Monday, October 30
Errors all over the damn place
weekend's all screwed up.wasted it on zhuo wens.freaking nearing one thousand words each.and all was peaceful while my brother was at his ncc camp.no trouble at home.his stupid whining and ranting and bitching about his loser juniors totally
interested me.he's like a total dipshit man.and he comes to spread trouble.the day he comes home, turmoil happens in the house.serious dipshit man.the worst thing is he's not feeling guilty for causing trouble instead, he stands by his sense of
justice that he's not wrong.well good job.like somebody quickly help me end this trouble that's come into the world.no need to kill him.just get him some honeytrapper that will hook him OFF his studies and screw around with his dipshit brains, so he'll go to some weird institute and screw his life up.for a useless piece of crap like him, he sure knows how to make lotsa noise.one source of domestic trouble man...
ok regarding the party, for the third time cos blogger keeps cocking up postings.the council gives free coupons for drinks and it runs out so fast that only early birds get to drink.then cambodia project people try to rip people off by doing that stupid ice plus drink sell at ripoff price trick.how about selling some quality food man?u wanna raise funds u should try something like the parents support group,they're a buncha smart people with powerful ideas for raising funds.
oh and eggy makes for one really
sightly lamp post.well thats one person you'd never worry about getting skin cancer cos of his multilayers of skin.the stories i hear from the gang who went to play pool after the party.one was a tagalong who didnt know who he was following, another was some spastic thing that didnt know where to go, and the last was a
fine lamp post.
today was chemistry options lecture.its really disturbing to have schedule clashes.i thought business was happening at the same time as chinese.but today also have options lecture happening at same time.well you can see my priorities working.first business then chinese.but chem came in and knocked the others down one number.then miss dorton was looking for me.sheesh.whats with the bloody timetable.there aint enuf of me to go around for all lessons i'm required to go for!oh well anyway, reached home quite early.makes you kinda sian.spending time with that dipshit source of trouble.extremely irritating.ah but i spend my afternoon kicking myself over the maths questions i had missed out in final exams.when i realised i could do them.it was seriously painful man.coulda got at least a 6 if i had done em la.and the last question was like some shy thing hiding behind so many damned paths missing my attention until i saw the answer key.absolutely pissing off about my incapabilities man...looks like i gotta work harder man!
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Sunday, October 29
Complexities of Life
ok regarding the party, the music was great but i felt kinda sian.and the way couples behave (IE hold each other, sit close, disappear for a while and come back several minutes after) is plain....disturbing.the kind where you'd just leave it at a question mark
the holidays is seriously packed with stuff
and i dunno how to get started on EE.got a damn bAD report for it...
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Friday, October 27
Last Day at School
today was the so-called last day of school.we went school late cos i didnt know that there was assembly for year 5s.so happily, michael and i strolled in going to class but then bose tried to act smart by trying to book us.sheesh man, dont u think i an ex-prefect would know better to be purposely late for school.its not as if i'm as spastic as kuan meng that i cant be bothered to wake up on time y'know.i still woke up same time today just that took a longer bus route.and the remedials today kinda waste time.and i realised i'm kinda running into a dead end for my extended essay.i realise i need a separate functioning unit or computer from my brother so that i can do research on my various projects without having to beg implore demand fight for the com when he's playing his stupid DOTA or WOW.serious pisshead man.like someone plop a decent laptop with separate networking system onto my open hands.ooh and dean's list class is kinda...dull.the life of a class is in the class itself not the teacher.unfortunately we happen to share class with some really either quiet or really weird people, so its really really dead...
yesterday there was OCS visit which could really much be the highlight of the day...climbed the 265 steps of their tower.heard the gals talk nonstop about having guys in the army.really buay tahan
today's party was really kinda stoned.the highlight of today was watching deathnote.and i'm really impressed with the genius of light yagami and "L".
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Tuesday, October 24
Nothing to Report
yeah, i have nothing to report about.just feeling lousy about the way the student council reacts to bad turnout for their brilliant party.ok in the first place, i did consider going.but i had to see what i was feeling that day.so instead of cheating steph and april's feelings, i told them straight out "no".i didnt expect em to report back to the brass and create the new rule.man,forcing everyone to pay 2 bucks regardless of their attendance in this fest is seriously the WRONG way to go about it.i wouldnt have paid even if anyone threatened me with all kinds of violence but the council used our friends to collect the mnoey from us.i dunno who made this decision but the high esteem i hold the council in is seriously in jeopardy.man this is EXTORTION! i hope the council can try to justify why we have to pay $2 even if we're not going.terribly disappointing sia...sure hope there aint any future recurrence of such events man.
