Sunday, March 26
one kinda bad week
school's all started!and dang i'm not all excited.hey but i did MOST of my homework.yeah.feel super happy about that la.but i didnt study much.pffft.ok the funny thing is that the less hours i slept the more alert i was.the night i slept the most,i felt darned sleepy in school.and the timetabling committee is kinda cool.SO MANY MOTHER TONGUE periods.omg, i can die man.everyday see her la.not that its a bad thing.but too much chi is bad. they should give more early dismissal days la.ARGH and the maths concentration is too much.i wanna kill myself from so much of it.
now i've lost my drive to study.crap man.after npcc on friday,bronson and i went out for dinner with reuben and leng jun.damn speaking of which i am super pissed.cos leng jun's crap made reuben stay till ten.and reuben had the temerity to say he had to take leng jun's crap.this kinda ppl no nid to bother about em.cos of that i got grounded.mum scolded me on my hp dad nagged at me.i got grounded.and now i cant go centrestage.happy now reuben? now i cant support ur play.i feel damn angry at leng jun for talking so much crap and wasting time.man MY time was spent listening to some shallow shit.if its one thing i know, i dont likel listening to kuan meng speak cos its damn insulting and then leng jun's mindless blabber is too much.and i got scolded for taking TIME to listen to it.oh man....
got a haircut.now i look one kinda army.NO FRINGE!!!how am i gonna face the world?!can die la...gonna get a beanie.
oh i got a new waterbottle!its all black now same as the previous one only colour diff.heh.
thursday was one kinda crap day.went hq only to see so few CIs there to help.then kana suaned by soon keng for not knowing how to build mod tent.thats ok.cos i really forgot.hey it doesnt help if u havent practised for a while.since BTC.haha.no the worst was we got kinda insulted.like verbal abuse.wth man.some kinda help we provided.their english rocks la.damned twitsl.ask me for the def of twits i'll tell u.
campcraft comp finals.haha.skipped track for this.kinda interesting la.vs had this really weird shelter.that'll induce claustrophobia.not very useful.gals- i tell u i thot tkgs shoulda won.their structure was one kinda kick ass.nygh built a barracks.it looked like it could withstand a bomb.of course there were the stereotypes of a tent lookalike.crescent had this flat fat tank.it sure can hold many ppl.but entrance kinda painful ah.probably must leopard crawl or something.one thing:i wanna kick myself for going there and not letting samuel kwek sign my form.now i gotta wait for some grand miracle to meet him.probably whenn return uniform lor.
life is like a piece of crap.this dang blogskni got prob now.must bear with it for awhile ah.when got enuf time i'll change it.somhow its screwed up.cant seem to find the prob so i go find another skin.wait and see lor.for now just click on archives to see.heee
i almost forgot.this person nids recognition again.steph saw.the "cool"prayer gal who thinks prayer boys are cool.the one who mugs too much for her own good.one kinda counsellor.of course its nicer to kaobei her.HAHA...for the fun of it la.but shes a real good friend to talk to...haha.
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Saturday, March 18
fistful of sand
as i look at photos
a chain of memories follows
we were all so happy then
hardships and happiness all in a can
we had some good times and bad times
now we're all sour limes
one thing i shouldnt have done
is treat u as if u're my number one
i shouldnt have scared u away
with all my passions then so gay
the day was 16 december
the last time we talked nicely i remember
22 dec,u told me we couldnt be together
that statement'll stick with me forever
i thot we could still be friends
but then u told me it was the end
31, dec new eyar's eve
everyone's feeling festive
you and i,we started a show of falsehood
our charade was so good
but when it struck midnight
nobody noticed how the truth came to light
16 jan, you told me "i hate you"
i wondered then if i was a fool
24 feb, i asked u a question
u answered with somemore unnecessary confession
by then, my feelings for u had died
you probably thought i lied
i called a truce between us
but u told me to leave u alone with much fuss
then i only wanted to be ur friend
but to u it seemed i was trying to offend
i reached out my hand only for u to give it a hard swat
just like how a person flicks an irritating bat
it hurts me so much that we cant even talk
but see each other on the street and walk
strangers we are who were once friends together
memories of which i'll remember forever
we would've been great friends
but yet u set up such a high fence
now with all my problems in many areas
my career, my family become my worst fears
when i think of a friend to talk to
stranger enuf, the first one is u
but then as i remember before
we talked no more
my home's become a hotel
you're the only person i wanna tell
i wish u'd be the one who'd be there as a friend
but i guess there is no amend
if i hadnt fell for u
i wonder what'd happen to us two?
friendship is like a fistful of sand
the more u grip,the more it slips outa ur hand
will u remember me as a friend?
as i remember u and ur pearly shells
lying on the sand to the end?
