Saturday, December 30
reflections for the year
and that's dr marc van loo and some parts of the class
that's the class and mr steven ng
there!i've uploaded the fotos we took with teachers who're leaving or left.i'm feeling nostalgic about leaving 2006.ok, mainly cos i wan another two months. one more month to settle my assignments and then one month to really have fun and rot away.but that's not gonna happen.business IA, i need to get u done by tuesday.
unpleasantries of the year( in no order of shittiness):
grades - they've been crappy, look really bad in the presence of others.brings me to the next....
feeling of getting beaten - it feels like shit.ok geniuses aside, but people getting monster grades are simply demoralizing.people getting into dean's list for more than 2 subjects is really awe-inspiring.simple powerful
the way the class is run - pardon me, but i'm pretty unhappy with the way some things are done. 25 times 3 bucks to buy few boxes of OLD CHANG KEE sotong balls sound familiar?or some characters getting recognition for the same things u do but never get recognised just cos u don't have XX sex chromosome.ponning school cos lessons not for learning? snitching on stuff that the guys do all cos of some goody-two shoes? sound familiar much?
the pathetic pity that we shower on pitiful characters like those holding up water and can't seem to excrete it like normal people...
the student council's antics - i'm terribly sorry i have to bring this up.everyone pay $2 for a party whether going or not sound familiar?its always the $$ part that sucks when its siphoned from our pockets
the june school fees - bet all of ye didnt see the circular eh? probably about 230 bucks on top of the one you're paying.heartbreak baby...
being in the same class with a certain someone from sec 3 and 4.its sad man.
playing LAN - u pay to see yourself lose and then get verbally abused by a in-the-heat-of-the-moment theodore and get pangsehed by a CS-occupied michael.
THAT DEMERIT POINT!!! - all cos i decided to skip one time in my nice record while others have skipped and escaped.
guys that turn into ghosts of their formal selves - what can i say? the gals are a miracle
ATC - organisation, no time to study, non-cohesion of ex and in,pss pss pss
no go-go outing - deprivation of outings man
gals on top - those specifically in class.those that behave like little gals and those that try to define guys.
that barker insulter - punk that spat in the face of an acsi in CIBTC december.with that gay look,its just sad.
PLEASANTRIES:
gals - like unpleasantries, there're nice ones too...not gonna elaborate.they're a breath of fresh air and a hurricane spelling ownage in grades
pals - they've brought u much happiness and close bonding
teachers - well we're lucky we've got close friends like em right?
errr....anglolympics? where i get to foul and not get caught
TOK and EE done in 2 months
NO LOVE - oh yeah oh yeah...no stirring of the heart.
BLEACH
DEATH NOTE
CIBTC - the recent one...gives u memories of last yr.and a reunion
THATS IT!!!
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Friday, December 29
business IA
i must conquer you by the time school starts
but first i gotta summon the inspiration to do so.i'm like all lazy to do another thousand word plus essay....
shit man
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Thursday, December 28
LONGER HOLIDAYS!....pls?
I NEED MORE TIME!!!
i've busines IA to complete. CAS forms(not so much left).RESEARCH!!! READING UP!!!
ALL NOT DONE!
i'm a huge disappointment to my goals.
what's happenning for squad outing?
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Monday, December 25
Where's the Sprit?!
oh... merry Christmas to all people who celebrate it. it is not an event celebrated here.first off... Christmas eve:
it started pretty gloomy.rain rain.then we decided to go to the ikea at tampines.well guess what? it was too long a queue so my mum, in all her irrationalities, said she didn't want to go anymore...go home
at night, my sis went off for a dinner while we contemplated walking to eat.then after that, my mum herself said don't want to go already.so we didn't go at all.stayed at home where no celebration of the festival at all
today, my brother had to have the intelligence to go punch his bathroom mirror.of course it cracked.then when he went to report it to mum, he couldn't give a reason why he did it.stupid fool.not even a weak excuse.it got my mom angrier and she started threatening with stupid empty statements like throwing chair.and even confessed to having no qualms of doing things that normal humans will regret. she even said that she has been like that from young.man, if a person has not developed from young, she is in a really pitiful state and probably barks louder than bite. the rest of the day was spent in gloom.