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Sunday, October 22
Goodbye, My Car
today marks the last day i'd ever sit on that long old mercedes
we went to eunos to eat and realised the car couldnt move at all for the return trip.then we decided to get it towed away as we were gonna get it away for the new car anyway.quite a busy time it was in the afternoon.this car had been in our possession for a long time.ten years i believe.of course it had its bitchy moments with the air con and engine not working properly.haiz, and now its a goner.
pfft, in light of the li jia wei and susilo news, i have absolutely nothing to say except this,"when something tries to be a bitch or even give you trouble, never bend backwards, never go down on your knees, but also never argue back nor spit back or even try to hurt it,instead just drop it like all things troublesome and fiesty and let it self-destruct" susilo, you deserve more.
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Saturday, October 21
Memories of Bedok Reservoir
went to eat lunch at bedok reservoir yet again.the place has changed since i last saw it about 3 years ago.i remember the market place used to be some really mega hawker centre with really great food.my history with that place has always been some intertwined thingy.we used to live there since i was born until about 9 years old i think.during that time i was 7 years old when i enrolled in Eunos CC Taekwondo class.that time my sis was already of poom belt level.by 9 years old i was already brown belt i think or brown-black.then we moved to some weird holding place for a year.i still went for tkd classes at eunos.then we moved out when i was ten to our current house at koon seng road.that time i kinda stopped tkd cos the instructor kept delaying my final promotion to the final level.it was almost forgotten and collected dust until i was in sec 2 when we had this idea to go bedok reservoir to eat again.there, we met the instructor.she could recognise me.then she said i could continue my training.and hence i continued my training.it was a really rocky re-start.i was outa form and totally much of an embarrassment.my old friends,the twins:wei hong and wei kit, eugene cheng, jian cheng, kelvin all could remember me.then new friendships were made. i got to know yvonne,karen(the twins' younger sis),soon ming and alot more.there was a certain complication back then.heh yeah...then cos of my brother,we had to transfer out.those times we had there...kinda unforgettablei saying all these cos i saw the twins and their sister and one other eunos tkd guy today.didnt want to say hi cos of the complication.would make the meeting kinda awkward esp when my father so near.wouldnt look good that he sees me mixing around people with their hairdos or rather wei kit's hairdo.and then they'd just walk past like that...
oh well nuff about bedok reservoir.i watched death note anime just now.man, i have to say i am impressed with the noble cause of light.with that much power on his hands and all he can do is execute criminals?!sheesh,gotta hand it to him for stickin to his strict regime and it leaves much food for thought on human nature.the big question:what would you do if you had the DEATH NOTE? how would u writing those condemned criminals' names on the death note be different from their execution? the only thing different in terms of human judgement is that you've put the power to judge from a judge into the hands of another person.while it seems so extreme to kill em all at once,our world seems to be a more peaceful place...there's much stuff to think about.but i would stand on light's side....haha
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Results
results came back.i cant say its even good.its like nearing but nowhere there.although i was pleased with my chinese(despite the fact that there were others who got higher than me by 4 marks)english didnt do as well as i expected but nevertheless still get relatively ok.
The rest of the bloody subjects were bloody disappointments.none of em touched a freaking 7.bio was this immense disappointment that got trampled all over by other people.one esp maid beat me.i feel extremely indignant.chem was this huge wet blanket for my efforts.it was quite close to my bio grade but missed by a little.unfortunately, there were so many MORE people who beat me at it.i nid to suck up their essence one of these days to see how they do it man.monster power grades(think full marks or close to that) maths was even worse.i expected better but got some shit grade.even more people trampled all over my head.
the biggest shame of em all was business and management.passed by a miserable mark.near the lowest in class.that is so not where i wanna be...
overall got buffed up and got some 35 points.people seem to think its a fine grade but hell its not.like its some piece of shit compared to the rest of the level.there are people scoring above 40 points and we are still celebrating a score of 35 points?
those who got less than that,dont wish to have my marks.go aim higher.dont say my marks are good when they aint cos there're others who score so high.i dunno how their minds work.esp chemistry.i dunno how they can get such power marks of above 90.people give lousy excuses for not scoring well like never study, flippant,never take seriously and are just happy having to escape the full brunt of con camp.my worst excuse is i have no excuse.have that kind of "what the hell am i doing?" feeling.
