang yi wai....cha yi yi zhi chun zai...feng zhong chen ai jing lei ji cheng shang hai...dang chu bi ci bu gou cheng shi tan bai..."wth man...
i just realised something in retrospect.u know in sec 2, i never thought i would be a ci.i mean i WAS super angry with em and hated em like crap.ESP WCIs.cos they killed me in JL.walan...and i ended up appealing to be one.fell for a WCI.life is full of muthabitching ironies.just when i didnt want to have anything to do with npcc,a course and someone special came along to relight the fire.did u know i almost joined venture scouts last yr?until i saw the way they treated tham.can never get used to it man...brrrr.cny ah cny.no money ah no money.angbao ah angbao....
two- my two white clips.they were an absentminded gift from someone.but holds special value to me.ahhh, i use it to season my peak cap now la.but i took it out and then my maid go kope it.freaking pissing off.lucky can get back sia.otherwise ah,i would be in a very foul mood.
cny is always spoiled by my brother with his "trying-to act-cool"ness.irony again.time to celebrate with family and then i am bearing grudges.man heaven bestow on him a lightning to kill him?
ok gonna go play my guitar AGAIN.heh.can't get tired of the song.and "forever love" is absolutely nice to play on the guitar.tho strumming pattern is hard to catch.
i think i changing the song back to coral sea..hope it works..heheh
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Sunday, January 29
CNY DAY 1
ITS DA YR OF DA BITCH.or son of a....
kk better not scold bad word.haha.cny ok?its pretty boring being cooped up here for cny.cos i aint got much relatives.
yesterday we po tian huang to eat reunion dinner at a restaurant with me uncle.and aunties.kinda fast paced dinner.dotz.and i saw the lead singer of ronin yesterday.i dunno who he is but can recognise his style and hair.haha.he was eating with his family.dotz.left hander man...haha
then we went CHINA TOWN.had to go protect my sis from the dirty hands of chi ko pek.didnt really enjoy it.was acting like some body guard.ready to go chop the hands of any idiot who dares touch her.haha.and i accidentally shoved a couple la.just cos i stuck my hand out.the the lady was like "OI".i wanted to like oi what.but then she had these bf of hers who's so beefy and if not for the fact that i wasnt looking for a fight.i woulda said gangster words.the trip was a sad sad disappointment.not exciting at all.
oooh.yesterday, i kinda blew up at carl on msn.heh.paiseh.i was like writing that post on kuan meng yesterday then feeling very high tension.then he come say hi and ask me who i am.he was the one who added me and then he go and ask me.walao.so i lost control and fired all kinds flaming stuff.then he was "what's ur problem?" poor thing.i guess he doesn't know my temper.such a response only got a more hostile response from me.oooh.if not for the fact that it was cny eve.i woulda killed him on MSN.oh sorry now.haha.darned.gotta keep that temper in control.
oh well.happy cny to all!
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Saturday, January 28
cock week
its been really bad shite.i've used the f word like plenty of times in school.firstly,the STUPID timetabling committee pulled a fast one.they just changed recess with some other HL period.like HELLO?i want earlier dismissal times like everybody.why must 5.5 be so special?if u wan this teacher to have his periods with us then dont fit other with us that we get dismissed so late.everytime we get dismissed late.and the times when we get dismissed earlier than the rest,its not much of a diff.thats the first one.walao.after studying english and chinese for so many bloody years.i've finally grown tired of it.i tell u,chinese periods are super sian.i juz wanna sleep la.and she dont let us have our rest.i tell u my chinese b can score at least 6 even with my eyes closed.stupid.english is super sian too.i'm freaking sick of analyzing some poems and all.ARGH.i wanna die or something.maths gets super sian when u have 2h40mins of it.not that he's a bad teacher but too much can kill lor.CAN THE TIMETABLING COMMITTE LIKE FUCKING WAKE UP?!what the hell is up with the CAS periods when some classes get dismissed early?WASTE TIME.
then wednesday.the only day i go home early cos others we dismiss late and i wait for reuben til bout six.ate dinner with my family for once.and my father pestered bout my black belt cert.blah blah blah.walao.then he was asking bout the passport size photo whether i put my name behind.i was halfway eating then i made a grunt of affirmative and he took it as an offensive hostile reation to his question.i was so bloody pissed.i didnt even mean any sort of hostility.then he started that STUPID COLD TREATMENT ON ME AGAIN.i had to go fucking beg for his forgiveness.for a wrong i didnt do.oh yeah explain to him.heck no man.experience says dont argue.made me stay so late and listen to him talk.walao.i'll remember this forever man.now in my little computer game whereby my opponnent is my dad i have so little health points left.one last chance.i really feel like pressing the restart button man.or change my name totally.that day really sucked.