i'm not afraid to share this with the world cos i want people to know that the word "family" is a rather empty one.one that is probably some coined term to describe people living under the same roof. and whoever said "blood is thicker than water" must be referring to it strictly interms of biology and chemistry. certainly i ain't gonna call these festive spoilers "loved ones"!oh well, i have time and patience.there will be the day that they are no longer useful.i'm just pissed off that my Christmas is always spoiled by my brother and mum.it's like clockwork that never fails to work.
one thing i did this year that i really regret: stopping my dad from throwing my brother out of the house.
fuck man.and mark's probably busy sms-ing merry christmas to his multiple gals in his ever busy mobile phone that he couldn't be bothered to just reply some yes/no question.
fuck this holiday
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Sunday, December 24
D06: The 71st CIBTC Passing Out Parade
it's the moment of the week!the D06 passing out parade...lui and i went in using the really hardworking way:DUTY and ended up being ushers.pointing in one direction for the parents greeting officers.moving benches.watching the parade.sorry no parade fotos cos it'd loook unprofessional.but then as i watched the batch come in, i saw familiar faces of instructors.amanda's like the coordinator of this course while kengsiong's squad instructor again.haha.those two weren't seen at the parade with my eyes tho. there was jia hong as instructor. and memories of last yr flooded back.it's been some times that we had.all that scoldings all that havoc we wreaked and fun we had.of course i also saw that barker boy that spat in the face of Ben Chia.it's kinda ironical that some barker punk would spit in the face of one of our CIs. it was a good reunion of squad 5 and some hanging out after that till late.lucky i had ben chia follow me east or it'd woulda been one lonely long journey on MRT.and the funniest thing is i saw samuel kwek at eunos.
oh well christmas time is seriously wet and gloomy.we haven't eaten dinner now and nobody's set on going out.sheesh.this sucks man.
oh well merry christmas everyone!
HEH...some touching up of uniform and a pathetic cam-whore moment
That's a CI from the old generation and a CI from the new generation
and again...what's with that eye, Ben Chia?
Lui and Ben Chia
Wan Yi and Ben Chia
to Muthu: Wish you were here...
Squad 5 reunited after a yr and a week!
From left to right:tian guan, amanda, me, mandy, kenneth, wan yi, keng siong, iskandar, jia hoong, jia hao
Squad 5 again...a more appropriate shot.
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Friday, December 22
Reflections on the holidays
i'm totally disappointed with myself.
this holiday i've only done EE and TOK.and some CAS reports.wasted time.i've left alota CAS and pracs to do. i'm super scared for next yr and i think i'm gonna be a goner when school starts next yr
i just say ms yvonne lim's comments on CAS file.man what's with URGENT!!!i'm just giving u what u wanna see. of course there's unfinished proposals and AEFs that are not even printed.it was exam time.study had higher priority.sheesh.
man, i'm scared scared scared.my dad just put pressure on me by getting me a creative zen microphoto. i'm not saying him getting it is a bad thing.but the pressure that comes with it is really stunning.i wish for more weeks of holidays.
and my brother the screw-up...haiz, its plain disgraceful being out with him.man, like walking a dog with no leash. the dog is also not well-trained. two roads lay i front of me:i can jump at the first chance to renounce relations with him or make his life a living hell. i'd choose the first one.he's too irritating and absolutely not worth making life hell for.it'd dirty my hands
on a lighter note, i'm going for D06's POP.
haiz,this year's christmas is like sooooo dry....
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Monday, December 18
D05 YEAH
oh yeah. it sure took me some time but this post is to commemorate our coming of our 1 year of CI-hood. 1612...POPO... we were all muttering this or rather calling out loud the date of our passing out parade when we moved from point to point. we survived various trials and came thru as P/CIs. i remember the excitement i felt last year the few hours before the real thing.i thought i would never see it but it came.and our squad was holding strong with our nonsense going on.
the names of squad 5:
ahmad
iskandar
hasmidah
michelle
weijun
sharbana
jia hoong
tian guan
mandy
ivan
aaron
kenny
wanyi
jiahao
bronson
kenneth
muthu
sean
keng siong(instructor)
amanda(instructor)
we've had some fun times and some tense times.of course i'm all rusty.ahhh...
oh yeah, i've got the vcds and cds i wanted.oh man and i didnt know windstruck was so touching and it's like the prequel to my sassy gal.it even included cha tae hyeun. absolutely touching too man.i can't wait to watch Il Mare.heheh....oh yeah.
my sis has come back.no claps man.its just plain one more competitor for the computer.ah shitez, i'd just use her laptop to do my stuff. don't need internet connection anyway.
and i found this really nice song.absolutely reminding u of Christmas
What Child Is ThisWhat Child is this who, laid to rest
On Mary’s lap is sleeping?