next up is the dean's list.i seriously think those names should be kept confidential that only teachers and those selected know.cos i hate getting marked.some dumb fuck tard who didnt make it into any list kept going around the place saying "i'm gonna beat everyone in the dean's list i can beat.you better watch out"while its good to have some kind of competition, it irks me to have to listen to such talk.it puts alota pressure on me and all those inside it.now like everyone knows and they'd mark these people for death.to beat or to destroy would be their motto.and did i mention that maid is way up the list than leon and me?we're about the last ones on the list.so its kinda scary cos it'd mean that when all those classes start we get embroiled in discussion that sound too chim for comprehension by people like us.i'm just so unsettled and unhappy about my grades.gives me that "ARGH" feeling man.pfft
thursday was really some bad day.the SAF was kinda useful without the council's take on NS.it was unnecessary and uncalled for and of course absolutely a waste of time for the first whatsoever time there was before the people who knew the real stuff came up.those in green gave a good presentation.but those in white and blue were seriously timewasters...if they hadnt presented, there woulda been a normal dismissal time.the worst is they try defend their backsides and justify why they must go make that kinda dumb presentation.but the army personnel were good...yeah.
and eggy shut up...talk too much.noone will miss you if u keep your mouth shut but everybody will hate you if u keep your mouth open.so keep in those rubbish and dont share.
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Wednesday, October 18
DUMB TARDS!!!
ok yesterday marked the end of TOK FOCUS.Thank goodness.kinda bearable despite my nasty remarks.like super applause for the ones who stayed behind?oh and we should seriously thank xin hui for wasting out time with that announcement so we can go out for dinner.the way she put, she might as well have been rapping or singing or even giving a lecture.the same effect would hold for the 131 students left.THANKS ALOT AH!!
then was dinner and home...
and i realized that PS is seriously couple hangout place.shall not elaborate anymore...hhaha
tomoro is the day of judgement for EOY.i'm either gonna get hit or get hit real bad.PFFT...
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Monday, October 16
Day of Atrocities
alamak sia.today seriously wasted time...
go school.open class, see the class all in none normal order.decided to help rearrange everything.dont blame me if u dont get your table back cos no names written man.
then there was chapel and THEN TOK focus.gosh man, i seriously appreciate the teachers organizing such events but it was kinda not really meaningful.no offense man.sheesh.was sleeping through the weird discussion.the new CPA seats absolutely rock.like damn comfortable.of course ben soh and his dumb questions came up.then some USEFUL questions came up.(Pardon me buti was in a semi awake state).then some GEP-wannabe came up in the form of a guest with some useful criticism.man, that guy doesnt know how to fine tune his answers man.like kinda alota people took offence.
and GOSH, i saw eggy ogling at the guests.oh sheesh, together with bunny and his low-slung-at-hip-OP(CannotMakeIt) bag.man, these people are guests.we should treat them with the respect they deserve and eggy and bunny, PUT UR EYEBALLS BACK WHERE THEY BELONG!!
then after that, we had this crazy idea to get all sardinecannish in Christianne's car to PS and then NOT watch movie.oh well, thats the first mistake.then Theodore suggested go play LAN.but no T shirt.then they decided to BUY budget t shirts.then michael didnt want to go.so lucky no spending on budget t shirts.then the KB-ing started.vulgarities spewed forth.and you wonder about my viper tongue...it was wrong to play LAN so late in the day and so early in the week.and its my dad's birthday...
and i'm pissed cos i rmb a particular someone did the exact same thing to me on honour's day, without even giving me enuf time to summon any KB power.guess he didnt seem to like a taste of his own medicine.no tard should go tell me go home early.hell no!
then there's the school mag.its kinda boring this yr and there was no helping ms chew this yr.even that lacked kick.sheesh.and my name wasnt even mentioned any where in NPCC,while sea unit had this nice ones of CIs.but the student council photo was kinda cool with its sundown effect.probably explains the shadow next to dickson.
and steph saw decided to celebrate midautumn festival about 2 weeks late.HAHA...she brought the SNOWSKIN!!!oh man,my whole midautumn aint got any snow skin.at least can have that taste now.haha.big thanks...and it aint any chinatown cheapskate ones man.WHOO!
ok onto day two of whatsoever.beauty and blah blah...yeah.tell me about it with david tao's tai mei li.haha
i forgot to mention Jay chou's Still Fantasy rocks man.haha.he outdid himself again...
last but most terrifying...results are coming in on THURSDAY.cant bear to see the mistakes i made with the answered questions...