the whole week was full of shit.kuan meng is really this pebble in my shoe i can't get rid of.do u know how much i wish for him to disappear.he hangs around everybody!like a shadow doing nothing.it gets on my nerves that i'm not persecuting him.that i'm not making life hell for him.not only him, bunny also.what kind of loser do tht kind of things?everytime someone talks to a gal he go and try jack him.i thot bunny would be better with gals around not worse.some kinda stupid mentality.not fit to touch my peak cap.so kenneth lui, dont anyhow go let him touch.some people will dirty it with their hands.
and back to that joo chiat instructor.he thinks he's some hot stuff.go and try act fed up with him.if not for my stupid brother, i wouldnt have transferred to that shit hole and train with some kids.like what the hell man.he's always trying to upstage me la.like i'm there to compete with him.now i wanna transfer ok?this kinda bastards.i should be the one showing attitdue to.not him show me.i dont care if he's trained under korean masters.i despise this standard.
been talking around lately.hey got to know new friends.while waiting for reuben ong and his drama meetings.haha.cny concert.nothing nice.the gals dance was well coordinated tho.but the steps were freaking weird.haha.oh and i got know another tao nan nite.caroline's her name?haha.yeah. from tkg.dunno how many more of them are here.i didnt know la.cos i was sitting next to minyang( not in my class.oops) then she asked me my primary school.haha.then went out with zhiyuan and rachel ot play badminton.man the dude needs to socialise more.cos he kept talking to me and neglecting her la.i bet she has a bad impression of him and me.cos we were like super dao.then bronson and gareth joined us.played more.then end.rachel and gareth left and then we went to play pool.then ate dinner.and tlaking cock.
go home first thing kana yelled by my mum.walao.and i got my posting! acsi duh.haha.
life sucks man.nowadays its getting bad.worse.
i wished we had met in a different way
i didnt know bronson would say
go for it
its simply ironical lit
when he doesnt know a thing
its not some romantic fling
i guess i just lack tact
its not a bloody act
why the hell did i meet u for
when u hate me to the core?
ah crap i can't continue.i have totally no heart for such nonsense anymore.crap man.i shoulda gone for j06 course.then i wouldnt be in taht much trouble heh.ay happy new year man...
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Saturday, January 21
shite
the fact that i am stable means i can't move on.u think i like this feeling.that i go like someone who hates me?u think it easy to move on? shut up reuben.its not as if u're some maestro at this.its probably my fault that i go like her.its not something that i can avoid.i mean, the only way is dont go CIBTC at all.i'm so not with that.this feeling sucks.that a person u like hates u.she likes another.she doesnt give a damn about u.the moment she talks about u.she says the same old thing without saying why.she gets angry whenever she talks about u.I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA OF THE WRONG I DID HER....what's that? to like her?do u noe what its like when u hear someone u like saying "i hate u" to u over a friend's phone.i dunno what God is trying to do by playing around with me so many times.i believe that meeting a person and falling for her has a purpose for me.but this? seriously,i'm beginning to not believe in this thing called feeling for someone.too many times.i'm losing faith.u can't blame me.i dunno how to get outa this shite.but don't try comforting.i don't take that man.i want a way to solve this darned problem.
its like sand in ur shoe.keeps getting more irritating as u walk some more.i'm tired.i'm really tired.i wish i didnt have to fall for u.but i did.i'm just a guy who's has feelings for someone.i don't ask for anything more than to see her smile.my presence can't exactly put that smile on her face.neither am i that dumb sparrow that tore its heart to paint the rose red juz to make it love him.cos that juz plain stupid.i'm not a stupid lovesick puppy that'll wait all night for her to come online.i'm not a dumb arse who tries to get back up support incase one don't work.i'm not a trophy kind of guy.i'm not even asking for your love.i'm just asking u to not hate me.cos hating causes all kinds of unpleasant feelings.and i don't want u to frown every time u talk about me then u won't smile at all.i'm just asking u to smile.to be happy.
i don't think u'll even read this.but sure will have some idiots go direct u here.
many wrongs i've done in my life that i regret.but this one is the dumbest.i'm hated for liking someone.i'll take note of that before i let my emotions run amok cos of someone.i don't wanna feel for anyone else already.i'm tired.really tired.don't tell me the sea is full of fish.i'm not even gonna cast any more fishing rods.
don't expect me to pity any weirdos in our level.my heart is dead.i won't feel for em.
i really need to release some stress and frustration.......