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full house? or not...
crap man.suddenly when i pop outa camp, my damn world's turned upside down.kk start with the camp first.
it was damn sian.for one we shouldnt have that stupid dry practice in the camp.damn waste time.next organisation is not bad but ncos shouldnt move with their wishes but more of the purpose of the camp.i';m still damn pissed with daniel's immaturity.hell man, i dont like go npcc.esp this camp.but i have to go.now my dad's not speaking to me cos i went for this camp.he thinks i not supposed to go and yet i go.dammit.some ppl dont appreciate it.and when we have some fun by burning stuff, they go point it out.i eat a lil something and leave litter.they dont do courtesy to clean the room. some kinda crap cadets i trained out.tto clean the room is their duty.no matter who leaves whatever mess its their duty.dammit but they only think for themselves.las yr wei chong made us keep the damn room darned clean.this yr we gave em chance an this is what happened.and they dare to talk about us being CIs.hell if i were to keep to my role as a CI, the camp would be alot less fun for them.hell, we're giving face but they ont take it.its ok...they are going off anyway.
that means we gotta concentrate on the sec 3s.mean we gotta move fast.
'and during the camp, lui kept going to watch marcia.sheesh.shes some funny character.keep calling me gay.i also dunno for what.i heard dang rumours about me from muthu.i'm damn angry about it.cos it affects friendship.seriously, i gonna hit the guy that started it all so hard that he forgets his father's name.
problems at home.u wouldnt even begin to imagine what its like.the damn place is a hell hole.my dads not speaking to me.my mum dont care.hell, i think of such and tears can actually roll down my face.hell, dont blame me if i break down in school.
i watcdhed shen hua in the hols.hell.its a beautiful tale tho a tad confusing.but hell i wana live in olden times now.anywhere but here.
all that problems i wanna tell someone.but then i realise i dont tlak to her anymore.or she dont wan to tlak to me.i tried to ask to be friends yesterday but then still no reply.oh well,nobody can say i didnt try.one last poem
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Saturday, March 11
aye aye
no crap man.its been a bad week.last week.monday, not too bad went shopping with reuben again.for nothing.
tuesday,i went online.heh.what happened after i turned off the comp became super tense.i was studying.my brother gave this stupid paper to my dad to sign.guess what? it got real bad man.i dont wanna say.all i can say is God, gimme some money tat my dad wont have to stress so much.and gimme grades that my dad wont worry so much about me.i was like in tears when i heard things getting at home.i seriously dunno what to do to help.my school life is like crap.my love life is in ruins( not that its really important or it should even exist at all) my cca couldnt get any worse.dang, i feel like transferring to some random jc and relax there.hey maybe i should quit np too.i'm damn demoralised in all areas.some kinda shit unit.some kinda school grades.some kinda OEP?!wth man, why is it that the cheap ones dont get CAS hours?i have to spend money just to get CAS hours? in bloody ol fu zhou.i shoulda gone taman to please my dad's pocket.but noooo...i had to go gd ol fuzhou.hell i dont wanna go but i nid cas hours.dang if only they had cas hours in taman.
acjc band night.bought lil ol ticks.went with who else but jia hao.whoo it was good!get to see the gd ol band perform.but no flowers for the band dudes i was familiar with.i missed the last part cos my mum called my hp!!dammit la.can parents stop calling hp at wrong times.its damn irritating!that time during CIBTC, i forgot put my hp in silent then my mum called.walao.damn freaking malu la cos we were being "debriefed" then all of a sudden some random starting of "shan hu hai" rang.walao.damn sad.
its been a sian week.orientation didnt make it any better.i crashed .13....hey i was bored and .13 had really lil people.and lui was there.wan xian too( heh shall elaborate on that later) her hair was in a real sad state with its "tower"ponned the dangy wet games.sorry committee it just didnt take off as expected.of course,great effort tho.except my locker is still without its lock.
npcc.finally.i had this absolutely brilliant idea for our unit.involving yr 5.cos wanxian used to come from the same unit as mandy.seeing how powerful mandy was in CIBTC(yeah right), i thot crescent must have some powerful stuff they can share with us.at first i tried convincing her to go J06 but then after much discussion we still decided to put in background planning for unit.eh mandy, hushes.and jia hao stop showing wanxian's blog to everyone la!i know its u.otherwise howwould bronson know it?theres hope for the unit.all u bloody doubters of her ability better shut up man.i've got much insight how many lightyears we are from crescent.i heard crescent is like second best unit in their area.dang, after hearing her description i nearly got a shock.our unit sucks so much compared to em.its like theirs is some super enthu one la.with absolute discipline.and even i break their taboos regarding turnout.that must be the missingness in our unit.commandments.haha.dang if we're gonna get uniform for her, its gonna be ex.hope we have npcc fund.
haha.the song pu tong peng you by david tao is like super stuck in my head la.but i cant seem to find the correct guitar chord for it.the guitar you one is like absolute dumbness
aye its been a bad week.been sleeping little.who wants to watch "my girl and i"? sounds like a nice korean show...shall find people go with me...