Whom angels greet with anthems sweet,
While shepherds watch are keeping?
This, this is Christ the King,
Whom shepherds guard and angels sing;
Haste, haste, to bring Him laud,
The Babe, the Son of Mary.
Why lies He in such mean estate,
Where ox and ass are feeding?
Good Christians, fear, for sinners here
The silent Word is pleading.
Nails, spear shall pierce Him through,
The cross be borne for me, for you.
Hail, hail the Word made flesh,
The Babe, the Son of Mary.
So bring Him incense, gold and myrrh,
Come peasant, king to own Him;
The King of kings salvation brings,
Let loving hearts enthrone Him.
Raise, raise a song on high,
The virgin sings her lullaby.
Joy, joy for Christ is born,
The Babe, the Son of Mary.
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Wednesday, December 13
The End of a Story
Dark clouds loom overhead
while the lunar sun shines above
the spirit of christmas is in the air
as lovers hold themselves in each other
and friends get together for a merry occasion
pollution is everywhere
when u take a walk down orchard road
the long line of decorations
give u the feel of homeliness
this Christmas is in the heartland
but not in your heart
this pervading loneliness emanates
from the throbbing pain in your heart
that beauty depicted in coloured glass cracked
that diary of treasured memories up in flames
everything has fallen to pieces now
a story of details from a year plus
has come to an end
the lone wolf rears its head and howls
the moon is there and the sky is there
this is the end of something
and the start of a new life
let the wind carry your tears away
have a merry christmas, my friend
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Saturday, December 9
Boring Week
its been some boring week man. i've done my TOK essay draft.now.. its all boring
i need to have some income. don't have to remind how 25 bucks got swept out from my wallet.how to go about penniless?
oh mann, i'm looking for $$ to buy the Il Mare VCD from MJ, the five song soundtrack by that ming bridges who did a real good rendition of it and the corrinne may soundtrack.haha altogether 40 dollars please...
and something about public transport really sucks man. i was freaking waiting for 966 to come by and it took more than half an hour.bloody hell, i've never heard of any worse inefficiency than this.u can guess the huge army waiting for the bus at parkway when i got down.it was IMMENSE.trans-island should be ashamed of themselves for letting passengers wait so long for a bus as if its some big deal.and it aint some limousine either.
the spirit of christmas is in the air.but this year there's no party in the family calendar.and there's no $$ for Christmas shopping.I guess there's only myself to celebrate with for Christmas.basketzz
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Sunday, December 3
Poem
December's stars are shining
the spirit of the season is upon us
give your good wishes, spread your love
find that special one and enjoy the moment
one of wondrous awe and loving warmth
treasure your times as they're imprinted
left as records in your memories
leaving behind the lonely hearts
the dust snows on our tropical heartland
you don't need to go to Snow City for the freeze
it's all around u as u go
still, take a snowball and work out a sculpture
a Miss Snowwoman of unmeasurable beauty
her eyes so lifeless and lips so cold
a face so perfect, frozen from time
how do you make a snow heart of kindness
one that beats with warmth and love?
where is she in this warm winter wonderland?
nowhere to be seen in the camouflage of "snow"
evading the gaze, parrying the sights
while the Christmas carolers sing "First Noel"
the voices of angels augment the loneliness
as this almost cold heart slowly turn to ice
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Friday, December 1
behind schedule
ARGHGHG...i shoulda done finish all my IAs and essays.but up to now, i'm only researching for TOK.ho.. haiz
man, dont u love the feeling of christmas coming?but it means a new year coming.today's like the last month of the year.the feeling that christmas gives you is just simple strange and wonderful.
i need to finish TOK and Business IA by next week.heh
Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
our troubles will be out of sight
Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on,
our troubles will be miles away.
Here we are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.
Through the years
We all will be together,
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself A merry little Christmas now
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