"tears in my heart"
i wanna linger here
the feeling's not mere
the heat of the december sun
made it all seem fun
now when i look back and think of u
a certain feeling of sadness ensue
a feeling of old
renews itself with a fold
the taste of honey with spice
that feeling in my heart is just nice
near the time of the Christmas clown
it all started going down
the first dawn was spent
with no friendly intent
words were spoken with fire
but i'm such a poor liar
my harsh words can never lie
about my feelings for u that just won't die
a new start with a monsoon shower
makes my heart seem like a dying flower
the weather lately is not fair
and i'm here wondering how u fare
"a stupid fool," a friend would say
for there's so many reasons to be happy and gay
with cherry blossoms on the wall
i feel i'm starting to fall
i dont want u to frown or hate
cos u think i'm trying to ask u out on a date
my head rings a song
that u've been hearing for so long
snow-like hair and the coral sea
always seem to make me think of thee
but then the black sweater
just makes my pain start to gather
i wish for an outcome better
but it doesnt seem to be a can-be-helped matter
i am really really tired
i have no inkling of wrong that got u so fired
just like the floods in school
tears on my face is just not cool
others would probably think
that i need to see a shrink
the water flows
just like how life goes
i guess i have to carry this bitter taste again
along this wounded lane
couples enjoy their mutal selves with no part
i only have these tears in my heart
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STRESS!
"i've got a heart full of pain,head full of stress, handful of anger held in my chest" i am really fed up or something.sheesh.monday started out with the darned bridging course again.i totally forgot what happened that day.only that i went with reuben and lui to buy shoes at queensway.hee.bought some blue nike one instead of the red.less attention seeking lor.hey and i saw one person from COA.heh.but dunno her name.paiseh.i bet she probably think i am super dao or what la.cos can see she recognise me.dotz.sorry
i feel like kicking myself for not following lui to the mrt.oh well.not fated to meet means not fated to meet.
finally, we get to see who's in our class. newcomers would be nicholas chia, daryl chia, enoch foong, steph saw,jessica lian, leong wei ling, natasha goh.i think thats it.heh.i've got a super smart person sitting next to me.both stressful and cool.cos can ask her for help.oh well
business class.sheesh.i dunno wazzup with it that people dont like it.that only so little people take it la.the whole lor from 5.1-5 that take business form one class.sheesh.pretty cool though.
tuesday was like dunno what.we got bill as our chem teach.dr marc van loo for maths.man of many talents.chinese b class is freaking boring.not only insult intelligence but waste time.everyday dismissal times are like so long.AND I WANT EARLY FRIDAYS!!! oh we got ms rajan for TOK.yeah.but kuan meng's in my group AGAIN.ay crap man.he's getting weirder la.think cos of the gals presence.and i'm told to lay off him.when i have done absolutely nothing offensive.and i tell u his self pitying act is juz a ploy to attract attention.man, i thought got some impt thing that john message me.yuan lai zhi she zhe yang er yi ah...
the timetable sucks.who the hell put lunch and recess together.and alternate periods too.that sucks totally.it wears me out la.JCs late cos they got free periods.we DONT.oh man.i bet they put periods inside for the sake of it la.
npcc training was really a drag.like i looked forward to it the whole week and then i get only 6 ppl attending it.can acsi np just go and die or something?i'll juz get posted to another unit or what...all that bright hopes for it has really died man.its a dead unit.
and my peak cap is quite loose!u take away that wire that makes it look mushroom headish and it gets really loose.haiz.
i thinking of joining guitar ensemble.DEFINITELY NOT CHAMBER...cos i would have to buy my own instrument.and it'll probably cost a bomb.do they sell DIY ones?few thousand bucks for a violin? man my guitar is bigger than it by a few times and i only cost 2 hundred with picks and bag and tuner and winder.not to mention the service charge which is free to convert it to left handed style( i did it myself duh)
and if i go chamber i would probably go into noob section.cos i dunno a nut about it other than pressing the frets.oh they dont have frets.i'll probably go nuts trying to figure stuff out and my family will go nuts from all that noise.at least a guitar doesnt make high pitched sounds.but violin does.
if i actually got so crazy as to join the noob section,i would have to restring the thing.and definitely gonna take violin man.cello would be tooooo ex and too big to restring.and y'all may be entitled to bitch slap me in the face.
i can't actually juz stay in npcc man.theres no hope there.in yr 5 npcc land i am the only member lor.and muthu is really an extra.i asked lui to come cos he got expertise in such areas.i assume wanyi teaches him stuff.but muthu,don't expect my cadets to greet u.i'll ask em spit in ur face.i dont care even if u wearing full u or what.being an extra to supervise training when u know nuts about land stuff is plain stupid.and i hate such losers.so dont...