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Saturday, March 4
aftermath
sheesh it was the jae exercise yesterday.really high tension man.so many ppl couldnt make it.i was like super devastated la.its like sudddenly they're all living.all that we've spent our times would only be a memory.but yesterday we actually bluffed the whole lota students into believing we were being transferred out.damn u shoulda seen the look on others' faces.ah...but lucky most are staying.basket all of a sudden go throw ppl to some random jcs.its shocking to ppl.some more go make em cry.i tell u man, this kinda treatment is not good sia.but damn theres the huge shift in ppl now.i dunno whats going on now la...pfft.
two tests came back.really demoralizing.my damn bio test.supposed straight forward but i didnt mug for it.in the end?pass by 5 marks. b&m was damn retarded.i actually took the effort to mug for it.just pass.wth man.seriously.i was super distracted when i was studying lor.and also taking the test.damn.damn.damn.i better stop dilly dallying.even my chem test was crap.ah pfft.
tho chi test was like a breeze.eh wth man.why do we still have to take chi?its damn dumb la.
ah....muthu u bloody pice of bio rubbish.dont whine.full of shite.if u were waiting for the damn flame then wth are tagging on my blog at all?problem here is...muthu, all ur basis of leadership is on one stupid concept.dominance.do it myself.i dunno what my problem is even tho its staring at me in the face.thats u muthu.u talk so much bullshit that even the words are beginning to stink.go wallpaper ur name all over the hierachy its damn stupid.dominance is something that'll lead to the death of leadership.u hate ppl to prove u're wrong.that u're always right.most impt, u're damn irritating and immature when it comes to affairs of the heart.u talk alota bullshit about others cos u've never had an exp in such areas.its damn childish and not to mention disgusting that u are even fit to speak of anyone liking anyone else.why dont u drop to yr 3 then it'd be more appropriate.in short dont piss me off.i cant stand ur whining.
to all those ppl who cant seem to erase their feelings.no worries.its normal.but u shouldnt allow i t to take control of ur thoughts.sometimes its just plain irritating to have em.i erased mine in a short time.but troubles just seem to keep coming in.some idiots have to get all harsh and irritating just cos a random uestion was asked.stupidity.so...if love could be controlled as many innocent ppl say,the world wouldnt have so many funky acts of funkiness.
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absolute bitchiness of the week
to mandy and bronson:wish u were here to complete the ac np yr 5 family.
hart damn.i look retarded in taht photo.EH LUI WHERE'S OUR POP PHOTO?! and bronson u too!for the record, muthu is the one pumping those cadets early on founders day.excellent day starter before a parade.wowzers.no wonder they decided to march like shite.
can u believe it?!damned.its some shitey week.ok we start off with las saturday.the gals campcraft comp.dont oh yeah me.damn boring.and the preetpal is one kind.come ask me personally and i'll tell u.nothing bad la.haha.some oversensitive person shot me some kinda hostile missile when i only asked her some friendly question.pfft i cant blame her.
the comp was funky.people ask for penalty twine even before they use finish theirs first.damn man.i made em fiish theirs. and they didnt need any penalty ones.damn i love my judgement.
and muthu seriously, if u wanna piss me off all u gotta do is tlak about the fishing again.u wanna be childish i can teach u how to do a nice backflip involuntarily.my term fishing is for my own use.and in case ur stupid head couldnt think i am not fishing.damn well u morons do well to keep ur stupid mouth shut.sprouting nonsense that mars my reputation.no use telling me how u feel muthu.i couldnt even care two hoots even if u're furious with me.save it.the only thing it does is irritate me.but i couldnt care a nut about ur petty woman feelings.need me to say more?this is what u want.flaming u on this blog.u got it.seriously,u've never come close to feeling what i've felt and u go judge others on love.thats pretty stupid isnt it?wait its dumb.muthu get a life.grow a brain as i told that dumb lady in our trng course.grow up.u dunno me.u dunno what i feel whatd i think.please dont assume.if anything u're one of the worst npcc leaders i've ever seen.look at ur sea unit first then come talk.at least land has a pathetic foundation.
next up,i know of a certain childish ppl who go actually eat up time to compensate for lost time.damned and my friend from the old school she hail from said she rocks.like i wanted to shoot her.eh but wait she's like best female shooter.and christianne its ok.only two cola gums.besides it only proves what kinda shite she is for doing that kinda thing
morons.a group of ppl called Stupid Jackass Idiots.go schools and spread their antics around.by right they shouldnt go transfer at all.i dont even do a single shite to em and they gimme the slighting eye.get a life man.no need for fake smiles.wth man.some more speak with that fake accent with me.i wanna give y'all a slap on ur faces.please...learn the culture man.
u know i realise theres two great ppl u can talk to about God.one is amanda and the other steph saw.their views are super mature.can talk to em
ah founders day is pretty bad...muthu kept pissing me off.we were all decked in uniforms.i was pretty slack with my u.went out after that.scared the gals in the group by yelling at cadets at bus stop.ooops.felt lousy that day.
and all u stupid rumour mongers....SHUT UP.cut all ur damn theories of this and this.its hurting the ears of many.that includes u muthu.
new song:liu yue de yu.some song from the ch u show showing on saturdays at nine.some boring show now cos its all pathetic love.but the song is damn nice.anybody know how to get the tian wai fei xian series?same main actor as the currect ch u one.funky guy.hahathe sound track for that one is damn nice.sang by SHE.yi yan wan nian.not here tho.
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