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Saturday, October 14
shitez
nothin to say...been desperately sourcing out episodes of bleach on youtube.i kinda met a dead end at 26! walao, how much is the vcd man?desperate measure man
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Friday, October 13
after a day of fun
man the past two days have been -___-
dunno what to say man...but today we went for mr steven ng's lesson.kinda informative.and i'm seriously pissed at the choice of lit text for world lit.like most of em involve women.and hell, "women of circumstance" as some would say.thats kinda pathetic man.there's gonna be lil to write about man.cos every guy will say the same thing and every gals will say the opposite same thing.nvm
oh after the lesson,we went out...ate lunch and decided to watch world trade centre.man, i didnt know the reality of 911 until i saw it.kinda meaningful.kinda emotional.
and i finally bought the jay chou cd plus david tao's cd.and then move on home to watch bleach.and i'm telling you man.google's done a "good" job cleaning up youtube.like wtf man?!i cant get beyond ep 12.uptight bastards!!!only started watching after the exams man,i cant even get that kinda break.
oh yeah, was about to say this before blogger got all systemic error yesterday.my poem's not arrowing anyone in particular.its just my feelings let out from all my studying sessions.yeah, u can see what kinda poisonous thoughts i'm thinking.oh well, so no one should actually take offence cos i kinda had no one in mind when i wrote those words.ahhh, but if u insist that i was talking about u,obviously u have something to be guilty about.ah,i cant do anything about that.try a shrink
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Thursday, October 12
Lost at War
oh hell, life's not been good.
a quick update on things happening:since the start of hols,have been studying like mad but still...
english was kinda abstract, chinese compo was screwed up.kinda appreciate MT dept for trying to be original by coming up with their own lousy topics but should try sticking to past yr papers la.math 1 was a discourager.math 2 had two many parts to do for so that amt of time.bio- MCQ nid to brush up on English(hint:stop using ASTAR language) open answer was pretty ambiguous.like u dunno whats being asked.and TOO MANY ESSAY QUESTIONS.no time to write enuf content.and i realise one of those stupid delusions that people like to convince themselves after the paper.u know when u discuss answers then u end up somehow proving some people wrong.then one smart shit will try to come back with some abstract answer looking through the loopholes of the mark scheme which to a normal human being sounds remotely illogical just to prove himself right to comfort himself.frailities of the human mind man.chemistry was pretty well set but i had too many blanks.history is gonna repeat itself from common tests.too many parts for the time.business was a serious time of carpel tunnel syndrome.i swear i couldnt feel or move my hand in the middle of the exam.had to drag it using my ARM.
after exams,we went to LAN.not that i was a BIG fan of it...then we went into the toilet and saw this batch of young punks.at most 15 yrs old.they were bloody smoking.bastards...shoulda taught them a thing or two about a smokeless life.sonsofbitches love contributing to our nice PSI.GOOD JOB SMOKERS. we keep pointing fingers and end up pointing at ourselves but we dont point at these smokers.no they dont contribute to our environmental pollution, they just emit smoke.i sure hope these losers dont complain of the PSI
i've written my sentiments about exams into a poem.can get kinda graphic.if mummy and daddy says dont look at vulgar blogs.dont read any further.
"soldiers of war"
fallen in battle
forgotten by the very ones who sent us
the war's lost, our cause severed
there's no turning back, no reason for regret
new wounds open before old wounds bleed dry
we set out together, but we're left alone
our minds and skills all honed to 'perfection'
well practised in our combat simulations
we realise the real battle's nothing like those games
land mines and underhand tactics
we were almost caught in surprise
who can we blame? our teachers or testers?
why do you blame a God that won't help you score?
fuck y'all damned super soldiers
fuck y'all genetic freaks of nature
emerging from the glory of battle
based on your fucking genetics and study
the people celebrate your returns
and tell us to emulate you fuckers
you turn around and call us jealous
tell us not to blame our teachers or examiners
the worst of y'all pour salt into our wounds
while telling us there will be a better day
or its ok to keep losing
so that you can celebrate your fucking excellence
leave us alone we only ask,
let us sob in our final days before judgement
now digging my own trench/grave
i realise that hard work's not all that is
i dunno what else there is i can do
i imagine our captors saying their ever-old speech
"the effort's always not there"
they will never understand and they dont care
their cold uncompassionate faces
glare at us while hauling us to concentrations camps
my name is no longer so-and-so
its changed to something common:prisoner of war
to die than suffer any more losses
i do not wish to see anymore repeats in history
i cant take this kinda shit any longer
where super soldiers step all over my head again and again
i raise the standard issue M16 to my head, fingers poised
i press the trigger and.
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