u can go on and be ur single domineering force for ur trainings and camps and probably create ur own sword of honour to please urself.but dont think u can extra into my unit.cos u dunno a crap and i hate ur style of guiding.look at ur unit and i'll know what u have been teaching em.no thanks man.
i'm tired.i dunno what to feel.everytime i go home, i feel so sian.i dont wanna do work.my parents always lament short of money.my sis acts like shes some big deal.my brother is screwed up.money's not increasing at exponential rate(if only)i can't afford to go do ex stuff like buy a new instrument.my father still clips my wings.i stay in school till bout 7 then go home.ok i had np trainings on those days!but its rally sian la.my sis don't realise the reality and still keeps going out like nobody's business.not to mention spending money.i'm pissed and fed up of the same talk from my dad and nagging from my mum.my ears ring and i dunno how long i gonna take it before i juz leave the house and change my name.
i've had it with being penniless.i've had it spending $$ on things and feel guilty.i've had it feeling so helpless about my dad's financial problems.i've had it with people saying i'm rich juz cos my dad's a doc.we're not.so stop it ok? only people like a certain oncologist can go get rich cos they are smart.knowing how to move left and right at the price of honour.then they do some stuff to make their son look so good and cool in uyos when deep down inside these "princes" are down right rotten.i shall not say more about this.if we're gonna sell the house and move into a HDB so be it.i dont care.sell the car.use public transport.i have a really dim foresight of my future man.i don't see where this is going....
i dunno what to feel man.i am pretty stable.just that i've had it with these $$ problems and people who don't care a shite about it and still keep going out.and when i ask her to get her friend donate to my 120 cause.the guy attitude me and i tell em go and die.and its not face to face.its just overheard on phone.stupid bastard.
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Saturday, January 14
ANOTHER POEM!
heh the bad weather that gave me no pants to wear for friday gave me inspiration for a poem.i wrote one super long one and decided it sounded stupid.so writing a new one.oh, i used some other pants that i took from np room.double washed it and altered it.and wore it.much to my dismay,its super loose so had to keeppulling up and tucking in shirt.okok nuff said
"rain"
darkened skies loom
and the heavens weep
i guess its for my heart's doom
when it cant make a leap
in the safety of shelter
i think of a melter
that can take the cold away
"hey you! are you okay?"
a concerned friend might ask
i nod my head and put on a mask
to hide my hurt and frustrations from the world
only to be expressed in a furl
some people see and ask for her name
i shake my head and refuse her the fame
she's just a few metres across the road
but yet too much of a heart's load
one that i'm willing to bear
if only Fate will play fair
i guess u all don't know
this sunshine gal whose profile i keep so low
she brings light and laughter into my life
though she eyes me witha knife
as i look at the picture and think of the good ol days
i remininsce of how i was amazed
the power of love is strange indeed
to harness it i guess i'm not fit
i have my fists in a curl
when others speak bad of her
they do not see the heart of gold
that hides behind the flames of fold
dont say love has made me blind
cos my eyes see pretty fine
this poem may make me look like a fool
but it says what my heart holds true
i wish i can go back in time and change all that
so she wont have an impression of me so bad
on a rainy day of gloom
i'm shivering in cold in a room
the only thing that can make me happy
is the presence of her here with me
pretty cool huh?ok that math worksheet is really pissing off.i gotta find a solution man...ahaha
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one photo
this is a photo of CIBTC.yeah!squad 5!!!it has memories too...
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good ol week in school
i'm enraged.
firstly,the bridging course really not good for us pre ib guys.ok maybe stoning in class sounds kinda fun.but its not good la.and the maths lecture was really boring.nearly fell asleep.the bio is traumatizing.my class totally rocks with kuan meng.i wanna change class.my class has one super smart person.low morale alert.shoot,did i mention my class has kuan meng.i dunno what i did wrong to bear witness to his fishing methods.its.really.devasting.brain-damaging.especially when u see him talking to chermaine and she's like avoiding him like the plague.i shant say any more cases.and john dont censor me when i introducing kuan meng to stef,i think she has a right to know what monsters lie in our class.that self pitying trick of "i'm such a loser" doesnt work man.it only makes me sneer more at kuan meng.pardon me.but he's filth.
oh there's the party.we had much fun.but ended early cos school on the next day.dim and john are pretty cool with their dance moves on the ddr.
wednesday,we were supposed to return number one u.then bring liao.kana announcement:cannot return till 17 jan.next week.pissed me opff totally.bad mood.went out with lui to blow off some steam.ended up buying an m2m cd and SHE cd.and pls ah,ppl sick means no kissing man.dont care what germs but it spreads and u two kana.sad cases man.and i dont get more depressed when i bought those two cds!
then more boring stuff.maths lecture gave some stupid worksheet that venu rao said we learnt last year. WHAT THE HELL IS sin x + sin 2x?the graph displayed is super stupid.HOW DO U PREDICT?WHAT KINDA STUPID TECHNIQUE IS THAT?! then there's zuo wen.so fast.and really boring topic.why do people like testing on sports day brochures?it sounds really stupid man.and that guy that likes to shout in mandarin.pls la.this is not tao nan school nor a coffee shop nor some tcm shop where u anyhow go shout like some cultured chinese dude.its irritating.and i dont see the point.rigid people all die fast in society anyway.
seriously,i think theres no need to decor ur class room for cny.its only so few days.no need to dress it up like some palace in beijing man.i hardly celebrate chinese new year anymore la.festives rarely celebrated in my house.
went with the scouts to give out invites for their gangshow.sheesh.why is the security in cedar so tight?!we aint even allowed to go see the teacher in charge of the guides there.then its a looooooooooong dist from saints our next dest.some jokers actually had the temerity to give me a pamphlet on youth flying club when i was wearing ac crest.trying to be smart?!and the people there not very hospitable.except for the ventures.hey but they play street hockey.thats pretty cool.it was scary.i simply love their npcc unit.put up posters all over the place and i dont see a single cadet in sight.except for ONE.pfft.then holy innocents' high.HA!i bet most of y'all dont even know of such a school.bloody place built like some prison.cant even see inside from the HIGH WALLS.hougang too!we used every single orienteering skill to find the place save for th compass.pissing off man.then the ci there rocks.wears a CAP with mufti.some funkiness npcc have nowadays huh?i didnt know they had a SEA UNIT therre.(note sarcasm) then anglican high.by that time it was like six plus.aizat and i were like super tired.and there, the ncc boys were stripping one guy and chucking him into the fountain.pretty cool man.they have a fountain.then went home.my father's freaking sick.sheesh i hope nothing happens to him man.and my sis was still considering whether she should go for the MOS thingy.i wanted to give her a slap.such occasions and u still thinking of events?stupidity has a new face on the dictionary.some more say if she dont go four people dont go.big deal la.family emergency.never heard of it?surprising for a 22 yr old.
i've finished listing the rules for IB guys.general offences only la.heh.but then...i borrowed some from SAS.good luck man.their rules go up to 15 pages.as for student council?haha.i dont think i running for it.its freaking stupid that 200 plus candidates are running. and some are running for fame.ok most.once i heard on the bus last yr about a guy wanting to join the student council to get laid.i dunno where he got such a notion from.but its was freaking hilarious.but i know no matter how bad, some of thsee losers will still get in.and if i run,i dont wanna work with losers who hanker after power and fame.ms dharma said if u think u cant work with some people dont run.so i aint.come and talk to me and i'll show u which candidate is running for fame.the whole purpose of student council is spoiled.good luck yr 5.even in interim there are ppl who hanker power and recognition.i shall not say who.but i raelly despise such losers.GEPs to be specific.aching for recognition and wanting to be heard.its like these animals suddenly took an interest in ladies and started hitting on em too.abominations.
that includes bunny.bloody mutha rabbit stole my idea of hiding words.when i talk about fishing.i talking about other ppl.and he fishes for hobby.too bad his bait sucks. and no fish wants to go near him.so?he goes to the nearby pond to fish.somewhat like ours juz got momre fish.oh well i hope he reads this.cos this is a warning to him.if he ever dares to go fishing there,i'll make sure he can never fish again.instead he will be gonig after the fisherman.stupid fool.why dont he go and die?seriously.he better not try to be funny.i will take action.by that time i hope he doesnt cry.or his "orchard road" hair will be ruined
to the other ppl fishing only for trophies.pls ah,dont be assholes.fishes have feelings too.not good to go put one nice fish up there to show off only.thats being shallow.those with fish and want more shoul also go and die.its not some market where the more th better.of course the mutha rabbit shouldnt be allowed to fish.cos he's not even human.sorry if i sound harsh.i juz dont like people being like that.
my brother is really getting on my nerves.he's gonna get an appointment with my fist soon enough if he doesnt know whats respect.just cos i showed him attitude.he go and try bar my com account.i'm only a bit away from hitting him.such childishness deserves to be beaten up.i cannot stand such shit where i am older and i have to give way to everyone at my expense.
k gotta continue researching the bloody worksheet.i will not bow head to difficulty.
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Sunday, January 8
just another boring
my weekend totally rocks.nothing to do.watch tv.went library today.saw zen there.my brother couldnt recognise the saint t shirt.and i couldnt recognise her in black hair.heh ok.
i just realised i neglected some people in my OG.oops.apologies.sorry.
was listening to beatles yesterday and found this song really ringing in my head.other than that m2m song.ok does anyone have m2m shades of purple?
"I Should Have Known Better" by the beatles
I should have known better with a girl like you
That I would love everything that you do
And I do, hey, hey, hey, and I do
Whoa, oh, I never realized what a kiss could be
This could only happen to me
Can't you see, can't you see
That when I tell you that I love you, oh
You're gonna say you love me too, oh
And when I ask you to be mine
You're gonna say you love me too
So I should have realized a lot of things before
If this is love you've got to give me more
Give me more, hey hey hey, give me more
Whoa, oh, I never realized what a kiss could be
This could only happen to me
Can't you see, can't you see
That when I tell you that I love you, oh
You're gonna say you love me too, oh
And when I ask you to be mine
You're gonna say you love me too
You love me too, you love me too
You love me too
sounds gay but it has a funny ring....haha.and the guitar part is easy!YEAH
school tomoro.outing at yuengi's house on tuesday.when are we returning our number 1 u? squad 5?
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Saturday, January 7
a poem
baskets.the poem shawn ang composesd yesterday makes all of mine hang their heads in shame.so try my best.
18 days that i've seen u
one of em was when i liked u
love is such a funny thing
that it could still strike a string
in my world of hurt and dirt
u came and shone a light upon the mirth
u are the lady of the new moon
i can only hang my head in shame when i try to look at u in noon
i'm sorry i gave u a bad impression
to make u smile was my mission
i didnt know u would think so wrong of me
like a perso reacting to an angry bee
i enjoyed spending the first morning with u in the mall
though we didnt talk at all
the fireworks was just a bid
to bring together u and he
now we're a few stops away but yet many worlds apart
everytime i look outa the bus
to see ur face seemed a must
ur happiness should be my responsibility
though the way to your heart is rather misty
u might find the choice of words here disgusting
or rather just simply infuriating
i never hoped to have u by my side
cos its gonna be a tough fight
the only thing i can do for now
is simply stand at the side and watch u smile
hope u'll find a person u truly love in a while
oh my,its a really long poem.nearly fell asleep writing it.haha.man,u never know when u are really catching fish until u see others and u'll know how obvious it is.there was one person trying to catch fish by ACTING like em.and there was another one WITH fish but still want somemore.
to al those thinking of applying to go for npcc in IB.there's no such cca...no matter what kenneth lui says.there's no such thing.we are not admitting female cadets yet.cos we have problems with our own cadets.adding females would juz take the trouble up another notch.besides if u're a noob, u wouldnt know what they talking about in CI or HI course.so no np for now.and muthu is really slack as a CI.never bring crest shirt and u expect ur cadets to respect u.even if no CI shirt at leaslt have crest.but noooo.lazy.and talking during mdm yeo's lecutre some more.CAN U ACT LIKE A CI?!
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the song
erpz.as u can see from the gals pic from left helan,shawna,anna, and amelia....the guys very complex.but kun han was trigger happy with his cam taking with EVERYONE....whoo hoo...
and here's our song for the item.
its pretty boy by M2M.for those swakoo who dunno what it was.it is the band from which marion raven came...
"Pretty Boy"
I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind
I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall
You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
[BRIDGE]
Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
i've never heard this song in a long long time.and now people go and make us dance to this song.and its stuck in my head...haha.
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INITIAL B!!!
ok.i can finally blog about ORIENTATION.
man i entered school not knowing what is gonna happen.and i thought orientation is gonna suck.heh.and i didnt know how to handle a group.lucky i went thru CI course and experienced so many prefect conventions.ok.
day one was a bit sian.there was like low morale cos of all taht talks.freaking sian.all the bloody school rules.haiz.not as if i didnt enforce em last yr...oops.the only additional rule is the display of affection thingy.no dumb ass would try and do tat so was almost sleeping.crap.and the campus is hardly finished man.the poor workers gotta work their arses off 24/7...we have an entire building still looking like a skeleton.and we are soooooo not having it like that during normal school days man.no way.ok my group simply rocks.we're powerful.
yuen gi and i were leaders of it la.cool smart instructors.
comprising of-kun han,jon lui,kah chee,carl,joel khoo,jon ng,chris chua,zhong yuan,marcus low,paul yong,henry,amelia,anna,shawna,helan.with auxilary members-gordon and daryl thio.the first day was really really sian.the ice breaking games not really ice breaking....dotz and whats with the new theme man?i have no idea what it means at all..our flag has a mast.simply powerful.has a dino hugging a cereal box.courtesy of the gals.flag stinks of egg.DON'T ASK.and our name is DUTCH LADIES & CO.W.heh.we are the best group in cereal.kinda surprising.
second day,the gay dance was put into plan.hey its not so gay if u put HIP HOP inside.haiz.ok there was ONE CSI who wore the csi shirt.i dunno what he is thinking but if he plans to go into j06.he might as well forget it.we need thinking CIs.omg.not some dumb butt show off like him.oh well the station games we were still quite stoned.but we bonded abit la.haha
third day-the ultimatum man.our acsiting race!truly inspirational story.from last to first.shall not elaborate on details in the trip.but our secret is public transport.yeah.we took bus with no mrts at all.too good man.and we had kah chee,gordon and daryl.some ultimate combo.i will never eat indian candy.again.after that we went back to school.i kaypoh on wanyi and lui at orchard.felt like a lamppost..but walking around orchard in CIT shorts and prefects shirt.
the last day- cca presentation.left halfway for jon lui's boots.HTA brother needs help to shine it.so i helped la.haha.then did the mass dance again.then after lunch i left for np.it was FREAKING SIAN!!!the people were like having sian ness all over em.ppl were wasting time.and i wasnt greeted.first training.oh well.so i gave em some arm training to wake up their ideas.including sec 4s.point to note for cadet officers.never pump ur cadets in front of visitors.in our case gals.it is very shameful and embarrassing.everyone will look and u are not showing off ur power.i did that cos i couldnt let the cadets see their ncos being pumped.and i wanted to teach em a lesson.at night.item.dont mention it.my CI rank can throw away if any of the cadets see it.we got BEST GROUP.YEAH!
crap...the past few days have really been like crap.
my father has been really irritating.keeps giving me the BGR talk about IB gals.ITS IB GALS!WHAT BGR u talking about?!then i got so sian.i juz said no thanks.and he started kao bei-ing me.attitude sia.told me marry a doc if i cant be one.then talk about resigning my fate to playing for the first week.tell me, does ANY IDIOT STUDY on ORIENTATION.if have u better show me, i'll kill that abomination.really pissing off.the whole house should juz go and die or something.brother is like shite.sister sucks money like nobody's business.and we having $$ problems.i ask for a cheque to pay for the darned fees AND calculator.i get a STUPID LECTURE ON SCORING good grades.if i dont score, i'll get kicked outa the house.THIS.HOUSE.SUCKS.no wonder i go walking on orchard on a school day.
crap.i'm starting to hate the new year.i feel so tired so fast.the stupid unit juz won't work.we gonna get mocked at for that cock silver award AGAIN.my parents dont treat me like my age.people standing by false claims about me(that is the most hurting one ever).its amazing how i actually pulled through the week without blowing up other than that time fong kept stressing me about the t shirts.i wanted to hit his face man.its not as if i am in charge of the t shirts.why is he so eager to get his t shirti.its only a t shirt.
look at the pictures.hopefully they'll brighten up the post.
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Monday, January 2
final battle
i'm fighting with myself.cock.i'm nervous and apprehensive bou the new year.haiz.was playing my guitar this afternoon.hey i got anew pencil case.my old one had all the tears.hahaok i need that shoes.those nice red shoes.my old running shoes got busted in CIBTC.i only gonna keep em for viewer sake.and memories.probably super emergencies.shit man.went tampines mall and with so many sports shops, didnt enter one.probably cos my father was stressing us.cock.shopping with him very short one.u cant even go see shite.
crap man...new year.
to the person who copies my fish catching method.dont copy anymore.the fish won't come to u one with that kinda method.i can help u catch.but u gotta curb that impatience.the new place is one full of malice and ulterior motives under other motives.whatever it is, try to be happy.
to catch fish,showing hostility to it will not make it come to u.at the best u will just be friends with it.get better bait or change ur rod.
speaking in code.ask lui translate to u.
to all who know the name of the flame thrower,please do not sprout it out.juz keep it within urselves.talk among urselves.but dont spread to acsi OR ex ACSI.
who's going ahmad's cca demo?not free.got orientation.haha
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The last daily posting
yupz.no more daily posting of lil ol bitching.but first week sure alota stuff to bitch.so this saturday its gonna be loooong.lotsa bitching to do about lil ol orientation.cock, hope they dont extend the thing till saturday.i'm gonna die or something.heh.and OGL/CSI speaking like that.i should be ashamed of myself.haha.ay i hope i can get excused for the unit agm la.its most important.
WHY ARE WE HAVING GAL IN THE INTERIM COUNCIL?!WHY MUST WE HAVE GALS IN EVERY NEW THING THAT WE HAVE?! DO THEY KNOW SHIT ABOUT OUR SCHOOL TO BE IN IT?! are we too retarded to do things ourselves?! esp the orientation committee.wth man.we were originally a guy's school.we are orientating these people inside.ARE THE GALS ORGANIZING THEIR OWN ORIENTATION?!really smart move.acs culture thrown in their faces.i hope they learn it.if not our orientation will not be acs.it'll feel like shit.some orientation
eggy, do u wanna die?do i actually sound injured?i am not a bloody softee that goes all lil weeping man(its been some time since ANY tear rolled down) over some tiny problem.don't put shit on ur blog thats not true.and i dun need sOMEONE ELSE.don't anyhow make decisions for me hor.i will chop ur head if u try such a stunt again.my heart problems do not affect my wellbeing.i think clear.no need help to go and try anything funny with me.rmb i am not bunny.that loser is gonna try to be funny.69 gals.i hope he get rejected all 69 times.cos he's gonna keep trying.and i seriously hope he stays away from acjc.for his own good.kana reject even worse there.and i wil personally blow fire in his face.
was talking to yong kuan last night about gals.he started the darned topic.like educating me about gals in IB.cock.talk so much.haha...oh well he's like the most memorable nco i've ever had in charge of our squad.haha.
ARGH.its the end already....need a bigger bag.lusting for the shoes.oh man.hopefully a nano(whats the cheapest?).a new pencil case!.new pens.and anti thief.cos i always have tobuy new pens due to disappearing acts.
cock.when's squad 5 meeting to return the number one?no use letting it rot at home cos no rank on it.
screw the tkd instructor man.bochup this and that.gonna scare him with my photo.u wan a photo?i'll give u a photo.haha
see u in God knows how many days.faithful readers.dont ever lose ur faith.i juz not posting for osme time due to my dad's bar on the com.sorry
heh
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Sunday, January 1
The Countdown Spent with Your Squadmates
yupz.came only to blog about this.shall try my best to refrain from bitching.but bitching is what makes my posts interesting.heh
harbourfront mrt.oh my my.what does p in PICARD stand for?i dunno.haha.bronson and i were early.the rest were slightly late.keng siong came.k no one was decked to the nice.but i was told smart casual.and then some PEOPLE came in SHORTS AND SLIPPERS.EUGH!!infuriating.so we waited for a very long time.attendance for the outing
present:
bronson
tian guan
kenny(came later)
ivan
iskandar
ahmad
hasmidah
mandy
keng siong
jia hao
jia hoong
ming feng
wind god(don't ask me)
sean
heheh.thats is it.oh well.we ate at the food court.all the guys bully bronson sia.make him blanjah.basket.not as if he's loaded.haha.i dunno wazzup with mandy that kept pulling people hair.and kicking people.pfft.talked alota cock.then hasmidah had to leave.iskandar was pretty...dunno what to say.haha.took photos.went sentosa.ming feng and wind god left.stoned at palawan beach tower.waited till fire works.got some morons go make rockets in the tower.nabei.nearly killed the kids man.so smoky.
countdown-a time where u spend the coming of the new year with people u cherish.squad 5 sia...ks,jia hoong,iskandar and ivan left.the rest of the time we spent walking around sentosa.stoning.mandy hit more people.we build rockets using the nice lil sparklers bronson asked me to bring.basket,tell me bring then say don't remember.like never die before like that.
muthu sent new year message at regular hourly basis.i got mine about 3 am.haha.we were like laughing at his rate.then we went back harbourfront.at some heavy breakfast.slept at the centre till 0630.went home.mandy didnt get to see her sunrise.i thought the point of staying over was to see her sunrise?dots.haha.who the nut even suggested staying over.i get the whole meaning about seeing the first sunrise of the year...seeing ur future and blah blah blah.cock.no more tonning man.no way.cros cros cros.what the hell does is mean anyway?
cock.shite,the new year is coming.cant go online so much anymore.like about never.cant go out.back to NO LIFE.i hope orientation goes ok.like pray for a miracle or something.scrape the dance.and we're good.cock it really sucks mana.the dance.omg.we're gonna look "cool"
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